Proud of myself for having it rougher than most
Always surviving because I'm tougher and thats how it goes
My vacation is being at a place of peace
Behind my journals I speak
Don't need anyone but I would love somebody
I'm a great man ask anybody
Ring of fire but I run in circles to put it out
I carry a burden but I know I survive
Truth is better than these tears from my eyes
I understood goodbyes
Learned how to manage
Never took advantage
I'll be exhilarated
Especially after a feeling deteriorated
I know that might be complicated
But I'm a writer
A true survivor
Use to be a liar
Now I set these flaws on fire

Only one season
Always a depressed reason
I'll grab a coat
But still managed to stay cold
My hopes deteriorated
I am supposed be exhilarated
Everyday is like running a marathon
Depression chasing me but my lungs going gone
Chain smoking, like a chimney I'm burning
But still no heats working

So soft and buttery
I began stuttering
Come in circles
Devoured in squares
For this feast I prepare
Extra syrup please
Put chocolate chips and some blueberries
Pancakes are a perfect tradition
I'll flex on the recognition
Pancake after pancake
Devoured till I've got a belly ache

I write to feel better
I write a lot of darker poems that ryme
It's a challenge but fun because I can look back and see where it went wrong
My accomplishments are framed in my memories when I feel like picturing it
I can write the same depressing feeling multiple different ways and different stories
I can write about my idea of falling in love all sorts of ways especially in waves
I surf the idea and blush
Even when I have nobody nor have a girl in mind
I still write about something all the time
Started off with a wide ruled notebook and a NO. 2 pencil
Upgraded to college ruled because I loved the idea of writing smaller
By the time I was in 8th grade I got hooked on leather journals
Now my favorite is a leather journal with no lines
My impulsive writing choices amaze me
Glanced up the sky star gazing
To gaze upon, is to plot along
I'll continue to write when I'm feeling right. For that it's a true delight

Told myself one day look back accomplishments approved I appreciate that
Tough talk from this rough walk
But I went the extra mile to improve
For that I got enough time to not lose
I got a good family
We're all decently happy
With the mistakes I've made
Slow improvements by the day
These thoughts are something you shouldn't enter
But I'm always improving and doing better
Step by step
I'll lighty jog without a single regret

The only way out is to continue going through it all, doesn't matter if you fall!
Get back up and start again, ***** staying broken.
How many tries will it take shouldn't be the number one question, now should I be the one to leave these scars open.
I may fail a few times but thats okay, I've got to swing life away. I swear I'm okay!
No one knew the worse side of me until I threw flaws, apparently I dropped jaws.
Hated the way I was, now I fight for a change.

I change and it wasn't enough
I fall down to get back up
All of this is meant for me
Still managed to catch myself unhappy
All I ever do is try
When will I land a win
No such thing as a finish line but where do I begin
Reset and start all over
Thats all I'll ever do, I'm losing myself again