Call me stupid, call me pathetic
Use every negative word to describe me
Don’t be sympathetic
Nothing will stop me, just let me be
I know that you care
For me and my well being
But life isn’t fair
Without pain it’ll have no meaning
Let me go through this heart break
To feel every agony and suffering
I know what’s at stake
I know my pace is buffering
But it’s the path I chose
And this is not for show
Cuz I’m gonna love her
And that’s what I’ll live for

Love always wins
It’s just a matter of time
And if the time never comes
It will continue to exist

I was never here to compete with him
My main purpose was to make you smile
I know my chances are very slim
But every chance is worth the while

I don’t compare him to myself
To try and change the way I am
I want you to see me for yourself
How I can be more than a man

I don’t write poems just to woo you
I don’t play music just to trick your heart
I do it because it is what I love to do
And it’s my favorite kind of art

So don’t question the love that I have
I don’t do it because I want to be wanted
My intentions are genuine and innocent
Because it’s more pure that I ever imagined

Tonight, I looked deep in your eyes
I held you in my arms so tight
I kissed your lips just right
Your love touched my soul
And I’ve never felt so full
Complete
Nothing can ever compete
For what we have
So magical
And unexplainable
A fairy tale that may never come true
But that’s okay, as long as I have you

I simmer in the sorrow I put myself through
As I take this extended release tablet I call pain
I swallow it willingly due to the love that I have for you
Because loving you is all my heart can contain

Day to day, I am constantly reminded of fear
Fear of the day you go back to him
Fear of the moment you disappear
Fear that our hopes and dreams are dimmed

But I continue to fight in this war
Because when I say "I love you more"
I don't mean more than you do
I love you more than the troubles we go through

I should’ve never talked to you the way I did
I’m sorry for the words that were said
No level of any emotions should
You ever be talked to the why I talked to you

Xin loi, langga.

Where does your heart lie? Does it hide behind the lies and the smiles you portray love to be? To be fake in the face of your children to see? Does it hide in the truth the  “you” came out to believe? Is it that hard to accept the color of the blood that runs through the leaves that grow on your branches and miss the chances of living a life so free? These are the questions that posses the expressions of answers that are “Yes.”

It always feels like a dream
Being with you feels so right
So I will choose to stay asleep
Just to hold you one more time