A wish
I need this
I don't know what i miss
But it's out there
I'm in need of some care
Will it please be a little fair
I still hear the pain in the air
Silent scream
But I refuse to allow the past bring me down

I am okay again
Just needed self motivation
I'm my own man
I'll do it in my own I don't expect you to understand
I'm only human
But you know that
I'm lay back
I'm pretty chill
Promise you I'm real
I don't allow people to hurt me if i can help it
Just don't criticize me or do whatever I'm a pack a lip
Judge me again because I'm a spit
Inhail the cigarette I just lip
With the Copenhagen in my lip every judgment is like my nicotine
I spit the toxic and remember the bad it does to me
But I remember it as if I remember the bad things y'all done to me
Now no one can touch me
I can walk head high
As i continue to still drown
But I know how to swim
Quick revive him!
I'm alright
Don't need to fight
We all need to stick together
No such thing as forever
But why waste time ghosting when we all can use a hand
Bet you won't understand

I admit, my poems depressed.
But don't judge me.
We're all going through our own issues.
I'm going to search for you restless.
You'll be sleeping with one eye
About to scrap you and make you cry.
You mad bro?
You gullible when it comes to trust?
I'm a ******* up!
Burry you in the back of your head
Making you regret the **** you said
I'm a just get started
I'm a enjoy the pain i receive
No pain relief
Hard to believe?
I learn at my worse
I'm a put your judgment brain to work
Burry you six foot deep
No wake because you're sound asleep
Deteriorate your feeling
Got some bleach
You can't reach
Hush
Shhhh
Shhhh shhhh
Now whose the cry baby
I'm a survivor been on my toes lately

Stress relief?
What's that?
Where do I purchase that?
How much?
How long?
Taxes?

Last names a myth
Hard to find love to be with
All I've wanted was someone to kiss
Tell them how much I miss
Because there's nothing as pure as this
I think love died because now I'm a ghost
**** stings the most
Love taunts me because I'm haunted
Hush I see the stars tonight
Wish I had someone real to hold me tight
Speak softly and tell me I'm loved
Wake up Nel, you're daydreaming again

I know I've said thing I never intended to say, but that didn't stop the impulsive wave. The fight happened after a pre-fight. What's wrong with me when i know this isn't right. I bought a brand new laptop, and it's just sitting because I'm afraid to back track the conversations. What a humiliation. Will someone help me, I'm vulnerable and hating everything.
Woke up with positive vibes. Still didn't stop a daily cry.
Why?