Life is a bit scary, no body to help me. A lone in this dark world, parked and trying to avoid using gas for the heater. I wish someone would save me because it's another cold night. I'm exhausted all the time. Wishing I was under a roof warm and fine. I'm so cold and hungry. Again I've always been lonely

I'm afraid to allow company
All anyones done was hurt me
Got a lot of thinks on my mind I can barely think
Shredding the shore about to sink
Wishing a had a little drink
But I'm stay clean
Avoid things so i say what i don't mean
Caught up on depression
No need for a counseling session
I think I've learned a lesson
Who needs help when trust is a issue
Look at the things I'm gping through
Wish i had someone to save me
Got no where else better to be
Nobody to go see
I don't want to live life full of impulsive guilt
Just want the real deal
Things on my mind and resentment is all I feel
Hold me
Nah don't touch me
Hug me
Nvm i don't want you to see me
Whats wrong
What do I do from here

I've dealt with me as a sinner, talk about a amateur must be a new beginner. Coping with me being miserable over something. Now I'm a feel nothing. Y'all gotta move, being miserable for no reason. I'm a survive longer though any season.
I can say I'm making it, even though I'm faking it. Just am happier being under no roof. That's the sad truth. I hit my own despondency. Convinced that lifes full of misery.

I'm really cold, wish I had grabbed a coat. Had to leave the awkward drama and I'm here feeling neurotic. Am I still psychotic? I wish a stranger would see past my smile by looking into my eyes. Cut me off to hug me and remind me that things are going to be alright. Didn't eat today, left to get my hoodie and glasses. Got angry messages. Avoided going home, I'm in my truck cold. Why does this keep happening? After my attempted changes am I still the problem?
I've had people who mean the world drop me to solve their own problems. We're all paying for life, don't matter because for reality we all be giving it a check. Haven't figured out **** yet. I'm exhausted, been wishing I was doing fine.
I've driven home everyday with tears running down my face. That ***** on the daily. Hold up I'm getting a call, it's anxiety leaving voicemails. I should call back, maybe.
I'm judge
Eyes sore
Hands shaking
Chest aching
Feelings deteriorating
Hearts breaking.

Exhausted
Not motivated
Depression
Hungry
Randomly sexually frustrated
Irratated
Lonely
Anxiety
Betrayed

Sorry to hear that
Wish I can help dad
Can't believe what's been going on
How are we able to put up with things this long
I know we're not alright
But we'll be fine
Wish things weren't ******* us over so much
Half tempted to give up
But dad why they ****** with you
You're more stable and you've always pulled through
You taught me what not to do
Taught me better and showed me what to do
Now you're getting ******
What'd happened because life really does ****
Hearing about you now low key......boosted more anxiety
But I'm not saying ****
I know we're not perfect
But **** man we giving it our all
And past so much more
We both saw things go out that door
Sorry dad,
If could I'd toss you everything i have
Wouldn't want it back
Getting harder to keep track
Especially when its the ******* past

I'm not okay. People ask me what's wrong but aren't listening. I'm avoiding **** and keeping my distance. I was concerned about my ex and had the cut the conversation short for some ***** that ended up ghosting me again. I love the way things happen in the end. About to really lose control and want to drown again. But I promised to get sober. How long this time?!
Not like anyone will care if it's all over!
Says the voices in my head.
Shut the **** up you don't need to mock me up there
What do you mean I'm a *******?
Atleast I'm trying to quit
Nah homie you're alone losing people
You can't keep **** simple