Attention lacks, blank selfies fills my snaps. Notifications about to go off. Creativity is rare, real talk is no longer there.
Stories filled with music videos, or hypocritical drama. Or the ones whom add you but leave you on read. All though the stories they have are like a hour long. Where has snapchat gone wrong? Then comes the people that come talking to you with they're issues. All of the sudden they miss you! I sit and attempt to entertain snapchat, then I get boring responses. Is there even a point in adding me I don't know. I should probably go back to ghost mode. Maybe that's why snapchat has a ghost mascot. We snap then pretend we forgot. Then I get the same selfie that's already on the story. So creative right?

Will anyone keep a conversation with me?
I just want to stay happy.
But I'm here singing to something filthy.
I can sing to myself.
Wonder what happens if I attempt to talk to some one else.
Hey I am here waiting for your reply.
What's going on and please don't lie.
I'm so cold and hungry.
***** this place I'm so lonely.
Some one please respond.
Maybe at least tell me what went wrong.

Always put in the work especially with faith
You mean to tell me I fell for something fake
I guess most can relate
We all fall for or hate some things we don't comprehend
Hurts the most when we fall over and over again
Can't tell from the beginning to the end
But the kisses felt more hollow
Silence got louder when I tried to think
All I wanted to do was drink
Maybe pop a pill
Shhhhhhh think softly because something fake felt so ******* real.

Feel sorry for someone who don't compete.
I ripped the rappers for the bars to eat.
Brushed off the cavities, ready to brush them off my teeth.
Mouth wash mint, but they can't keep up and my trends already has been sent.
Like I said I feel sorry for the weak. Sorry that you can hardly speak. My brains been on fire this whole week.
When will I be well know. I'm talented and words like gold. Been writing, always mentally fighting. But I will always be the one climbing.

I had the blade in front of my vein, I didn't go deep enough but it was enough of satisfying pain. As I grin with a new fresh blade, ironically it was rainbow but now filled with red  shade. skins split and I am grinning. feels so good the ******* part of me is winning.  I am running from something I turning into. this isn't me but the pain you caused me isn't compared to what I put my skin too. I am so empty, No one can help me. I may leave I may stay. I need her to talk to me but I understand so I leave it at its pace. She is in a bad place and I am at my worst. truth is I am gone and she busy so I let things work. we're split now and i had screamed out loud. I split my skin and now I am addicted to it just as I watch the blade win.

Always on the move, honestly still have no idea what to do. But time is due, I've always felt so used. But then I can't decide for myself, always in a battle and I forget to take care of my health.
I can't hear myself right now.
I'm battling the world when I should be at peace.
Okay, I'm fine. In fact I'm too well.
But I can't decide for myself, I'm not picky.
**** it just do it with me.
No wait... I just want to be by myself
(I don't want to be lonely)
I can't make up mind. I've got places to be and I'm running out of time. Also people to support, I've got to rebuild us a stronger fort. But I'm doing just fine.

On my story, in my moments of immaturity. I get called out for stupidity. Just a young man having fun. Beats music videos of overplayed songs. We're all here for a distraction. No need to complain to get a reaction. This is amusing to me, just let me be.

Every one struggles
Every one fights
Nobody has it easy
Nobody really gives up
Everyone has a breaking point
Lessons has its way to teach
No one has fame, but fame is a dream
Possibilities are endless
How far are you going to get there?
Thats the real question we should be asking ourselves

Funny how that was my main
That cute name
You're close to opening my vein
Oh **** I'm ******
Congrats you're no longer stuck
I was almost on top of the world
But you just killed me girl
"Studmuffin"
#studnothin
I'm not ever going to allow anyone to get close to my friends!

Summers filled with fires and cold beverages,
Sitting next to the heat laughing and singing songs. Hoodie and jeans to keep the mosquitoes bite less. Sky filled with beauty might lay here and rest. Summer songs got my attention tonight, love that everyone is pretty chill it just feels so right.
Stories shared, surrounded by people who care. This is unforgettable, tonight ain't so terrible.

We were supposed to start a life together.  We were supposed to be forever. I stay up late crying over you because you said life after life. I'm ready to call you my wife. Till the day I die, i wish i can come home to prove you right. Theres always a possibility.  You've got no idea how much you mean to me. I'm sitting in this house ready for more tears while anxiety rips me a new one. Sorry for the **** that's been done. I don't want to be a Ex, i want to be your next. Wish you were with me, I'm alone in a dark place with a picture next to me. Baby i need you. You are my true love, and you're amazing. So beautiful. Wish you feel the same way. Supposed to be me supposed to be forever.

Before the football game we fought, today after work i was still in tears i **** you not. She wants a break and some space. Still loves me but i may be replaced. Its funny how i wouldn't eat after she said so. the smile looked so real but i have already known. kisses were real but now it may not happen again. these wounds are not to be cured, no ones there and sooner or later i sob till i begin to slur. Tears happening non stop. all this struggle now shes gone in to a new spot. I'd smell her hair when she had laid on my chest, play with the hair and lose my breath. stunned by the beauty and remind her to shut off her lights. Put your glasses away babe you may break them and im a snap chat you kisses for good night. ( left cheek, right cheek, lips, nose nuzzles, forehead muah) these tears are not stopping and now my hearts pounding. babe please lets get back, now that your gone i eat not cuz im hungry but my heart tells me howd you feel. i keeps the lights on and my glasses on the bed because it reminds me what we had. this hurts its so real. i miss your love and miss the Joyce but i fail and drown alone in these tears. Please baby imissyou and iloveyou alottle, i promise to do  what i can and for sure i am as if right now no man. I am in TEARS and the nightmare and fear came true.