I'm so glad that you're here right now. You told me my gestures were so rare to find. But if I can control time I freeze it when you hug me. The comfort from your arms should last an eternity. You cracked my depression with your sweetest smile and compliments. Darling you're such a beautiful soul. Thank you for being so respectful and I counted 5 long and secure hugs. Only lie that occurred was me lying into your secure arms. You are a sweetheart.

Your tears fall from these clouds and I'm the one drowning. I'm sipping on a drink, you're on my mind and now all I do is overthink. Your smile haunts us in a way that drowns us heavily in pain. Baby you're always our cure of the end of the day. But darling you're no where near us anymore. Miss writing you letters to make you feel at home. Miss the conversations on the phone. You smile and I cry home alone. Your incident left us all defenseless. My hearts shattered and that's where I left it. But for you I'm a leave my arms open.

My guts told me her pleads for me isn't enough. My mind went numb and I'm paralyzed because this wasn't love. A fake, a distraction, a cheat. I guess I'm destined to be lonely. I thought you were serious when you said I was your only. Now I'm dropping tears while my hearts storming. Why me? Why lie? You met my family, I kept life private for a reason. I let you in but I guess you were the one teasing. Now it makes sense. Not once did I get a goodnight or a goodbye. All I've got were hellos and fake *** compliments. The time frame of me talking and calling was all a joke to you. **** my heart hearts. You did t even give me the benefit of the doubt, I'm out. My tears form as you're patching things with your man. I can't believe I was your side piece, I just don't understand. **** me for almost being happy. I guess I had a dream, but now I'm not at peace. You really ******* hurt me.

I know there isn't much I can do. But the thought of you harming yourself pains me in every way possible. The thought of you depressed kills me slowly. This is suffocating me because I'd love to take the pain away from you. There is a pound in my chest that takes my breath away. The weight on my shoulders brought me to my knees. My darling I know it's tough right now, it will take a long time to be okay. It really will. But I'd love to be your dose you take to suppress your fears. I can't say I'll always be there to save you, but I'll always be here to treat you.

She told me she fell for me, raked up a good side of me. Love piled like leaves. Before I fall, what do you plan on doing? How am I of worthy? No one understands it because I'm normally lonely. I talk to myself more than anybody. She fell for me? My love tried to hide but she found it for me.

A lot of you know about my paranoia,
I don't need the vouchers for the trips.
I've got a pass to relocate anywhere, but I chose to fight back. **** a anxiety I know I deserve better than that. I stomp the nope ropes chilling in my lawn, I stitched the wounds from my back. But I still managed to fall in the trap. Guilty of sin, in love with the pleasure. Ask my journal who clearly understood better. I wrote depression a love letter. But I'm a marry the greatest depression.... just to divorce it. Teach the darkness a lesson, light up my heart because self love will be my only weapon. A shot hit me to catch a buzz. Drunk mentally, sober pain. Back to square one, anger taunting me with a hit and a run. But I demand myself to stand my ground. Can't find me because I'm out in the open. You're searching for the broken. But I've made the repairs, my paper held me together with a pen. You can shred me all you want. I'm not about to let the anxiety to win, even if I have to refund my pass to return to hell. I'll dig up my demons to **** anxiety up. No amount of paranoia will take flight once I'm free. I'm a fight for me.