How can I be?
I ponder
How I exist
Am I really here?
Are these
My arms
My legs?
Or am I imagining
Phantom limbs?
Without you
My chest is hollow
My heart
Just a fig newton
Of my imagination,
Where is me?
Where am I?
Where; under the sky
On this earth
Is my place?
Maybe I'm just
A last lone
Lingering thought
Of yours,
And soon
I'll cease
To be...

APAD13 - 121 © okpoet

Simply stunning
You were,
A glint of sun
Radiant ray,
From your
Sapphire smile
And diamond eyes
I was blinded
Blind sided,
As a  fiery ball
Just beneath the visor
A lingering sunset
The shape of you,
That pierced
My windshield
As I sped down
Not taking my eyes off
The view,
And would I crash
Still entranced
By your intense
Focused tractor beam,
Interrupted only
By the words
That I couldn't hear
And all I could do
Was nod and smile
And nurse
My wounds,
Soon to be
Further scarred
By the likes of you...

APAD13 - 120 © okpoet

I feel the cold whispers
Upon my ear
Of your laughter
Faded long ago,
Every tear
That falls
Is an ocean
Of regret,
That cannot drown
Out the quietest
Of echoes of you
From within my heart,
Your happy eyes
That linger
Behind shattered mirrors
That I try so hard
Not to look into
Reflecting me
Alone and broken
As if my very soul
Were no longer
Within my bones,
And my body
Is just a bag
Of spilled guts
Festering under the sun
Dead to the world
Without you...
APAD13 - 119 © okpoet

I didn't notice
When your hand went cold
I didn't notice
When your heart broke
I didn't notice
When your smile faded,
And for this I suffer
Knowing I could have
Done something
But now it's too late
And you're dead as can be
Because no longer
Do my hands hold yours
No longer
Does your heart beat
For me,
No longer
Will I hear your laughter,
Because you're far away
By someone else's side,
And I just have your ghost
Impostor by my side
A shadow of a time
When I thought
You and I
Were forever
And I couldn't
Ever lose you...
APAD13 - 118 © okpoet

3000 miles ago
I shut off the radio
Thinking of you,
Plenty of bumps on this road
To jostle memories
Of when you used to sit
In the seat next to me
Skipping through songs
Until you found the one
That would make you sing
Like a free bird
Canary in the wind;
Spirited butterfly
In the rear view mirror,
And now
Even in the silence
I hear the echoes
Of all the chorus
Of all your laughter,
If I close my eyes
I can still see
Your hair shifting
In the hurried breeze
And I wish I could
Reset the odometer
In my head
Switch out the alternator
In my heart...
APAD13 - 117 © okpoet

I thought
You were so pretty
Once,
But I looked again
And looked closely
Shoddy makeup
And insecure eyes
Hiding what?
I couldn't tell
Until now,
Notice how you
Can't make eye contact
With me,
And all I can do
Is look down on you,
Thinking back to when
I would have laid down
A red carpet for you,
And now even dead rose petals
Don't deserve to fall before you,
Only ashes will linger
Like dust in the sunlight
Through the shutters
As I burn all that you ever meant...
APAD13 - 116 © okpoet

I still remember
When I toiled the earth
From morning to sundown
Sweat on my brow
Boiling in my veins,
I'd wipe away the blood
And catch my breath
Looking upon her
The dirt that lived
That supported my every step,
Every breath that escaped me
Was a sigh for her,
And now I lie
Tired and weary
Not wanting to toil again
Given up
For I could not grow
What she wouldn't yield,
Barren death
Cold frosted land
Wicked weeds of doubt,
I loved her
Through the tears
And even then
No seed would bare
What I yearned from her...
APAD13 - 115 © okpoet