Pain can only heal -
when it is seen and heard
In a world that is full of suffering
People make pain as a competition
They said strength is covering
Use distractions and external addition

I'm so tired to be forced to speak
and feel worse of responses -
that normalize abuse
They overuse the word abuse -
and lose its real meaning of agony

I'm so tired to shut myself down
and pour from an empty cup -
because other people have it worse

Pain can only heal -
when it is seen and heard
They said it's my fault -
because i'm vulnerable and quiet
Is that genuine support?
Or a mind of a stunted adult?

A poem for each past lover
An empty paper for you
A hell of intense pain to recover
So tell me what's new?

They said is he a kid?
Even you're a few years older
I ran out of sympathy
Don't blame me for being colder

You reminded me of my abuser
That you work with and praised -
Behind my back
Because you think im a crybaby -
not that i'm in pain

You said move on
After you left me in the dark
For so long
You left me a deep mark

it's like the ocean is bringing me in sadness
in the car otw to risk myself
feeling a tint of sadness while being tipsy
it's me that decides
don't know how it will turn out
worst or whatever

Is that you or i clung on to you?
I thought you were my daylight
But you are just an unfixed emotion
Changing where you should land
To fill your void and attention

You dont know what you do
You are from a different circle -
That shaped you
Breaking soft hearts, playing victim
Are you aware of the consequences of your actions?

Heartbreaks after heartbreaks
I am the only one sinking in
Different honestly when you tell
You can't quite understand as well
I healed myself without you
Not knowing my intense hurt from you

Put an end to this, God
He came back to me
When all i wanted to do
Is to unknow him and heal
My painful heart, dont be
Dependent on the hurt
You are better than
A messed up soul

She warned you not to go out
Especially tonight when you are in doubt
Wigs or knifes to bring outside
Nothing that she cannot abide

It's dark to figure things out
With dead dolls in doubt
She stood behind in hidden sight
Waiting to escape through the dark light

Her dark eyes is somehow a charm
She attracts people with an open arm
Survive this night to meet the light
Nothing matters even the bright

Innocent souls holding pain and grudge
Calling their tribe covered in blood
Living their dark and painful lives
Together with sharp cherished knifes

One's red one's blue
Her hope lies between those two
She died with a grudge
Innocent soul covered in blood

54

If I should die,
And you should live—
And time should gurgle on—
And morn should beam—
And noon should burn—
As it has usual done—
If Birds should build as early
And Bees as bustling go—
One might depart at option
From enterprise below!
’Tis sweet to know that stocks will stand
When we with Daisies lie—
That Commerce will continue—
And Trades as briskly fly—
It makes the parting tranquil
And keeps the soul serene—
That gentlemen so sprightly
Conduct the pleasing scene!

Your broken mask is white
Showing what's inside to my sight
Silence and distance in one
Because sympathy exceeds anger

Energy is precious
Don't use on the suspicious
Given sense and claws
Are tests for people's flaws

Everything is cold and fake
Making me a hobo venturing to states
Smoking cigarettes in fake faces
Unaware with their own faeces