I eat my heart out
The weight on my shoulders
Now lies in my gut,
I'm consumed
In the consummation
Of what consumes me,
Thick skin
Getting thicker,
What better way
To build my defenses,
They won't be able to break in
Any longer,
They'll chide
And I'll take another bite,
They'll point
And I'll have another sip,
Who's eating who?
Weight off my shoulders
And into my soul,
It's all starting to taste the same...

APAD15 - 013 © okpoet

She bled tears
And cried blood
A cold mixture
Of fears
Like black mud,
Her sad face
A fixture
In my mind
That I could not remove
Without a trace,
And in its spot
Left nothing but unkind
Thoughts and a
Fading will to move
Beyond and afar
My comfort zone at play
On this big blue dot,
She haunts me
Like a distant star
As I look out over the sea...

APAD15 - 012 © okpoet

Her eyes
Say more
Than her lips
Ever could,
Deeply she loves
And just as thirsty
She drinks
In to quench
That which she lacks
And yearns for
When silence falls
Upon her shoulders
And she wishes
A surrender of love
Even if brief,
But for a moment
So she can cherish it
Forever even after
The reciprocation
Has left her...

APAD15 - 011 © okpoet

They'll ask
Of me,
Where is she?
Your significant otter,
And I'll answer
I know not
What's become of her
Like a balloon lost
I did not hold on tight,
And we'll look to the sky
As if there
And sudden
She'll appear,
She'll come back
They say,
And I'll agree
Somewhat
Half & halfheartedly,
Hoping upon hope
Behind my forlorn smile...

APAD15 - 010 © okpoet

Parting curtains
I look out upon the world
Outside and foreign
Though familiar
After years,
It's always grey
Or gray
To me,
As I gather myself
To walk out the door,
I'm smiling
Because you're out there
I know,
And I'll see you
The only color
In all the black and white,
And maybe together
We'll paint
The earth
Bright...

APAD15 - 009 © okpoet

Upon your smile
I came running
Wanting to get closer
And closer
And soon I did
As close as I could get
So near
I ended up
On the other side
Of you,
I wanted to be
Creamer
To your coffee,
But I was more oil
To your water,
And so I float
Like clouds
Across the land,
I see you
And I fall upon you
Gladly,
Into your gutters....

APAD15 - 008 © okpoet

I used to
Feel the rush
As you'd arrive
Like the ocean
At my feet,
In anticipation
I'd run away
Before I could
Get drenched,
Even without
An embrace
I'd feel you
As if you were
All around me,
A comfortable
Envelopment
Like the warmth
Of the sun,
But now I miss
The sand
Between my toes
Even more...

APAD15 - 007 © okpoet