Who told you
All the words
I needed;
I wanted to hear?
Like coloring in
By the numbers
This ugly is to the bone,
I'm caught up
In your barbed wire
And as the lies cut deep
I'm struggling
To be free,
Seems I just can't
Get away,
And these scars
Are bleeding  all over
Wished my heart
Were as calloused
As my hands,
But the blisters are
Just beginning;
And what hurts worst
Is I know this isn't
The last or the first...

APAD13 - 128 © okpoet

Hot kisses
From cold eyes
Dead hearts
Within warm bodies,
More bones than
Dalmatians,
And every single one
Is broken,
What if the cage
Freed the bird
And the trap
Is the world outside?
Life is easy
It's the living that's hard,
Too afraid to die
Makes for a waste of time,
The scars on your skin
Like the static on the TV
Should remind you
There is always color
Even in the dark,
We're pieces of puzzles
Our lips; our fingers interlocking
And there are no corners...

APAD13 - 127 © okpoet

Missed her
Like a detour
And I'm coming around
Again,
Slower than the first
Like a second sweep
Through the airport terminal
Looking for her face
Like how I remember her last
As I'm flying low
Smile wide
As the sun is warm,
Trying to single her out
Precious needle
Amongst the haystack people,
There's a glimmer
She's spotted me
Before I do,
And then it's like
The light
At the end of a tunnel,
I've arrived
Ship to port;
I've found my anchor...

APAD13 - 126 © okpoet

Would that I be
My limbs extending from me
Like trees rooted deeply and stretching
To the skies above,
Would that you be
The winds swaying through me
In gusts and sweeping breeze
Like through a cracked window
Into a smoldering room,
Your love within me
Settling dust on shelves
In the streaking sun,
Would that we be
Fragmented asteroids
Crashing into each others
Atmosphere only flashings of lights
And we wish on these
Broken pieces burning up
As they land like pennies
On hot pavement
That we cannot dig out,
Oh I would; so be
As you would want to be too,
And together we'd be
As these and those
Things ought to do; to be...

APAD13 - 125 © okpoet

You don't know
Emptiness
Until you have
Everything
And yet you have
Nothing,
When what you want
Really really want
Cannot be had
For any price
Or at any time,
No amount of strength
No amount of patience
Will subdue your desires
And it kills you from within
Unable to replace it,
Right in the middle of
Tangible and not,
An endless fire
A breath that never comes,
An is that never was
And never will be,
Reality is never more
Colder or more surreal...

APAD13 - 124 © okpoet

When did you
Become the sun?
So warm and inviting at first
And then when I went
To hold you close
So that I would never again
Feel the cold in my bones,
I found out you were
93 million miles away,
But you still burned through me
Melting my defenses
SPF 90 couldn't block you out,
And I could see
Your reflection even at night,
Teasing me,
Tried to squish you out with my thumb
And I slept
Thinking you would never come
But you do again,
Just as intense
As the day before,
Though clouds get in the way
And I'm deprived again
I don't dare lose hope
For your absence
Will be short
Lest I die frozen abandoned
But I would never know...

APAD13 -123 © okpoet

When the sun rises
As a brand new day
And you're not there,
I wish for the sky to cloud
And for the dark to come again
So I can curl back up
A ball in the corner,
To ride out
The empty days,
When a happy thought
Makes it's way
Into my head
I feel guilty
And ashamed,
You're not there
To share it with me
And I wish to make it go away
Because I don't want to be glad
Without you,
When I turn any corner
And you're not there
I wish to walk backwards
And never turn the page
On this story
That seems to have ended
Long ago,
But somehow I know
There is yet more to be written...

APAD13 - 122 © okpoet