Nellie 55

Nellie 55 Sep 10

:/ \:

I've always know this had been over
But your attention had you laying on my chest and shoulder
What's the hell am I to do when I try to climb and get over?
I've always thought you wanted what I wanted
The what ifs and how's that?
Feels a lot more worse than a closer loved one stabbing my back
You showed me hardly any emotion
Called me out for not showing enough
You'd already givin up
As I'm repairing **** that'll continue to break up
Now my inner sides scream in agony with tears shoving me back into the night when we'd dance with the waves
Had no idea they were your waves to me

Nellie 55 Sep 2

K

Let the thoughts be a lot more quiet
I wish my mental health would stay silent
Can I please be happier
I shouldn't struggle this hard to fake a smile

Nellie 55 Sep 1

😚

I've learned to rest when I need sleep, it's always different when you're next to me. Here baby, I've got comfortable clothes, I'll hold your hands when your cold. Want my hoodie and my coat? Let's watch our babies get old. Be there on their high and lows. Roll me up, smoke me up, wish to hold you my love. My partner and my best friend, I never want our time to end.
The way you look at me, the way you kiss me
The way I hold you, the way you let me too
I want to grow with you
My plus one against the world I hope it stays just us two

Nellie 55 Aug 28

🤓

Have yet to think about a dramatic change
Still trying to focus on my upgrades
Not too often I get a moment to myself
Been always trapped in a cell
Nothing to talk about
Just an expression
Funny how alone I feel
Amazing how busy I tend to be
Just trying improve just like my family
We're all broke but we're pretty happy
My mom taught what not to do
My dad warned me I had to see **** through
As sporadic as my emotions are
I've been fighting against myself to do better
I still write my grandmother letters
One day I'm a make my father and mother proud as all can be
My grandmother would see me happy

Nellie 55 Aug 24

😒

Some days I just don't know how to feel
I'm laying in bed contiplating what lies under the truth and hope things aren't so real
How do I begin to wake up under this chill
I know I need to see someone but they'll just give me a pill
The toughest old habit I had to ****
Some things aren't just meant to be this real

Nellie 55 Aug 14

🤗

I could just fall
Can I ever fall any further?
Touches full of innocence
But determines to sin
I've learned intimate gazes
She's gazed at me as if I was to map her way out of discomfort
Her lips smiled & her eyes full of rejoice
Is it my time? My place?
Or is this a dream?
I enjoy chasing dreams

Nellie 55 Aug 13

Part one

Once upon a job, I've gained a best friend.
Once upon a girl, she ****** off as if it's the end.
Gave me a warning, a painful debate led to a loss.
I guess I'll take my bies self off the planet, I'll forever love you here's my feelings you can shatter it.
I'm sorry for being more than enough, I understood your frustration but a debate between rejoice and friendship was tough. Your friendship with me had sailed, left me with no life jacket and my rejoice almost failed.
A Bies friend became my new name
2 week ***** became hers
If I've learned anything I must have been some *****
**** hurt when you left and I'm too afraid to get close to any one anymore
Now I'm a stranger