I have never snorted
or smoked
or stung skin
with the explicit
substances of this earth
But I have heard that when
a human being goes from
first ****** experience to
aching addiction
Their brains have been
flooded
with seratonin
to such a devestating
degree
that they can no longer
enjoy organic bliss

                                                        sc­ent
                                                        taste­
                                                        touch
  ­                                                      melody

Wha­t I want to know
Is if this is what happened to me
because of **you

It’s driving your old car through familiar streets,
Or having a conversation with a river
Of a city you’re not from,
But you are its sibling;
The similarity is striking.
You could see yourself in it.
Here, you are family.
     You are welcome.

It’s jumping in the car with a drunk driver
Who insists on letting you know
He has not a clue how to operate a vehicle,
Or hearing unsettling words from a best friend,
From someone you love,
Or from your childhood pet
Who died when you were 16.
     You are mystified.

Dreams can only be interpreted by the dreamer;
No one can tell you what your dreams mean.
How do you see your world
Behind closed, rapid moving eyes?
“Everything we see and seem,
Is but a dream within a dream.”
Where does that leave reality?
    You are uncontrollable.

I have been confusing my dreams with reality,
And my dreams are turning on me.
When reality seems all right,
My dreams will try to prove otherwise.
I can’t make you my family.
I can’t hear the words you say.
As much as I would like to live this life,
     You are unreal to me.

she tells me
it gives her chills
to feel the trains rush past
on their way to places she'll never go

they carry wind
she says
from places she's never been
and she breathes a little deeper
when the rails start to sing

toes to the ledge
she stiffens her wrists
palms to the fury
catching blurs of blacks and whites and blacks and whites
and yellow

she shivers
a shake that loosens her bones
and she sits next to me
settling slow like the flow of her dress
in the fading stream of a north bound torrent

she tells me
there's nothing to be afraid of
and I believe her
though she spoke not a word

We only harden ourselves
When we are truly threatened

Until then, we love
And we love viciously

We both know how addicting
It is to lose your humanity.

Take your heart out of your chest
and put it in your pocket

It's much safer there

When I said "I love you"
and you said "I love you too"
our hearts were sledgehammers
swinging at one another

Distance is a devil, paved with ash and beat up promises
That pours too frequently from tears to misguided melodies and minors
I remember all those nights at the foot of my bed
Strumming those chords and you sang so sweet,
Line after line, word after word
Honey it’s like living on the breeze and it carried me
Right into the back seat, oh how we’d scream our favorite words
After all they understood us, as if like books and they read us
Line after line, word for word
Now I don’t know where I am, somewhere stuck in-between
So I put your record on and as it spins and your voice spills out
You know I do too, I just get more confused
I thought you were singing those for me, little promises for me to believe
And now they’re all for the breeze
Line after line, word after word