Hey dad I've been anxious. Dad I have not been sleeping. Hey dad I've got a stable job. Dad what's it like watching me grow up? Hey dad I forgot to take it slow when I get shots and mix drinks lined up. Dad, I wish you can hear me right now as I'm driving through town listening to your iPod.
I'm just talking to myself and jamming to a childhood playlist. I leave everything how you left it. I swear music was the only way we got each other to listen. Dad I wanna have a reason to listen to your playlist as I cruise the night away. Hey dad, I understand what it's like to be deprived from sleep now. Hey dad, I wish I could hug you. Hey dad I love and miss you, that's a feeling I've got no shame putting on repeat. I'll shuffle life away, but I'll still put your laughs and smiles on repeat. Just wish you'd be able to talk to me. I miss your advice and your sarcastic jokes while teaching me a lesson. But it's fine now.... I've got dads iPod

A dozen of thank yous and a trillion of I love yous headed towards your direction.
I'd give it all to you in a instant. You said I light your world..... but you put colors into mine. A beautiful smile fits perfect with you... a beautiful girl. You have no idea how much you mean toooooo me. We dance and be silly and can still be closer each second we spend. The best part... I never have to pretend. I don't ever want this to end. I can write you words to gaze upon and no amount of words can express how you make me feel. Happy to have you in my life! It was you that brought the light <3

Ashes fly, gazed up to the sky. Real homies by my side. No cops here but ready to hide. Alcohol by me, buzzing til morning. Everyone is building the tolerance. Wait til we hit up the club. We'll drink til the sun comes up.

She struggles with her thoughts. She holds every word he's said. Been struggling with the thoughts in her head. He's a liar, a cheater, and a beater. She loves the idea of the love she thought she deserved. But she's the one really hurt. They can never work. How do you tell her to let go when she regains the strength to keep a grip. But she shuts down in agony with his *******. He doesn't deserve your tears nor will he ever re-earn your trust. There is no love because it's a bust.  You can't stay under his spell forever. You deserve better. The worse part of all of this..... you still claim there was no other love like this! **** his loyalty because it was fake just like his ***** boy personality. With all the words you promised yourself. you're catching yourself into the bad habits. You lied awake, you're suffering from a heart break.

Every one struggles
Every one fights
Nobody has it easy
Nobody really gives up
Everyone has a breaking point
Lessons has its way to teach
No one has fame, but fame is a dream
Possibilities are endless
How far are you going to get there?
Thats the real question we should be asking ourselves

I'm a mess, I cause others mental stress. I'm exhausting, not everyone can call this a piece of cake woth a side of frosting.
I can get very clingy, not a **** person wants me. My thoughts of life is apparently draining. I guess I'm meant to be straining.
Lost my way a while ago. "It's the past" but guess what's hitting me? Don't you all normally leave me and go?
What's love and who wants to give me a shot. Pull the trigger, i know you won't with out a second thought.
I'm meant to take karma and punishment. I'm can't even get a compliment.
I'm clingy and insecure.
Where will I find a cure. Time is bullsbit because of the past.  Living is bs because the past cathes up and ain't nobody got time for that.

I swore upon myself to love.
How do I love? I can hear her voice in my head, I can feel emptiness beside our bed. But I swear I am more in love with your comfort.  It all ends the same. Starting as a secret admire. We meet and our smiles filling our minds with beautiful desires. It's adventures.  Just as soon as we love who we are... We change. The comfort changes, your voice lingers in my head. I still love the voices in my head as I visually think of our times we had. But I think I forgot how to love, I don't even remember how to love myself.  I began to say I love you, but it no longer feels like I'm saying it to you. Hell I can't even hear myself say it. I know you lost the feeling too. Your words had sunshine and rainbows every time you said it too me.  I began to feel so happy I forgot about the world every time I was with you.  Now the feeling is mutual. Our love yous and goodbyes began to feel less important each time. My thoughts and emotions were so colorful with you. with us.... Now its all black and white. All I've ever wanted was for anyone to love me... but once love I began to lose love as if I wasn't enough to love. I swore to love, not because we respectfully lost love for one another.... but for me to remember what it's like to love the importance of a being. Simply not meant to be, simply ready to be a light at the end of some ones tunnel. For the next one to love me... promise to treat me as if I am your first and last.

I can't find anyone or anything so close to me. As cliche as it sounds I still find love for the weirdest things, you don't need perfection to feel at home. A blanket, I sound, motivation to seek change, and even a adventure. People will come in and out of your life and that's okay. The must go on. No reruns, no returns, no going in circles. But I've learned that love has a life lesson. Love can be everywhere and you find yourself falling all the time. Maybe that's why I love Autumn so much. It's the beautiful colors to remind myself that I'm a colorful person like the rest of the fewer ones that are just as colorful as me. Until then I will always leave a porch light in my heart for the ones that are homesick because you have to have a little home in your back pocket.