I can't pour white out all over my life
And erase all the mistakes I've made
And I wouldn't want to
Without those I've learned nothing in my life
I've never tripped on my doubt
Or spilled milk all over my hate
And that scares me more than
Hitting myself in the face with my jealousy
Or sleeping with fear in my mouth

Fear of failure,
Fear of rejection,
Fear of the unknown,
Fear of being left alone.
All these fears haunted me
Like an insect trapped in a spider's web
Waiting to be eaten alive
Or die from those fears.
These fears hindered me to be free
Left me achored in the shore
Not letting me sail the vast ocean
To see what's in store for me.
These fears are suppressing me
Not letting me learn and grow
Not even letting me indulge into some pleasures.

Like the sea
So my heart
Has come to be

One moment
Calm and still
Soft blue breeze
Moments later
Raging
Crashing
Furious waves in a storm

My mind
My heart
My soul
Never knowing
Constant chaos
Always distant from the truth

They say I should make new friends.
But it seems like everytime I do that
They get taken away from me.

I might never have happiness,
Will I?

The smile on her face
Has been replaced with a frown
The cheeriness in her eyes
Has been replaced with emptiness
The laughter in her voice
Has been filled with sorrow
The blush on her cheeks
Has been stained with tears
The old scars on her skin
Have been renewed with a blade
The recovery she was so proud of
Has been taken away