So I searched my name on google,
And guess what popped up?

This.
Like, ****.
Guess I'll have to change my name.

oh no,
not again.
please don't let me go
down this same path again.

stop it,
don't do it.
you'll regret it.
but oh no, no i won't.

it's going to.
it's happening.
i've started this habit again.
but i know they won't care.

and even if they did,
they can't stop me.

So what
If absolutely nothing
Turned out the way
We all thought it would?

Wrong place, wrong time.
Wrong decision, wrong crime.

I'm stupid.
I'm stupid.
I'm stupid.
Ruining my life like this now?
It's not something
That time can fix.
Silly girl,
Everyone knows
You just don't cross that line.

Should I cover up?
Should I let them be?
Should I let you see
What you've done to me?

Are you so blind?
The cuts are there.
My wrists are bare.
Do you refuse to see
What you've done to me?

Are you really
So blind
That you cannot see
How far
Far
Far
Away
You're pushing me?
Or am I the one
Doing the pushing?

Hey there girlfriend,
I love those big brown eyes.
Not much like mine, big and blue.

You have the hair to match,  brown and long,
While mine is long and blonde.

You are totes gonna blow those girls of the board today.
Just don't think to much about Elliot and you'll be fine.

If you're mother of the team,
Then I'd be your baby freshman.

If you looked in the stands,
Popstar is directly to my left.

I hope you like big butts and you cannot lie,
Cause I have a big **** when I fly.

Love,
Your secret swimmer.