I thank you all for today
It's no easy jump
Friends and loves are hard to find
Eww...
Nerds...

Thats just grown up.
When is the last time time
You thought about holding someone?
I don't want to **** anyone again for that
Meg is a terrible self.

But I love me some Family Guy.
Ummm...
Irresponsibility with your family,
I bet you love that
You ******* person.

Sorry,
My fault as well
Nerd.

The Irish are going to go hard soon.
You gotta wake up my friend...

When things fall apart
It's too easy to judge
Point a finger
Blame them
Shift the weight
Off your plate
By the time you quit steaming
It will be too late

Take responsibility
And own up
To the steps you took
Down the wrong path
Sometimes it's better to look back
So you can retrack
Fix your steps
Instead of stepping on a mine
Quit wasting time

Easier to blame
Than understand
Waiting to argue
Rather than listen
You have the patience of a kitten

All your energy
Used on fighting
Something as credible
As a bigfoot sighting

It's better to stop fighting
And stop and think
No one is perfect
All of our **** stinks

Writing with the wrong pen
Ruins things
This one has a ****** barcode on it
Why did I even buy this pen?

It flows smooth but bleeds through
That
I am not a fan of

A shot at my mark
To follow thru
And find true
Hidden behind frustration

It's shortcomings cannot change the words
But the original point of this poem was lost
In the poorly
And obviously hurried
Design of this ****** pen

When the future is yours
And tomorrow is full
Life's pains and realities
Are still left untold

The intensity of happiness
Blinds us to the dangers
That tomorrow may never come

Our existence is but a flash
In the realm of eternity
But those you've touched
Will always remember

Not a day will go by
For the young or the old
You will never be forgotten
But always missed

You judge me
My abilities are limited
My skills peak out
At knee level
Or lack thereof
But I am the Quadriplegic Ninja

Combat I fight with inner strength
A punch I pack
Comes with arms I lack
You will question
How you were beat
By the ninja with no feet

Words I use
As my greatest weapon
Once I'm done
You better get steppin
Well
Cause you can

I'm Quadriplegic Ninja
The ***** I give are zero
Ask me anytime
And I will be your hero

I carry an umbrella on a sunny day
Without a cloud in the sky
I know
You can't always see the storm coming
I'm ready for anything
I carry my boots with me
Even when I'm not hiking
No care at hand
Yet not time to pretend
That I know what is over the horizon
I'm ready for anything
Bad things and good things happen
When we least expect them too
To me
And you
I'm ready for anything
I beg to differ
That lightning doesn't strike
The same place twice
If it strikes close to me
I'm getting the **** out
I'm ready for anything
Just because a dog doesn't bark
Doesn't mean it won't bite
Keep walking canine ******
And be nice
I'm ready for anything
So you're on birth control
And you say I don't need a ******?
**** that ****
I'm gonna wear one
Maybe two
Because I don't trust you
I'm ready for anything
A penny for your thoughts
Wisdom cannot be bought
What we say and do
Through and through
Live in the now
But prepare for tomorrow too
I'm ready for anything

Whenever I think I'm away from it
I realize I'm more into it
A matter of knowing
When I'd rather not
Once you become privy to the subtleties of life
They are never subtle again
No matter how much we wish they were
We try and we try
To hide the truths
By hiding them in the open
And then deny them once we're caught
When
The whole time
We first need to be honest with ourselves
No matter where we come from
Or who or what we are
You cannot deny the truth
Of existence and yourself

I had been gone for so long
I had forgotten the route
The turns I made were from memory
And I knew the names of the streets
As I turned my way onto them

The more familiar they got
I realized that I didn't know where home was

I had lost my way

I stopped somewhere familiar
To ask for directions
Recognizing faces,
I felt better

Familiar faces did welcome me
I was known to them
Told me where I wanted to go
And invited me for a drink
Everyone is so different from what I remember!

I stayed for a little while
Tried to make sense of it
To understand why I knew them
But I couldn't remember them

I left and headed out
Directions in hand
I arrived at my destination
Only to discover

I was the one that had changed

I was lost,
Even to myself

It's easy to say
Get along
Get over it
Don't be upset
Tomorrow is a new day

It's nice to be told these things
When it's not small talk
When you know someone
Actually means it

It's difficult to understand
When we don't even understand
What is happening
And we're broken

It is so easy to push those away
That are telling us the truths
We don't want to hear
It's a seed that grows into reality
Don't set yourself up
To be told
"I told you so"

Believing in something unbelievable
Is what has pushed the world to this point
We are at a standoff now
Because we believe in different things

But, it remains the same

It's not that hard to get along
And most of us do
The media wants to tell us otherwise
But they play to the fool

If you add to the hate,
You are only a tool
We are built together from the ground up
Yet, we fight
From how we see the skies above

Taken
Stolen from me
With my guard down
I let it happen

I gave up willingly

As a man
I try to be strong
I carry many burdens
Upon my shoulders they rest

I don't let my guard down
For just anyone
I don't let everyone in
I especially
Don't hand my heart away willingly

For you, I have
No regrets
That is how it should be
You've unchained me

The walls I had built
To protect me from harm
Only left me imprisoned
Yet they crumbled
With your charm

You make me feel
Like anything is possible
Dreams aren't something
Only when you're asleep

Sometimes, they're granted
Once reality and heaven meet

Poems for days
In an attempt to fix the things I've broken
Including myself, along the way

No one ever said it was going to be easy
And it hasn't been
Bad choices have been made
And bridges have been broken

Reality has been sobering
Sobriety has shown me reality

To all the people I've hurt over the years
Including myself
I must tell you that I apologize

I used to look for answers at the bottom of a bottle
Even though they didn't come
I kept trying and only complicated everything

It was about not taking responsibility
Not wanting to deal with my life and the losses I've experienced
The reality is
That's life
Most of it is out of our control

When you ride the wave
It will break eventually
You just gotta get back up and keep swimming
That's life

Right person, wrong time
When we met
I knew, exactly
You automatically had my heart

Resistance as they say was futile
Our chemistry and cosmic friends
Were making more plays
Than our hands could play against
We sure as hell couldn't bluff

We were both in pain
After finding ourselves somewhere confused
We had planned for the rest of our lives
And been abused

Wrong time
We both have too much to fix
Right now, but we will
When it comes together
Will we be together?

You took my pain away
As I did yours
I know this is true
I saw you smile and heard you laugh
With me
It was the most sincere
We had both lost that for so long

I won't promise that I will wait
I don't expect you to either
But know that I will think of you
I know better than to say something
Ridiculous

Like, you were the "one"
Or something like that
I know better

I think you are a good catch
The best yet
I am not throwing you back

But I do believe in possibilities
And the future is ours
Should we take it

You made me feel special
Like I've always wanted to feel
I can't throw that away
Absolutely not
What we have is one in a billion

One way or another
You will always have a place in my heart
Because you're special to me too
I feel better just for having met you

I was so young and innocent at some point
I always felt that things weren't right
Watching grown people being broken

And now it's just the same
Yet knowing more and what it really takes to break someone
I can look back and now I understand
Why there are so many things that can break us

I know in my heart
That happiness is simple
It is so close
Within reach and right there for the picking
Yet, it maintains it's elusive quality

Sometimes, just a taste
To let you know what it is you're missing
Hello, it's me.  Had you forgotten?
Skeptical while it's felt
Not even letting it happen sometimes
What a **** shame
Too scared of being hurt
To let ourselves be happy

But yet it's there
Within reach
Ripe for the picking
Right in front of us

You are convinced
You've made your escape
As far away from midnight you can get
Continuing on and on
In the hopes that you can hide from the inevitable
You can't stop time
Avoiding the reality is an insatiable quest
The more you try to escape it
The more you will become lost
Unable to find your way back
To yourself
The darkness will come and it's unavoidable
Stop running and let it happen
The more you fight it
The more people are going to get hurt
You've gotta stop to let yourself heal
Move on
The road you took led you here
Accept that
And quit punishing yourself

The people that make themselves the most available
Will find themselves being the first to be taken for granted
Make them fight and win your time
Because life is short and time is valuable
If your time isn't valuable to them
Say goodbye and shut the door
There is someone else who will savor every moment

We've all been through pain
It hurts and sometimes scars
Scars make us stronger
Only to live on

I gave you my seed and my heart
We created someone wonderful
Innocent, void of dark
I haven't forgotten the good times we've had
I, above all, want to be a better dad
I support you for being a good mother to our son
The pain we've inflicted on each other cannot be undone
We still continue to hurt each other
As we keep playing this winnerless game
Our son will end up as the biggest loser
As long as you remain an abuser
We both still have a lot to learn too
The scars of my heart
Will forever burn
Although
I have already forgiven you
You still blame me for everything
Because you refuse to take responsibility
For anything
But a misguided plan
And I wait for the day that you understand
Something, one thing, anything
About me and the feet that have walked this land
Your abuse of my trust and lack of respect
Take away my breath
I've learned a lot from my experience with you
Now I know what not to do
To never let myself again fall in love with someone
like you
Despite our differences
I still want your life to be better
So maybe someday you can be happy
Because you obviously aren't
And that is no life to feed a heart
This you only deserve because you are a good mother to our son
Maybe if you can learn to be a good person to other people as well
You can earn your happiness like a real woman
And maybe
One day you'll forgive me too

The sweetest revenge is to be happy without you.

Every day you **** me
Then send me to heaven

If you want my heart
You will have to take my hand
And show me how to love again

The responsibility is both of ours, most definitely
But you should know
This will come with rough edges for me
After being cut so many times
I learned to quit giving people the knife
But I do want to love again

I just need to know that it will be okay
And that you won't take advantage
Of my opened heart
Of my desire to please
That you will really love me for me

Nothing should ever be rushed
But no one is getting younger

Asking you to hold my hand and be gentle
Isn't too much, is it?
But I will be as kind to you
It can be a journey together
You and I

I won't forget
The world is unfair, equally

Oh the troubles!
What a difficult time
Between sleep and despair
What does one turn to?

A comptemplating cigarette
Or otherwise
To access a reality
A brief compromise

Without judging or pointing
At best
Trying to understand
Waiting to make some sense
This nonsense
Of a joke
That has no fans

As the sun warms my body,
Your heart warms my soul.
To know a love like this,
Is to know true bliss.
And to think it all started
With just a simple kiss.

Insomnia
I'm not sure
Are we friends?
Or enemies?
I prefer the nighttime
It's quiet and peaceful
The calmness alone is beautiful
For that, Insomnia
I thank you
For all of the times I needed to be asleep however
But didn't even know where to begin
I struggle with you
Laying in bed
Wide awake
Bombarded with thoughts
To a point where my body is so exhausted
Yet my brain is running laps
It's a love-hate relationship I have with you Insomnia
Can I catch a break?

How many sleepless nights were spent
Trying to avoid the demons that come with the night?
Bringing with them
Memories of failures and past loves
Calamity and death
Not allowing peace
For that much needed sleep

How many days were spent
Stuck in bed because dealing with the world
Didn't make any sense?
Fearful of dealing with anything
Even nothing seemed like too much

Walking through life
Like a zombie with no direction
Sense of purpose lost
When the carpet was pulled out
From under your feet

And your world came crashing down

That is why the demons haunt you
You blame yourself and are broken
Not knowing how to stand again
Because you can't tell where you belong anymore
Feeling alone more than ever

Just needing a friend to help you fight the demons
Someone to help remind you how to smile

Sometimes when it's cloudy
Or things have you down
It's difficult to remember
What has kept your feet
On the ground

We all can give up
Or keep moving on
The things that keep us going
Deserve a little love, unbound

I lose sight of these things all the time
I get reminded by the little things
Forever and ever

If it wasn't for those little things
That I have to take time to notice
I would have given up long ago

It's the bigger things that can drown us
When they don't work out
They shadow everything small
And shut them out

But the small things are always there
Despite our distractions
We have to be aware

They are the ones working
Striving to there and noticed
Not worried about all the *******
Waiting for that moment
When someone stops
And takes a moment
To care

No matter what
I will continue to search for you
You made me smile
You lit my fire
You are my desire

Someday, somehow
We will come back together again
The only place I'd rather be
Is with you
In your arms
To feel your embrace

You pick me up
When I am down
You mend my wounds
When I am hurt
You are the piece
That completes me

There is such an emptiness in my life
Without you
I dream of you and wake up
With you gone
That is my nightmare

I hope to find you again
Because you are my dream

Karma isn't always quick to act
Sometimes it takes months, even years
To fully come into effect
Sometimes, it waits until you're on your deathbed
And it will come in the form of regret
Reminding you of all of the hurt and pain you've caused

So think twice before you burn bridges
And bite your tongue before you say mean things
Be nice and good and fair
And that comes around full circle as well
Sometimes, it takes a while
But good things do come to those who wait

So much beauty in the world
It's almost too much to handle sometimes

A lover's last embrace before parting ways
A warm sunset as the night comes
A campfire being familiar yet completely unique
Hearing the wind blow through the trees

It's always there and all around
Sometimes it's hidden
Waiting to be discovered

So much beauty in the world
Not lost
Wanting to be found

Beauty can trump anything
Fear and depression submit to defeat
A matter of perspective
For eyes that choose to see
So much beauty in the world
Open your mind and heart
A huge step in being truly free

Tough exterior
Tore apart
Piece by piece
From the inside out
Knowing the fight
Was a losing battle
Too stubborn to quit
Hope was the last hope
Never giving up
Headstrong against the odds
Purely out of spite

A kiss
And it starts
I feel something different with you
It changes what is inside
Makes me forget my past
Who hurt me
Their lies and abuse

I still worry
Because now I have someone to lose
I let you in
So be careful with my heart
It's fragile and doesn't need torn apart

You and I are in the same boat
Hardly lost at sea
If we work together
We can keep it afloat

Don't even bother to think
That you are in this alone
Journeys through life will take you places
Sometimes trip you up

Just keep standing back up

Know that you are stardust
Infinity resides within you
Of all the possibilities
You became you
Unique as the stars
The question of existence
Answered purely by existing
The quest of stardust
To become sentient
To become you

Cracked
Broke
Wondering
If this is a sad joke
Never a final answer
Drinking to forget
But forgetting why I even drink
Too much trouble over nothing
Too much stress over nothing
Just looking for a little something
Between hate and love
A short link
Wondering
What it all means
Who has got your back
When you need it most
And not much is left
First world problems
Complaining and *******
About how everything is wrong
Sitting and waiting
For whatever comes along
Patience is a virtue
When it doesn't take that long
Pain doesn't cut you slack
Experience makes you pay
No discount
Still taxed
Revenge may be sweet
No point in paying that **** back

This stitch in time
Will one day only be a memory
Eventually to be lost
To forever's eternity

The pain and sadness
Happiness and bliss
Fades away and dies
Forgotten to time's abyss

Make the moments count
Even if they will fade away
You may not get a second chance
You may not live to live another day

As I watched you walk away
I knew things were about to change

We had passed the point of no return
And there was no fixing things this time

I thought about pleading with you
But kept my dignity instead

It would have been for naught anyways

Out the door you ran and left
I felt like a stranger in my own home

Such a mess sometimes
This thing we call life

When you realize so many things have gone wrong
And things have gotten to this point
Far from the original plan
You had
From the beginning when you were young
Carefree and innocent of life's harsh realities

Life made plans for you otherwise
And now, here you are

"That's life" people most likely said
They also probably told you to move on
Or some **** like that

But you can still keep working on
Finding your way back to
Getting your life back on that path
You want to walk

I'm a survivor
A lover
And a fighter
Fight to survive
Fight to love
Love to survive
Never saying never
In the moment
Into forever
Recognizing the positive
Out of a sea of hurt
The opportunities that are handed
Not taking anything for granted
Beginning till end
Born from and back into
Mother Earth

I am a somewhat educated man
I read, I learn, I listen
Above all
I observe

I see all of the hate
The anger, the pettiness, selfishness
And I wonder

How much did you bring on yourself?

We are all different
As humans,
We flourish
Because of this

Yet we forget

So easy to point a finger
Instead of trying
To understand
That someone is living a different life
Than you

Before being the end all be all
Be smart
Not dumb
It's not that hard

Judging people is inherent
It would be dumb not to
To a point...
But don't be that *******

If you're religious, fine
But, judge yourself
Before others
If you're political, fine
But, judge yourself
First and foremost

Honestly, who's horn are you tooting?

I knew from the start
You called ahead
Reserved
Prime real estate in my heart

Talking of the past
A similar thing
Was being burned
We gave our all
To someone
That would never last

I agree, it's terrible
You think you know someone
Then they bail when you need them most
Making you look like the fool

Been there, done that
A cliche I realize
Point being...
I understand

The past, although harsh
Gives me strength
Believing in something new
To move beyond these scars

I appreciate you for you
(No one is perfect but I do really like you)

I'm glad I went through the pain from before
It caused me to learn of myself
What I was lacking
What was broken
What I could restore

You've given me more than hope
I will never forget that
Thank you for giving me a second chance at love
Something true

Thank you for being you

The art of loneliness
Isn't to be appreciated or loved
But it is felt and known by many
A lesson not taught but learned

Like flying in a rocket ship
Looking down and seeing everyone
And how the world seems to work
The feeling of not belonging with everyone else
Alone on your journey to fly alone

Always on the outside, looking in
Wondering what it would be like
To be at home somewhere

The real art of loneliness
Is how well so many of us hide it from others
Finding a career
Getting married
Being social
Yet never feeling at home

There are moments when we connect
Or cross paths with others that remind us
We aren't truly alone
It can be difficult to not become needy of these people
And we will drive them away
Because in the end
This is what we know

The art of loneliness isn't something you share with someone
We have moments that bring smiles and happiness
And those are the times when we grow tired
Because anything worth enjoying
Is better off shared with someone you love

This is the art of loneliness