His family got the end of his night terrors, and he's battling a nightmare. He didn't know, no amout pleads for forgiveness because that had been buried a long time ago. Then broken promises took control. Off with his respect. He needs to stop it and let go. Here's my true sincere opinion. I'm a mess and I shouldn't be chillin. I should roll up my sleeves, plant something healthy. Water my world, grow mental stability. Honestly I'd be happy for myself to change. Even if I lost the people in my world. I'm a be successful eventually. Once upon a broken heart, plot twist I broke it myself. I'll seek help. I'll give the world some space. Shooting for the stars at my own pace. It's never easy but it'll be honest work. Off with my disrespect here's my mistakes. Let's recycle to reduce bad habits. Sobriety I'm reaching up for you and here's my time you can have it.

No check point. No way I've got enough health. Starting to lose, got no choice but I've got to move. Sure I level up, barely make a dub. But shots fires and I'm sad as ****. Just lost in the past, have to really i wont get her back. Single player, no one to heal me later. I've had false hope hanging me by the strand. Wish I was the right man. At a battle again, low health. Nobody to save me. Wish I wasn't so crazy. Been a ******* loser lately. No memory card so i cant repeat a check point. Game over!

I began to feel like I'm barely enough. Let alone dealing with myself has been a little tough. I had noticed that the broken ones break down your walls after a repair. No worries, that made me realize my gaurds were weak. I refuse to lose sleep. I'm just trying to be happy. Even if it's "simply not meant to be"
I've ran long enough on thin ice. But only thing that cracked was my heart. Time to swim before I fall a part.

I need music with the right beat. Words freely coming to my mind but I can hardly speak. About to hesitate, with a heartache, possibly about to deteriorate, I'm a contemplate, everyone's fake, not about to break, risking it all but that's  what I'm a take, didn't mean for anyone to break, give it time with a rate, musics loud this is great.
How many times will I shine, star light that's mine, doing this all the time, need a Corona with a lime, back on the grind, secretly trying to be fine, but rejoice is something I'm a find, not looking behind, I'm just too kind.
Like lately, been crazy, maybe, where's my baby,  emotionally waving, I'm saving, love craving, feelings levitating.
Dear Nel, you surprised hell, but oh well, do tell, did it burn when you fell, was it a spell, you stuck in a shell? Come on man, help me understand, I'm a fan, how'd you start off was it a crayon, hard to keep up so i ran.
What's love, looking up, high above, i won't pry nor shove, look a dove!
Impossible! unstoppable!
Forgettable, debatable, realtable?
I'm a play on the swing and let the words free, no tax fee going to let it all be. So tell me who's next to criticize me.

My guts told me her pleads for me isn't enough. My mind went numb and I'm paralyzed because this wasn't love. A fake, a distraction, a cheat. I guess I'm destined to be lonely. I thought you were serious when you said I was your only. Now I'm dropping tears while my hearts storming. Why me? Why lie? You met my family, I kept life private for a reason. I let you in but I guess you were the one teasing. Now it makes sense. Not once did I get a goodnight or a goodbye. All I've got were hellos and fake *** compliments. The time frame of me talking and calling was all a joke to you. **** my heart hearts. You did t even give me the benefit of the doubt, I'm out. My tears form as you're patching things with your man. I can't believe I was your side piece, I just don't understand. **** me for almost being happy. I guess I had a dream, but now I'm not at peace. You really ******* hurt me.

It takes all you have to be noticed sometimes
it can be work, a sport, music, hell even just in general to "blend"
never mattered how much you bled or sweat cried
all it mattered was for you to reach your objective.
Let me tell you something about being good enough.
I never shot for my looks fame power money how i can act or how good i look when i do the so called dope thing people do now a days.
Being good enough is pain, flaws, tears, bleed once in a while, sweating, improving.
Being good enough is when you can look at your loved ones in the eye and say i gave you my all.
it is dedicating and committing to what is important all around.
you have to say ***** you with a smile on your face and be able to wink at the hate and knock it off on their ***.
who cares if you cry?
I cry like you do!
I bleed like you do!
I sweat like you do!
I love like anyone can love, i care like anyone else can care.
We all are one.
we cry, we sleep, we eat, we fight, we just need to realize gossip isn't the goal to succeed.
Being so called perfect ain't worth your time.
I was taught the real meaning of good enough.
If what i told you makes sense you my friend have experienced a true success in your life. people may not say your good enough, but if you went through and looked them in the eye with tears rushing down your face admitting you gave it full blood and tear, then you are the success. if you gave it full commitment and dedication you are the best, but if you gave up what means a lot just to accomplish whats needed and suffered through it and survived the you are Good enough. you just have to be you and fight for it all.

If hellos were meant to be goodbyes,
then would I be telling the truth or a lie?

Headphones on and I'm putting it on shuffle, some songs helping me through some trouble. Playlist increases as I sing to myself. Therapeutic no need for help. Headphones through a workout, through a uncomfortable crowd. I lip sing because this is nice and loud. The best feeling as goosebumps crawl in my skin. Like a mental live performance on my life in these songs, what can really go wrong?

Headphones on, jamming to a song. What can go wrong. I'm a jam til the bottles gone. Albums for weeks. Good songs put a blush on my cheeks. Now I'm daydreaming. Headphones on with songs streaming. Thank you for putting up a good taste. With this moment and liquor I wouldn't waste. Going to keep my pace.

I held on to the weight of her guilt.
Carried the regrets she once felt.
I'll still seek forgiveness for the way I once was. Simply not meant to be. But we work on ourselves to be happy. False hope and filled with misery. Wishes fill the field and the sky. Please take me away from this planet. I will be better I demand it. Here's my agony you can have it. Held on for nothing! Held myself for comfort, Also held a bottle. Even then I still felt the pain. Held that pain in between my arms. I held on to her weight of guilt. With the false hope I've once built. I will hold my own, Find A new home. Sick of the darker thrown. My experience has grown. Now it's time to plant me A new future. I had A gut feeling when the toxic relationship started.
She's the one that gutted me and no longer felt guarded. I held myself for so long.
I killed my love and she got so cold.
Lost my world, I held on to let go.
Don't know if I regret my choices.
Wanted someone to hold. Please forgive me. I can't forgive myself. We kept secrets, lies with bad conversations to ourselves. All that to make sure none of us will go insane because we wanted safer health. Held on for so long. Let go so we can move on. I'm sorry I emptied A clip to your heart. Lost my shot and we both fell apart. I forgive you and I will get better. I'm slowly finding out who I am