My Forehead On Fire,
Fate Destroying Pieces Of The Puzzle,
Fiddling With A Broken Heart,
Shhh Don't Speak You Slithering Serpent,
I Found You Already,
Feeding On My Misery,
You Cowardly Caressed My Courage,
Picking It Up You Ripped It,
Trying Rebind It,
You Dropped My Dusty Glass Of Dreams,
Trying To Sweep Up The Mess,
You Knocked Over My Knowledge,
Which Was Kindle To Your Open Flame,
Of Dwindling Depression,
Whenever I Try To Make Things Right,
You Have To Sprinkle A Little Wrong Onto Our Cake Of Caring,
And Now I Feel Like You Don't Care About Who Or What I Am....
I Am An Enigma To You,
But Instead Of Trying To Understand You Criticize,
You Chase Away The Creativity,
You Indulge In The Pain Of Uncertainty,
Sometimes I Feel You Carefree Hands Ripping At My Well Being,
And I Always Ask Myself,
Why Do I Still Love You When Sometimes You Make Me Miserable...

You Held Me Tight In Your Arms,
The Night Air Nipping At Our Skin,
Our Breath Clouds Of Warmth,
Mixing Underneath The Stars
"I Love You," You Said, Your Hands Meandering,
Up And Down My Spine,
Trying To Keep Me Warm,
In The Frosty Octobor Night
Corn Stalks Gently Grazed Our Jeans,
You Held Me Close,
Perplexing The Lurking Demons,
Warming My Blood,
With Your Lips*
"I Love You Too," I Said Holding Your Shoulders
You Wrapped Me In Your Arms,
Folding Our Souls Together,
Like An Ormagami Crane,
And You Kissed My Cheek,
Our Frozen Fingers Entwined
"Don't Ever Leave Me," You Said Lovingly,
As You Burried Your Face Into My Neck,
And Kissed It Lightly
I Lay My Head On Your Shoulder,
And The Goosebumps On My Skin Faded,
As My Body Enjoyed The Cold
"I Won't" I Murmered,
You Stared Into My Eyes,
And Pulled Me Closer,
Our Lips A Millimeter Away,
You Know What I Like
I Felt Your Breath As You Asked,"What Would You Say If I Asked You To Marry Me?"
Even Though It Was Only 2 Seconds,
The Space Imbetween That Question,
Felt Like Two Hours,
Honestly I Never Wanted That Moment To End
"I Would Say Yes, Why?"
I Could Feel Your Pulse Rise,
And Your Skin Start To Warm
"Because Someday I'm Going To Ask You, And Give You A Diamond Ring, Almost As Beautiful As You"
I Smiled
A Reflection To Yours
As We Sat Under
The Yellowish Cresent Moon
"Then It's A Yes"
I Laughed
My Annoying Kackly Laugh
The One You Love
"Can I Kiss You?"
My Eyebrows Lowered
In Sarcastic Annoyence
But I Giggled
"Fine"
As You Kissed Me
I Smiled
"Please Take My Sweatshirt," You Begged Me
I Noticed My Shivering Body
The Hairs On My Arms Rose
And My Fingers Felt
As If They Belonged To A Dead Person
"Okay" I Reluctantly Said
*You Put Your Sweatshirt Over My Shoulders
And As You Cuddled Me Closer
And Kissed My Lips One Last Time
I Opened My Eyes
The Light From The Moon
Streaked Across My Face
Suddenly I Heard You Whisper
Goodnight
As We Stood On My Doorstep
Goodnight I Replied

The Snow Lazily Falls To Earth,
As I Clutch My Elbows And Clench My Teeth,
As Goosebumps Rise Along My Spine,
I Love The Snow,
I Love The Feeling Of Cold Piercing My Skin,
The Snowflakes Melting,
Freezing Water Running Down My Temples,
I Breathe In The Frigid Wind,
Frozen Air Swelling In My Lungs,
It's Just Like My Dreams,
The Cold Robbing Me Of My Human Mind,
Taking Away My Troubles,
Helping Me Walk Along,
The Path Of My Brothers And Sisters,
Now I Ask You Frosty Wonder,
Could You Make A Dream Come True?

Finally I Am At 100%
                      100% Myself
Finally I Can Have That Smile
            The One That Can Make Hearts Melt
Finally I Was Able To Rub How Amazing I Am
                     In Your Two Faces
In Life
          There Is Mysterys That Are Unsolved
Finally I Can See Past
                            All The Lies
Finally
                       Now I Can See The Truth
Finally
                      Now I Am At Full Strength
Finally
                             *I Am 100% Myself

Everything Was Stiil,
Silence Limgered In The Air,
Soppy Cement Was A Barren Path,
One Star Poked Through Dawn's Misty Sky,
I Was A Shadow,
Completed With Red Pouty Lips,
And Red Lace Running Along My Fair Skin,
My Eyes Strained To See 20 Feet Ahead,
In The Smuthering Darkness,
And I Couldn't Help Thinking,
About *You

Let me attempt,
to simplify why I wont relent
Why even if there’s no consent,
my heart cant be changed or bent.

See, this life I live
not mine to take but mine to give.
No rights to claim,
No power in this world i hope to obtain.
To live is Christ, to die is gain.

But before I found understanding,
my life in shambles fading
in shame I was quickly degrading,
in a hopeless waste-filled land i was wading.

In my sin i was caught,
but with a price i was bought,
and in the truth i was taught
i stood and i fought...
Only to find myself falling once more,
i found myself in a downpour
confused not sure,
stuck without a plan or open door,
with little faith i fell to the floor.

I cried and cried,
poured out everything on my inside.
I wondered why,
why i was feeling so dry...
why answers seemed to hide...
if His peace again i would find...

But before hope is gone,
He reminds me of the cross
how He came for the hopeless and the lost,
my life surrendered the only cost...

So I lay down my pride,
my rights,
my will,
my life,
I take the nothing that i have,
and follow His plan.

Everyday i choose.
The lies i refuse.
I pray to be used,
for His glory, not abused.
I pray for His light,
I pray to be made right,
I pray during the night,
to walk by faith and not by sight.

Now, I’ve lost count
all the times He came,
rescued me again and again,
changing me never to be the same.
He never reframes,
in giving me the grace He bore in pain

Spiritual I.C.U
revived my soul and made me new.
Me, without a clue
Him, showing me what is true...
I decided my obedience was long overdue.

I live.
I breathe.
In Him I have my being
By faith I am seeing
His love is redeeming
Everyday Im believing
New mercy Im receiving
No longer am I bleeding
I received His healing
Now my hearts revealing
the passion I’ve been concealing

but fear no longer leads me,
PERFECT LOVE SET ME FREE