666
Not falling for tricks
Rituals will be something I will happily miss
Not going out to fall for this
666
I've got fire and sticks
Bones break but my words are unstoppable
No darkness please if possible
Dark soul on my shoulder I need a black shovel
My soul ain't for sale and figures aren't crossed in a double
Sorry Mr. DEVIL
You're a fallen angel and rose hell
But I will not be under a spell

When this pen I can finally speak
With this tear drop I can spread my ink
Let my hand do all the talking
Tears forming and I'm not stopping
Who do I call for help
Well....
No one because I can't even find the problem
Why rely on someone else to solve them!
Thats not me
Not who I want to be.
That's just not me!

I'll always doubt. Nellie you're the who needs to chill out. You're so tough but weak. Even your financial problems build up that you can't eat. Thats tough but also satisfying to see you at defeat. I doubt you because you use to be so happy. Everything you never had built you a flame to burn in agony. Doubting you is for ***** and gigs. Here's some alcohol take a sip. Drunk call someone to lose your respect. I do this to you because you're the one who left. Remember crying to sleep, but it felt okay with a drink? I do, it's amazing watching you lose. The emotions I leave to watch you abuse. I infect your securities to watch your peace deteriorate. Love watching you break. I'm obsessed of staying aggressive. It's my personality because you'll fail and be defenseless. You think me doubting and a side of depression is bad..... wait til failure and sanity gets a chance. Just think I'm at the front of the line, to make you lose your mind. Just give it time. You're soul will be mine.
P.S
When will you doubt yourself?

Always wanted to be able to stay safe.
Mentally struggle everyday.
People come to me, but I keep my mouth shut.
All sealed till I'm drunk.
Drunk conversations to let myself go off!
Feels like I'm dropping like a rock!
Told the ones I love, that I'll keep my head above.
Lost it all sinking, then I began drinking!
Whatever I've done wouldn't matter do to my run.
Past chasing me and sometimes catches up.
Never gave up but got too close.
Mistakes made by the path I chose.
Hyperventilating trying my best to keep up for shore.
But people I love and care for wouldn't want to be there anymore.
I'm a pack up my **** and leave again.
But my as will stay open.

I have no clue where to go from here
All I'll do is debate and drink a beer
I know my writings plain and clear
Hell sometimes I just want to get out of here
The stuff I wrote
All that to avoid feeling broke
Now I'm a provoke
But the deprived me stayed woke
For that I'm a chain smoke

Saw each other everyday, grew a bond along the way. Still will remember the great times we've had and begin to grow love everyday. Hearts planted, for life stays granted. We stick together and find peace. For that I learned to take care of me. I hope its a good future you receive, because with this new improvement I'm a seek to achieve.

Kisses feeling empty, am I losing everything?
Did I get slowly replaced? Or is this just a glitch or a phase? Why am I not feeling loved or safe?
I know it's not my place to try and intervene
But losing myself through sanity and I catch myself saying **** I don't mean
One minute I'm loved
Then it feels like I just got shoved
Depression comes in waves
Shook my hand back
**** it i guess I'm drowning to that
But I'm fine, then I'm not, then I'm okay
I smile because it's natural but then I lose at the end of the day
Talk about two broken hearts in the same place, I think my is deteriorating