My dearest siblings I know you miss our dad
Don't think of me as damaged because we all are but I'll always have your back.
Grandma we miss you too
Hardest time around the corner because we lost two
You and dad
I wish time would rewind so I can hug you tighter
As the love lingers in the air
I find myself hyperventilating
A bit out of control and now I'm grieving
I guess that's why my schedule changes.....
I work late, once I'm alone I've got this ache
Hard to believe I'll celebrate my birthdays with out you pops.
We always shared the two days...
Yours and the day after.

I miss sleeping by your side.
I'm up late trying to mentally survive.
Really rough seeing you with that strength.
I know I've got no reason to complain.
You're Truly Amazing.
Now all i can do is dream.
Don't wake me up because our nightmares came true.
I can't lose you, I love you.
For you I'll always answer.
I now lay on your side of the bed.
I try to inhale the scents you left.
Come back, there is more room for you.
Doors open, come on through.

I use to be so good at conversations
Now I isolate a bit to avoid being a fool
Ope thats cool
Now I drink for fun
About to get drunk till the bottles done
Maybe I'll meet someone
But I don't have hopes up
I just have fun with the boys til the suns up