Death is something i've always wanted
I wanted to feel myself die
I wanted to watch the blood run down my arm and my hand
I wanted to bleed till I couldn't bleed anymore
I wanted death to take over


I wanted to meet the devil

Then I meet you
You saved me
The thoughts went away
Far far away
You saved me
when i had the knife in my hand ready to meet death
you walked into my life
and said no

i cried the whole night
you stayed  with me
even when i fell asleep you stayed

we started talking all the time
I smiled and laughed
because you are my new world
I no longer wanted death
But love.

I'm done
I'm sorry to say
But I'm done

No more fighting
No more yelling
No more late night crying

My head hurts
my cheeks are stained
And I'm so dizzy

But I'm done
Sorry to say
But I'm done

My times up
And It's over
And im ready to
say Goodbye

Because no more fighting
No more yelling
No more late night crying

If I say that I'm done

I guess I won
I guess I won all the fights
I guess I won those nights
the ones that made us smile and laugh

All the fights
till sometimes 3am
That made me cry till no end
I guess you won all of those
The ones that made me explode

Now I see you with someone new
Winning all those fights too

She's smiling and laughing like I use to
But I can see in her the pain that you gave me too

But I see a change you too
The anger is almost gone
But replaced with something more

More people will get hurt as time goes on
There's nothing we can do
Besides hope that we don't get hurt even more too

I loved him
I truly loved him
But you shouldn't fear the one you love
At lest I think you shouldn't

He loved
He truly loved me
But you shouldn't yell at the one you love
At lest I think you shouldn't

I would always say I love you
But you would never say I love you too just love you too
You would yell and throw things
I would say it's ok. Please. Stop.



I loved him
I truly loved him
But you shouldn't fear the one you love.

He loved me
Or so I thought
I guess I knew he didnt from the start

Of yes the pain is back
My chest hurts
So does my head
I can't open eyes
Without wanting to cry

Everywhere I look all I see is blood
Blood in my hair
Blood on my hands
Blood on my clothes
Everywhere I look I see blood

The blood I see is mine
It's the blood that came out when I cried
This blood came from me
Because I made myself bleed
Thats why all I see is blood

I feel nothing
I see nothing
I smell nothing
It's like all feeling is gone

My heart is beating I think?
But it's all blury and cold

I try to stand up
But My body wont work

It's like im frozen to the earth
On my bed
With no where to go

I hear yelling
My mother voice is what im hearing
She saying my name over and over

I shut my eyes
I feel warm inside

So I open them
To see a fiery hell like place

I shut my eyes again
Hopping it's a bad dream

When I open my eyes
I find myself on my bed
With a pill bottle in my hand

I go downstires to see my mother on the phone
She was talking to him
The one that pushed me to this

You broke my heart
You told me you wouldn't
I asked you
Will you break my heart?
You said no never

I guess you lied
I guess that's my fault
I believed you
I said OK

I told you everything
And you told me
I trusted you
I loved you
But you hurt me

Now I feel like I can't breath
My chest is caving in
I'm gasping for breath
The tears yes the tears
I feel them staining my cheeks

You broke me
You cheated
You lied

Now I trust no one
Because that day when I asked
Will you break heart?
And you said no never
that was your first lie.

I don't know why it hurts
And I don't know why I cry
But I do
Same with you

We use to talk day and night
But now its time to say goodbye

I wanna **** him
I want to make him pay
He hurt me
he made me wish I was dead

I hate him!

But I wanna cry in his arms
I want to be with him
He did love me
He made me wish I would always be his

But I love him!

Sure he hurt me
Sure he cheated
Sure he lied

But I hurt him
I pushed him away
And I also lied

Before The night is over
And the sun has set
And the snow melts
And the winter is gone


Let all be filled with joy
With hopes and no regrets


  Before the memory fades
Let me just say Merry Christmas, Happy holidays,
and a Great New Year

The waiting is killing me
The waiting for the words that will make me cry
The waiting for the words that will make my heart go in two

I can see in your eyes that your hurt
I can see that your mad with me
I can see that in some ways you hate me

But I also see that you still love me
So I dont really know why are doing this
Why your making me wait
Why your hurting both of us

You keep saying I love you
So I say I love you too

But every time you say I love you
You never look at me
You look to the side

So stop making me wait
Stop hurting us both
If your gonna say the words then say them

Just say "Im breaking up with you"
Stop making me wait
Because it will hurt more If you do