None of your business I'm working! Stop calling me I don't care if your ego's hurting. I'm just exhausted from life, I want to be free tonight. Everyone's got looks and popularity. Yet they're still feeling a little insecurity?
Try being overweight, try not finding a date. Better yet be as ugly as I am for a week. Until then don't say you've got it rough with your past that makes you vulnerable and weak. I'm not a ****, I'm just exhausted from work. I have decent worth. I barely eat, hardly sleep. I get people claiming they're exhausted? Exhausted from what? Do you get late schedules and switch off in the *** crack of dawn the next day? I'm kind of boring, but I'm atleast busy. I've got my redbull and journal with me. That's all I need, that's all me.  I give everything a chance to make it last. But sometimes we're all hung up on the past. All I hear is people criticizing me. All I hear is pity me. Then I get story time. Uh okay, am i allowed to talk about myself soon? Whatever I've got my journal! I walked this world alone. Shadows spamming my phone. Same routine, same situations. On top of that I haven't even got close to my depression and random eating disorders.... and I'm to be just fine. You know what! I'm happy.

I know she ain't really been a mom. Everyone ended up leaving you in town. Life's been a mess lately with out dad. We hide depression by being upset and mad. This is the life I didn't want for you. I really wish there was a thing I can do. But we're Hall's we always pull through. Kills me knowing there isn't a solution. I wished you to have everything for you to receive nothing. My hearts breaks, I die a little. I cried a bit. Now I sit, now I wonder... what would dad do?

He sleeps without her by his side. Feels the urge to isolate and hide. Darling was his blanket, the sun comes up and no one to snuggle before work. Insecurities and anxiety sweeping me off my feet. **** forgetting to eat. Repeating the cycle over and over again. Heart torn wide open. Times a dragging and before I no it, I'm writing in darkness to say what i need to say. Wish I had one more shot today. The sun drowns down, I'm alone in bed picture the new man snuggling her frown. Kisses back and forth, wish I was all thats worth. Before I cry i see her smile, I remember I use to be that cause. I look in the mirror and argue with myself. It's my ****** fault. She's saying goodbye as if I wasn't a big part of her life. I was ready to settle and call her my baby, my wife. I'm not alright. He's sleeping alone without her by his side. Wish things between us was alright.

Last night I got stood with a viewed text. The ****, you think I'm ugly? Cool what's next? You know what? you right, but atleast I know me! I'm use to being left, benefit of the doubt. Called them out! Oh how it's adorable,  I'm gullible. Sometimes I just accept their lies to sleep better at night. I find it funny people advertise then ghost me. Up in tell I'm needed, there's reality. Funny how all the sudden I'm important all the sudden. But when i want to chat or hang y'all ******* go runnin. At least with the "*******" that were honest of their thought of me had the nerves to say it. **** everybody who pretend to take it for granted! I think I'm a decent guy, living in the place isolating inside. I'm a pack a lip and spit on your thoughts. I'm super good at shaming the ones who attempt criticize me. Wanna bury every body with the mental **** that has one devastated. I'm a creater of your darkside and I'm a stay motivated. I'm the type of guy that will at least have my back because nobody was truly there growing up. Gave up on help long time ago. Guarantee none of you would survive solo. As long as I'm ghosted I cant atleast be haunting. Laughing at every who all the sudden needs me because I'm a be invisible taunting. So go a head and say you all the sudden like me, then tell the world that I'm low key ugly.

A broken love can really bring out the fear in a damaged soul. When I was growing up kissing broken skin with a band aid was to make you feel better. But I can't kiss a broken heart :/ I can kiss lips, cheeks, forehead, neck, anything on the body for comfort. But not all kisses heal aches, I'll have to fixed and repair all the broken. But may my kisses and hugs belong to you as I try to repair the comfort of love. I don't think there was any way to show you my love but to reach out and be there for you as much as I possibly can.  The worse part of not being able to be your shield is that it can take seconds to destroy everything :( but for you I'd be willing to battle this and swing away the labor. I'd slave the over time for you my darling.

So beautiful,
Haven't met anything so desirable.
Interesting, intelligent, and pithy.
Full of sarcasm and can be funny.
She claims she's distant but is also in love with me.
Yet, she loved everything I didn't have to offer.
She can look in my direction and I can still be at awe.
I don't think anyone can be as amazing and as astute as her.
Yet, she loves me.

I can't help it. I can't compare it. I don't want to lose it. They say the bigger you are, the harder you fall. I'm beginning to believe it's the same thing for love. Like, the bigger your heart is..... the harder I fall. I'm hard to love, but I love too hard. Harder than most. People preach love and loyalty, but they also preach one night stands and a month to month worth of content or a subscription. I can't say that I'm the one nor anyone's only. But if I may.... will someone.....the right one change that?