I spend lonely nights wishing time would stand still, waiting in anticipation to once again feel, the warmth and tenderness of your loving caress
Days so long, nights so much more, I cant believe how far I am from the times of  before, there was a world of so much but always there we were, on our own path with nothing to deter,
Storms did rage and the journey of salvation  begun,  out of caring arms reach, out on a limb we were strung, no fables written so myths were to be made, but in the line of fire, along lifes great highwire, the responsibility and burden of modern life was played
And so I lost you to the clutches of the abyss of uncertainty, so many parts of the structure of experience transformed into a grey of normality, I turned as I climbed to see no shadow just a vacant void of realism, I can feel its presence and it fuels the scepticism
Where and why you have gone come of no surprise, no great revelation, life has a nasty habit of just ticking by, all forms of growing up are now passed as you pass into lifes great complication
I embrace each day as I look forward to the next, getting older and learning how to survive are not written in some secret text, the world around continues as you continue to evolve, the conundrums and connotations, the mysteries and diversions, they become problems that on their own they tend to solve,
For me and my life there has always been just the one plan, of conformity, regularity, normality and uniformity, I have never been a great fan, that rock of marble I shall carve, the lines and the contours, forged from my own bare hands, the story unfolds as I travel the lands, no fear , for each imposing year, just as always intrepid anticipation does await, my existence has no time to hesitate, full on , headstrong, and no deviation, my life will not be moulded by lifes great expectation, I am me this is how it shall forever be

I've drifted far
Dug a deep scar
Flanked in treason
No rhyme , no reason
My name a blur
My speech a slur
The foundations tremble
The demons assemble
I am lost
I am free
I am lost
and the devil is in me
Naked
Impaled
No fear to fall
Awake
Aware
As nature did call

Spread like wild fire
Scorching the land
An unstoppable force
On an unpredictable course
Into the soil
Into the ground we walk
Unpredictable with its saturation
Around the globe unto every nation
The water we drink
The food we eat
Infected now with some obscure disease
Bringing the world and it's power
To it's begging knees
No pain and suffering
No rash no fever
Just dizzy spells and blurred vision
As the citizens of earth
Endure this transition
Away from the solace of their solitude
Away from the modern mayhem and its debilitating attitude
Into a no mans land
A land of peace , of an intolerance towards
Anymore of intolerable rewards
Shrouded in no mystery
A life like no mythology
The power of unity
Void of vanity
Peace love freedom for all
It's in the air we breathe
It's natures call

Today shall be how yesterday was
Tomorrow will be much the same
And every day shall be as history is played
Until the decision is made
To try another game

I see no difference
More a change in preference
The reasons for and the reasons against
Now just a point of reference
The power never shifts
And the balance never tilts

There are no secrets
No great conspiracies
The truth is out there
It's written in manifestos and policies
Entrenched into the laws
To which we abide
And helping the aggressors,
The instigators of our realities
To run far and hide

The eternal
The infernal
The dictator
The navigator
Bare faced and brazen
In the fields you work
Unlawfully grazing

What can we do
When all the time
Old becomes new
A life on repeat
In constant retreat
With no holds barred
And battled scarred
Take note, take heed
I will not bow down
And accept defeat

thick and heavy in the sunlit air, the melancholic sharpness of uncertainty

splicing through the impenetrable blue skies of content contamination
confusion hot on its fiery tail, obnoxious with it's absurdity

more frightening though, is it's complexity

steadfast with its evolution, a mutated gene moving with us through our  tumultuous times

taken now as a way of life, where your decisions made, in someone else's game they are played

I am an extremist
Proud to shout
From inside to out
But I know I'm not a terrorist

My views are so far
So distant to yours
And mine I think have started no wars
Never blown someone to pieces with a bomb packed car

I've not killed the innocence of youth
I've not killed anyone
I have shot a gun
But I will only answer to the truth

I am an activist
One who seeks something far from modern day realities
Perhaps I am involved in too many fantasies
But I am an activist, just this one is a pacifist

I am extreme
What I seek  to spread though through a passive path of peace
Would be to unite , to embrace and to never release
But I am an extremist and I am so detached from your dysfunctional dream

The distraction of attraction
The intention , of what, your thoughts did mention
A fleeting glimpse, the curtain slightly pulled
A vision , on your hard drive installed
For hours for days the distraction remains
This attraction shall have you in chains
You smile
You laugh
You cry for your pain
Tears for the loss of something never owned
The ghost has never been seen again

Your safety deposit boxes,
We shall hunt them with foxes
Tear them apart seam from seam
Weld from weld
Only for so long
Could your riches be held

Like the pariah that you are
You have left a great scar
Only to be healed
By chasing your worthless **** for hours across a muddy field
And when you come to an untimely end and go off to meet your maker
The only great thing you will be remembered for
Is how you were such a great taker

No balance
No sanity
Your ways and means
The greatest profanity
Yes we need money
And no there is no problem with wealth
But are we always to measure prosperity
Against another's poor health

Let the grief that washed over you, be the cleansing of your soul,
though it may have ripped out your heart, embrace and move on,
help to fill another hole

All those years you cried
always felt denied,
time to just let go
and let the serenity simply free-flow.
Impossible to carry
a weight so destructive
a journey any further
would be so unproductive

To follow in footsteps where confusion does rule
is to endorse the pain of the fact that for so long you have been a fool
Emotions run deep, and it is here we keep
the illusion of our ignorance
the result of our sufferance

We all have our demons, our closeted ghosts,
fragments of our imagination that have been our host.
The battle that rages from within
let it be nothing more than a diminishing din

Away from the shores of false comforts and preposterous preconception,
there is a land of wonder, peace and emancipation
you may never forget, you may never forgive
but with  animosity and an emotional monstrosity,
a way to never truly live.
Come to terms with an acceptance that all cannot be how you want it to be
open your eyes and be amazed at what your heart can so lovingly see

Oh well! I just passed wind in the chapel of rest
I'm sure the old geezer laying  in the middle of the room would laugh if he weren't quite inconveniently deceased
Its this primeval instinct that separates us from the other animals, this ability to shake hands with fate yet still laugh in its face
A firm side swiping smack of reality is all it takes at times to just get up and get on with it
Yes i am the first to destroy and dissect the happiness that surrounds, but i am also one of the first to discard the misfortune and stride head on into my direction , far from the reaches of turmoil.
Never have i stayed for too long in a situation that undermines the quality of existence , the desire to carry on
There is always the next thing a journey to be had
There always will be another way to enlighten
A smile is never far from a frown
When the hard times press then push back harder
Forge an existence, one that compliments
One that takes away the unnecessary
The body on the slab, it cannot laugh,but I reckon just before the time of departure it broke into a small smile of content conviction
The experience is what takes you on
Its the memories that fill your empty box
When my time comes my smile shall reign, it will define
Time not wasted
For life was tasted

I sometimes curse the day I was born
as from this life we all are torn.
As quick as an eye
does easily blink
so there shall be
nothing to think.
So I will indulge
my experience will bulge
till it bursts at the seams,
no time for those unfathomable dreams.
Our bodies tire
as we live to expire
holding on to the inspiration
of our memories,
and no matter what
whether you have or have not
the last post will sound
when it does please

Insanity
Is how it shall be
Now that normality
Has departed,
Long gone
And uncharted

That line in the sand
It did expand
It swallowed whole
Every unstable soul
Every extremist
Every fanatical fantasist

Our morals drowning
In a sea of demons
An ocean of dystopian dreams,
Where we now lust and embrace
Such ludicrous extremes,
Vivid vivisections
Of intricate intersections

This alternative in place
Wears a mask on it's face
A disguise of lies
With a desire to despise
A parade of a pompous parody
To control through chaos
And manipulate humanity

Careful how you tread
And from whose hand you are fed
What you seek as innocence
Is ***** under the influence
Drugged and deranged
Compassion exchanged
On the stock market floated
And for all of this ,
This life of inadequacy
We stood in lines and voted

Friends we said till the bitter sweet end
So please, wont you stay, just untill another year
Then when it comes we shall laugh in the face of our grey hair and wrinkled skin
We know not, what lies ahead
So hesitate a while, sit back and ponder
Inside of our madness their does lie wisdom, solitude and grace
Yes those times of heartache, they are oh so real
But you have to realize, that's not always how you will feel
Let your worries be mine and let always the sun in your heart  shine
I am here , a rock to rest on, a shoulder to take
Let my friendship hold you , and help you never to  let your love break
Stay with us for a while longer
And together we shall be so much stronger

I was talking to the dead, just the other day, on my way home from town
Probably the best conversation in years,
There they were, in my memories.
Standing proud, smiling strong
I told them how they were missed, how they still manage to inspire from so far away into the dark
Some though, still my contempt runs deep for the sword like scar they have left as part of remembrance
These apparitions, they never spoke, they embellished reality,
For 10 whole minutes, that had the faint taint of an eternal whisper, it was for me a reality of subconscious yearning
The surreal was today
With the reason of today , I got to play
And as I knew that it was only going to end with an effervescent evolution into the here and now
I said goodnight, and I love you still,
Stay close to my heart, and always our time shall be forever real

The prophecy
The preposterous fallacy
Entwined in the galaxy
The human tragedy

Self satisfaction
The earths depletion
Is it fact, is it fiction
To perish is to serve
Our twisted tradition

We care not what we consume
We live on our laurels
Punishing as we presume
We will find the answers
In a darkened room

Our dreams, they deny
The tales of fortune,  they are a lie,
We hope that the aspiration to succeed
Outweighs the truth of our desires for greed

And so it ends
A distress call in the dark extends
Echoes, just for a solitary moment
Then the silence of your dreams dance naked
As the world continues,  oblivious
Just like the others, oh so obvious,

I'm leaving this place,"

Said the smile upon my face,

"I've made you happy for far too long, you dont need me now to make you strong"

"Will I see you again ?, my dear honest compadre, "

No response, gone , not for good though ,

Off to help another with this shambolic show

Its down to me , myself and my strength in the face of the depression that consumes all around

Its down to me, to show humility, have the honour and the compassion to help my life reverberate with a healthy sound

I saw on the news

The smile like a virus had spread to help eradicate the blues

Whole country's now full of elation

Around the world being adopted into folk lore like a long lost relation

I was proud, I stood  to attention, took the salute

My smile was now yours , pain and sorrow replaced by laughter

And like a fairytale , a dream of living happily ever after

The value of your worth
A key element for survival on earth
To have the acceptance and the compassion to hold yourself high amidst the obviously obvious, that is so blindingly benign
I have the power , the authority,  to think, make plans , make choices
The insight to ignore the vacuum of voices
I lead, I follow
And live to never swallow
The ignorance of the masses with their science fiction
Live life on my terms and not some others contradiction
It’s plain and simple , steadfast and true
Your life truly depends on you
Every mishap and mistake
Whatever it is you make or break
You are the driver the navigator, the dictator
The sole survivor
Of a story sublime
A story short
A story long
Full of mystery
Full of song
A story though of how to yourself
You did belong

My innocence bludgeoned
A witness to the harsh realities
I seem to entertain
Always to remain
Chained to my experiences
To the delusional that is dealt

Tainted wisdom wreaked its havoc
The wrath of my youth
Was not going to become my truth
This emotionless and faceless society
Had captured and rendered my life ,
An inconsequence of birth
No apparent worth
De-sensitized to the debauchery
A place already booked
In the mortuary

I've grown to discover my own design
I'll not whimper and perish
In the corner, out of the way
I will endeavour to unfold
Tear back the layers
To a brighter day
Forge a friendship
With fortitude
Enjoy my freedom
As my innocence now
Lives in solitude

The sound of peace silenced by a thousand guns at war
Silenced by a thousand voices with words they have used before
The avenues of unity and humanity, no longer do the voices explore
My heart and my soul they suffer , I bleed with the torture from within, the actions of so many I so deplore
Serenity subdued, quite conveniently quashed, the hands of the perpetrators so easily washed ,those who seek, left behind left out there in the wild the bleak, voiceless and destitute, forever free,and forever resolute
The sound of peace is the noise of those  who endure, those whose thoughts lean towards pure, maddened by the monstrosity of life with its parade of parasites, a disease with no cure, the sound of white noise  to keep peace from your door
The sound of peace the crying of an orphan child, a refugee before he's turned three, the politics of peace in the land of his father, is the sound of desolation, a way to dampen and eradicate the sound of inspiration, this sad child knows only a sound so wild, the sound of a land viciously *****, and from its pavements of beggars, streets of vagrants , it can never be scraped.
The sound of our sovereignty, the sound of our ruling state, the sound of a cash machine, the sound of another devious deal declared, into the dark hours of deceit the sound of brokers exchanging gifts as they fictitiously negotiate
The sound of our country, the sound of our victory, the sound of our old dying in care homes fit only for dying rats, the sound of the nhs run by pompous over paid blood ******* fat cats, as patients and nurses suffer, they continue to help each other, the sound of our great land, whispers and secret deals with the upper echelons who have always had the upper hand,
The sound of now , this modern age , the sound of your child crying at 42, faced with a torture of finance , a restraint of  existence and excess responsibility, no reason to be no reason to do, more so than ever a slave to the wage that seems to furnish so much more for others, you can only sit by and listen to the sound of brothers killing brothers
Our greatest new age noise the suicide inducing tremor of look at what we have created and how it is so silent those who turned out as the great gift of capitalism was celebrated, silent if it were not for the greatest noise you can hear, it grows and grows void of any past fabled fear

In-between the spiral that surrounds
I hear distant solidifying sounds
A life set in stone
A life lived in a distorted monotone

The clouds they devour
I am sodden from their acidic shower
Melting my skin into elasticity
No escape from the complexity

The hairs on my hand
Vertical they stand
A look in the mirror, nothing there
One last look to know if I care

Shattered into submission where insecurity shines
Around my frame the fragmented fury entwines
I cannot laugh, I cannot speak
Motivation has become antique

The fading glory shimmers to a tepid stream of unsympathetic solitude

Defend your honour
Your means to an end,
From the inglorious to ecstasy
You shall transcend,
Fall apart and dream a dream
Fall far from
The swollen stream,
Take light
Take dark
Take infatuation,
Live hard
Live fast
And seek no inexplicable
Explanation,
The fire in your soul
The mindlessness of your mind,
Let them not battle
Let them not
Render you blind,
Your path
Your choice
Your reason
Your voice,
Let no others
Put you asunder
Let the world hear
Your crack of thunder

You thought with the passing of time your wounds would heal,
The scars remain though reminding you how you feel
Years elapse
Our memories collapse
And so upon them we do build
We craft a way into the optimistic blue sky
Far from the conflicts
The wars on why

God is nature, it is the beauty that shines the grace that surrounds, this the deity that holds the prophecy
The wealth of existence the extremities of life, the obstructions and the constructions, they are the dictators
If wind never blew and sun never shone then how would we be
Without the rain and the snow, day and night, how then could we see
When looking for your creator your master, look no further than the grass outside, the trees that bend and sway
God is nature, it's written in the stars,  the pinnacle of vision can surely be the space that surrounds the space we occupy,.
The sheer magnitude of our existence measured against the seemingly infinite darkness that caresses and toys with us , like a newborn in its mothers clutches,, so greatly misunderstood by such a vast majority, its very presence strikes  to the core of your soul, forcing the mind to question, the mind shall, and does answer with an explanation that will either be satisfactory, enough and will incur no more than an  external  influence dictating to internal workings, or you will dive deeper into the rabbit hole and rest never until truth rhyme and reason homogenize into a vision of perfection that blinds and stuns.
The voice you hear inside is the wind of reason whistling, it is the sound of grass growing , hot lava flowing, the burning crackle of a forest at war , the sound of rain on a concrete floor,
The spirit and your soul, it is the burning glow from the sun and the freezing fragmentations of warmth comfort and hospitality, this is you at large.

For love to flourish
Some ideas on life we need to punish
And for unity to feel unified
Some old philosophies should be denied
A universal charter of peace
One that imprisons any aggressor with no signs of an early release
Third world or new world, rich and poor
Eternally searching for so much more
At breaking point and primed for implosion
Standing at the towns gates and cheering totalitarianism on its arduous march into expulsion
As masses we move in uncertain terms
Living to absorb , to almost defend the disease, the genetic germs
The crowd ask questions, seek answers of clarity
Settling no more for the disgust of others impunity
Maybe the balance will tilt
And the toxic flowers of the current state of affairs begin to wilt
Global humanity free to exist and have an honest future of preservation
Not just confined to a future in some wildlife conservation

A world divided
by the undecided
great thinking nations
parade their pathetic explanations
and in between
where cultures clash
the disease that is sold
is just a nasty rash

A world entwined
where reality is redefined
each ruling power
builds a higher tower,
in defence of its lands
its assets, its worth,
continuing to pile higher
their ******* on our earth

A world renowned
for the loudest sound,
shattering our foundations
giving to us complex complications
we have great uncertainty
thanks to supposed great thinkers,
who sit back and ponder
why are our cities full of heavy drinkers

A world severely saturated
by a world frustrated,
a world of consumption, of immoral obesity
a world that's long forgotten , justice for humanity
a world in an horrific state of unbelievable shock
a world crumbling fast as we all chip away from the rock

the land we walk
polluted by all the wasted talk
mass graves of the innocents
they adorn our bludgeoned neon lit valleys
the politicians, the money takers and decision makers
they will continue to do as they please

Silence follows
Her entry to the room
The flowers flay
When once they did bloom
And as the warm light fades
To a frozen stream
So my love does disappear
On our broken dream

No sorrow
No guilt
Just like the flowers
Our love does wilt
No more does it lead
A star to guide
With strangers I am drunk
My secrets I confide

We will never speak
Of how we have become,
So weak
So fragile yet hardened ,as steel
No respect for the other
And how they may feel

Three decades dissipate
Into the ether they levitate
My heart, it is not broken
My love for you??
Perhaps, just a token,
We part, we walk, we don't look back
The distance grows greater
Never again , to see you later ,

Big wheel turning
What are we  learning
The world is changing
Our thoughts we are exchanging
In their place, fear, paranoia, intolerance
A world surrounds us, full of incompetence
Travel to experience, to inhale the sufferance
Paying more attention now to your own irrelevance
Your life, is it really yours
No rest till you finish your chores
Subscribe at will to the daily wars
Suffer some more under restrictive laws
Technology the new master of destruction
Subliminal and seemingly effective its intoxicating instruction
Individuality now a global condemnation
Conformity comes hand in hand with your confirmation
On the path of least resistance  the powers that command reside
Their piety pains me from the inside
Fragmented and scarred beyond recognition, the human race now runs to hide
Taxes paid and the message relayed, to so many , the truth is denied,

9th Feb 2016

the pleasing burn
                         of a resurrected sun
                       from the fading moon
                              tears do run
                        a breeze that soothes
                  through my soul it cascades
                       green valleys sparkle
                  with such beautiful parades
.            yellows that dance in a haze of blue
.          unsurpassable visions are now but a few
                              golden white
                           seeks fiery skies
                     nature has our meaning
                             she never lies
---------------------------------------------------
We can behold the pleasures of our earth within the realms of mystical intrigue and social enlightenment, surrounding me are an infinite number of concrete constructions shrouding the land we so desire,
" I see a tree, I hear a car,
capitalist nirvana is not very far,"

Tough
On
Reality
Today
Unless
Reason
Emulates
Deception.,
Somewhe­re
Obtuse
Understandings
Lay
Silent
Whilst
Intricate
Lies
Legally
Nullify
Originality.,
Transcendence
Beckons.,
Religion
Evolves
Against
Knowledge

I see demons
I see death,
I see destruction,
My own demise
My own release
This is why
I cannot see peace

Tortured from days of young
An incarceration
A burden to wear
Private words in private thoughts
And the reason for all the unforgiving ways

You have yours
And I certainly have mine
1000mph
The trajectory never a tangent
But multiple and critical
Fuelling the cynical
Shameful, sorrowful, despondent , diseased

Once or twice
I actually spoke
The response
The valued diagnosis
A joke
No words to inhale
Just sit listen and choke

So my rugged path
Wayward and distressed
Has brought it's own fortunes
And not always impressed
I ask for nothing but the same
To be accepted and shoulder no blame

You don’t need mine
Nor I yours
The messages we'd send
Of such labour and chores
Accept the difference
And take no sides
Home alone
Is where the fear hides

Is there a McDonalds in heaven
Or has Starbucks stolen the slot
Does Microsoft truly rule the world
And are you wondering if a pizza chain wants to buy your burial plot

I don't do ******* ****** m cat or blue smarties
I don't watch X Factor  East enders reality dinner dates or pointless speeches from any pointless political parties
You might think I'm boring
But I'd rather watch a dead snail snoring then suffer with wasteless wannabes' in the jungle, in a house, or in my local ice rink
Building houses , building hopes, and living a day with some sorrowful person with a ******* for all that is pink
Take your Versace your Burberry and stick it where the fake tan don't reach
Do I really need to watch some abstract earthy programme about the newly discovered south America parasitic leech
I don't dye my hair, put on male mascara, carry a man bag or listen to downloads on ridiculous sized headphones
Who won the cup , who slept with who and what royal has now been abducted by aliens who might be the enemy living at number 43
I am saddened and sickened, forced into a life of subjugation, reality tv has gripped our nation, if its not cooking and baking, marriages and undertaking, babies crying, benefit cheats lying, footballers wives, footballers cars, their haircuts and late night shenanigans in expensive bars
A world without a box and images that flash, a world without this disease and it's nasty rash,

MODERN DAY, DISTANT DREAMS
this atrocious war of insanity that rages within, the shrouded beast of dysfunctional desires that dictate and debilitate , the 24 hour transitional trance of commerce and commodity, modern day with its distant dreams
An unstoppable brute force , ruler of the skies, hearts full of love and lies, visions of hell exchanged during the first coffee of the day, modern day, its distant dreams, and battery bred headless chickens
The marketing of mayhem and prohibition of ambition, an intrinsic and intimate introvert the individual, ridiculed and ostracized for its apparent need to be that bit different,  modern day modern thoughts the future of distant dreams is but a story of hope with an ever-changing finale
****** the pariahs, the instigators of our world fires, their expectancy high their losses low, nothing new just new machinery, new symbolic scenery to cast a rope over , tie tight , clasp hands and jump, careful not to make a mess as this modern day will find a way to profit, find a way to proportion the blame,
The new world order, you cannot cross our border, not with your attitude, your inconsistent way of life, bow down to our regime, to our points of view, the theme park rides run every 20 mins, get in line get on your carriage and get busy with conformity and ignorance as these modern days run so far from the tracks of your distant dreams, no more than incapable, inert, and shuffled along into others unquestionable and unscrupulous schemes,
JANUARY 29.   2016.

The way of the good

Without the words of Gods

The design of existence

Without the creation of lies

The prosperity of our race

Void of any divine distinction

To achieve without wealth

To avoid an early extinction

To have and to hold

Without the loss

To write, is to ignite, to infuse, and perhaps refuse
To deny the reason of the powers that be
To define the reason of you and me
To inspire
And maybe even douse the fire

Words of wisdom, words of rhyme
Words that speak of our current time
The problems of humanity
The problems of control
Words of insanity
Words of profanity

Profound rage
Incarcerated onto the page
Your soul it is not up for sale
Break the spell
With words of your own tale
Write to incite, to excite, to rejuvenate
Write forever to diminish the perpetuation  of hate,

Write to *******, paralyze and maim
Write to pacify, protect and tame
A language of love of peace and not war
A language to unite and take no more

The more you live
The more you love
The more you love
The more you give
The more you give
The more you get
The more you get
The more you give
The more you give
The more you love
The more you love
The more you live

Destructive the words
From a mouth with no respect
Hurt and damage from beauty
Not what I'd come to expect

Devastating
And ever so complicating
A power fuelled by love and rage
Demonstrative and demonic
Spreads and takes hold
Like a disease, bubonic

No cure no relief
Yet in its talons we unite
Consumed with passion
One spark to ignite
A flip side
Where tears are dried
Pain solidifies
I see your name in the stars, in the skies

So hard to deter from a path
Where love rules like a wrath
We collide, we combine
We swim in the divine

A world watching a world collapsing
Its subjects frantic, its leaders as nonchalant as ever
Lifeless apparitions walk ghost- like through the mystery that surrounds
Time never heals, its parasitic preference just feeds on the time you have left

A world watching a broken world crying
The screams are ignored, the pain is recycled
Communities and cultures crash , their traditions now mythical teachings
Borders barriers, walls,  impenetrable as ever

A world watching charity consume
Its sticky little fingers stuck to the wealth of benevolence
As another dies another wallet bulges
Overpaid and overweight presides over starvation and misery

A world watching the  deconstruction of a worlds basic desire to exist in peace
The immense magnitude and diversity of intellect has only scratched the surface of a world that watches us as we make our mark , unperturbed and as always smiling the world awaits another race

Am I a black man in a white mans skin
Am I  the fire that comes from within
Am I to be held responsible for my cultures catalogue of sin
I have no idea of where my history does begin

Maybe I have the wrong genitals
In possession of a body that doesn't follow natures rules
Not a mammal just reptilian with a cold beating heart
Still not knowing where my history does start

I see the same as you through my narrowing eyes
Blinded to the unknown but I can see the lust for the lies
I didn't see a heaven as I climbed high into the skies
And never found from where it was my history did rise

A cold past
Shall forever last
Your story mine
As we all walk the same line
But around us all we build that fence
Never knowing from where our history
Did commence

Your land, not your war
But who was it that let them in the back door
It was you, it was me,
Trying to set our people free
Words spoken
So easily broken

Our futures merge
Our history we should purge
What has gone we cannot forget
So let's try to embrace that which hasn't happened yet
The value of our existence
Our great resilience
To relinquish our pain and move ahead
Our history has shown that far too many have bled

We don't talk
We won't talk
Problems grew
Far beyond me and you
The silence it calms
No reason
To take to arms

We accept the reasons why
Side by side
We walk on by
I don't speak your name
Mine is never heard
No emotions to exchange
All feelings now
Go way beyond blurred

I saw an old figure
Hunched,  but familiar
Whispering words
Words of regret
How time so quickly
Does seem to pass
Drinking from an empty glass

In a broken mirror
I can see
The person I blame
The person who won't talk to me
Fractured memories
Of a splintered past
A heart forged from stone
A heart that shall forever last

Can we take from our forefathers their wisdom and strength
Can we take it from then to be executed for the here and now
So that our prosperity
Is not in vain
Before the vicious cycle all around that drives the insane
Takes a grip so strong
And to yourself you no longer belong
Is it  to be that we are eternally tortured
Or is it just a thought occupying a mind
That in itself has been slaughtered
Barraged by the bedlam of the benign
The wind of social complexity blows **** cold
The ideas that gravitate without definition can never be told
So as life does increase
It's grasp of depravity relinquishes no release
So am I mad
Or to the core,
Is it really that bad
Are there just too many excuses to express so freely
Or have I lost all coherence and sanctioned reality
As we who create continue to perspire
And those who parade their parasitic perversions continue to feed the fire
Then words and images shall gouge their truths into the hearts of the innocents, the worthy souls who question conformity
The taking of no prisoners as a world rises from the smog of corporate contamination
We shall free our minds
We shall live severed from greed,
Bullets won't fly under the banner of political idealism
Our morals, our values they will not be castrated
But if we never see blind and deem ourselves to be but one
Then the outcome is obvious,
The painter will paint
The poet will write
Common decency, invested integrity
Manipulated
Corrupted
Finally annihilated

How can I never
Manage to sever
Thoughts of sadness
The intolerance of injustice
Not so great to miss
That comforting kiss
When as a young'un
As a growing man
Was on hand to relinquish
The burden of a broken wish
A forbidden prosperity
Cut down in my prime
A worthless commodity
I cannot discharge
I cannot destroy
I cannot survive
If I cannot employ
Reason of virtue
And of common sense
That timeless moment
Never too intense

The fallow field
the desert in my mind
the wind that blows
renders me blind

No crops no life
just dust and weeds
into this barren landscape
my inspiration bleeds

The smell of the inert
lays heavy in the air
amidst the inhospitable
I am chained to a chair

The soil the earth
these misty plains of misconception
microbes of madness mutate
tumbleweed tightens the anticipation

No creatures roam
the rivers dry bed
and as forests die
their screams fill my imploding head

A green pasture oasis
a summer rainfall to tease the synapses
right before my tired eyes
the hallucination perfectly collapses

The fallow field
the vastness within
no sooner does it end
then it starts to begin