Found it easier to visit the dark. It'll have a place in my heart. My responsibility will own my misery. Will refuse anyone one to conquer my heart. Doing it slowly like a puzzle part by part. If you need me, I'll be in my thoughts in corner slamming a bottle of whiskey. I brought my demons with me. They're just visiting. All I carry is all I can handle. I'll float and toss that paddle. Then light one candle. Allow the waves keep me gripping with a palm. Eventually things go silent and calm. I get nervous and scared but it's exciting. I find failure because success is hiding. But I believe that's worth finding.

Once a lost cause, but I forgot them all. Started walking forward and that's all that mattered to me. I do appreciate comfort but that'll lead to destruction. I don't listen when it means nothing. But watch that grammar check. How about I'll be the one to light my own cigarette. Always busy now, thoughts begin race now. But who really understood that. I'm watching my own back. I've been watching my actions cause that affect. Still not a regret. My poetry the same but put in different words. Maybe I'm the problem. I've got to take a break then begin to solve them. Either a past tense broken heart finally on a recovery. Still feeling empty. But it's bearable. I wished for no one else to be miserable. I've got attention that has a habit of leaving. I've got journals about me grieving. Accomplishments I'm receiving. No longer having these arms bleeding. I'm slowly succeeding. Just don't let me down because you've got that power.

Sick of catching my recycled words!
**** of feeling alone!
When is it supposed to be fine?
I write, lose a fight, restart and take off for a flight!
Then I crash again! Just sick of feeling broken!

I'll be the only one standing, don't **** with me because I've got a temper. I can be unstoppable. I use to be a *******, you winning would be impossible. I don't take kindly when anyone ***** with a homie.
You got hands? Show me? I dare you, I'll be the last one standing how do you wanna lose? Unstoppable, me losing is impossible.
Try me!

Dozen messages, handful of false hope. Sometimes you just have to let go. Walk along the dark road. In my lonesome. I use to be handsome. I use to matter. This heart is going to shatter. But why does it matter. I'm left on read. New man, new style, new choice of words. I just feel my insides dead. What happened to me?

She said life is difficult for the blind. Darling hold my hand I'll be your guide.
Difficulty or not I'll be that guy. Make sure you stay by my side. Reinsurance along the way, I promise you're doing good babe.

In the light of the you, Darkened the light of you. Paralyzed me! Eyes drowning, But I didn't have you I found me.
Every flower died! Just like my eyes it all dried. I've fallen but I picked myself up,
The guts spilling my instincts. Watching everything sink. No life jacket just me alone shredding to shore. Alcohol flooding my lungs so I got up for more. I'm doing just fine now. I've fallen with the right crowd. Global crisis never left my world. But I continue to rotate this time with no girl. What else do I need to say? I've always found away. Wouldn't mess up again. I think I was more broken. But now my veins stay closed with my heart open.

Slow life down, ready to consume to settle down. Apple crown, about to drown. Watch my tolerance build itself. Time to enjoy the bad health. I'm drinking tonight, not talking on the phone because it's my life. Not caring tonight.
This is why we shouldn't talk. Easily triggered and offended to top it off. About ready to get a new number so I dont get the confidence to block. I'm an adult, I make my own choices dont really care what's at fault. I'm just enjoying life a bit, sloppy words I spit.
Criticism and disappointment! Oh well, not my priority. Dont care about seniority. This is the real me, can't handle it there's the exit. Not about to quit. I dont want to have to mask myself everytime something offends someone. I'd much rather be done. I know my real homies and that's all that matters to me. Cheers because it's time to be happy.

Every one knows me, we're all attempting to be happy. Take the judgments away because I guarantee I'll be scrapping. Happens so fast you wouldn't know what's happening. Woke up ready for a drink, fell asleep with a drink. Alcoholics need a drink, well i have a drink. I'm supposed to please everyone?
(The ****) well I with the Hollar Boys and don't have time to be frowned upon. Drink the keg and cases til it's gone. Music loud, keg stands and laughing out loud. Ain't know one here playing with me, I'm real and got more faces to see. We're all buzzin, drinking by the keg by the dozen. Have we met before? Nah lil homie thats fake don't show anymore.

You don't know struggle, you only know discomfort. Bet you never made a effort.
Family disowned me once. Upon time when I was defiant. I was never truly reliant.
Fight me I'll throw hands, call me out and I'll argue. Try me and you won't be able to continue. Lost my mind a while ago. Happens when you live life solo. I wanna blame life but I'm not that petty. You aren't able to hand this diss ***** because i bet you ain't ready.

Love is an addiction, a bad confliction. Overdose on the toxic ahit. Love is hard to quit.
Wasn't ready for a mental war, especially when you miss things more. Sleeping meds didn't work, benzodiazepines ain't my worth. I just wanted it all to work.
I've giving everyone I possibly can, what the other doesn't understand, is that my change was a new level of commitment. A new free spirit. Bow look at me hanging myself because I've got hung up. What's love? Either way I wasn't enough
Giving it all my best, not doing anything more I regret.
I'm a love addict, always was ready to commit. The past caught up, I've let that mess **** up. Now I'm a new many on the search for love.
Ever since a bad break up I've got neurotic, **** near became a alcoholic
I'm a recover, I'm a rebuild, just for my future love heres a little note.
Please don't break me, if you do will you help me put myself back together. I don't want to live with agony, I'm a be better than ever. I won't take anything for granted, nor allow any one to have it.
Keys to my heart you can have it, just locket, keep it in your pocket, bullet proof but not with a rocket, vibe with me so we can rock it, allow peace with nothing to hit.