I care about making the pain in your eyes disappear.
I get... I ******* up, I get I messed with love.
But many mistakes ago I took this road. I realize nothings ever to late, but the moment that stuck an emotion. That's all that was. It was amazing to watch that moment leave and then for a single second, I knew that a new start will be what's next. what's going to happen is what's going to happen. My efforts to that fact is what makes it happen. Please understand that man you knew is gone and please don't see me as that man. I get it, that's the last you herd of me. As that man. But I know who I am now and I know what to achieve. I fixed most of what was broken in my path. The things that didn't get repaired are your choice. Accept the new man I created or stay gone and see that pain that was once caused. Please understand I am an independent man who will always do the best and I am a great listener and a great at taking risks to make it right for the purpose of the moment or future moments. Please understand the missed calls and the attention of pain was demanded to be felt for a reason then soon became a messy cause. I learned to be sorry and I learned to forgive. But more importantly I learned being afraid of seeing each other as what happened in the past should not remain that way. Please understand that it hurts a lot but I'm not mad. Not sad, but I'm also not happy. But i will be fine. Nothing in my ever stays mine. I'm just the kid that always had temporary pass me downs.
How is it that.... love isn't love because no one ever ******* truly loves or loved me. Not ex's, not friends, not my family, no one gave a flaming ******* **** when I was homeless countless times. Lost love, lost hope. Everyone is happy and talking about marriage as if it's something that has to happen because of the "click"
Meanwhile I'm here trying not to drink myself to dual the pain. How will I ever get over some ****?