This is where I learn how to stand
When the lilies have died and I'm holding your hand
We connect through the breeze
Here is when I know you’re hurting
'Cause the soils gotten cold
The warmth under me no longer exist
This is where I learn how to hush
To listen as the forest whispers around us
We transform through the grass
Here is how I know I love you
'Cause the separation has killed us
But you've kept getting stronger
This is where I learn how to speak
When the silence hasn't helped
An communication was key
The air around me you've always breathed
We transcend beyond the grave
Here is how I see
When the redish tips of your hair
Turn grey
The warmth surrounding me no longer exist
This is where I learn how to stand
When the roses have died an you’re in Gods hands...

How to Stand

I can see your face
It's those hands I can't quite remember
I know the exact day we met
The 15 of 1946
I just can't put my finger on
If it were November or December
I can feel your veins
And I've wondered why our heart beats the same tune
I know where we had our first kiss
It was in June and the flowers bloomed
Whilst some wilted to die
I know your lips
But I've completely forgotten the twinkle in your eye
The soft honey brown
I had a dream
About a boy
The one with the eyes like you
I pressed him from my very womb
My vision faded by morning
I couldn't much arrange his birthday
Oh but I knew his birth place
Oklahoma Oklahoma
He gave me a memory
And I'd loan it out to you
I know he knows your eyes too
I can see your face
It's that touch I can't quite place
It's comforting
And uncomfortable
But it brings awkward joy to you
Honestly I feel it surge through me too
I know the exact day we met
I just can't put my finger on
If it were April or May
We would take our handsome son
Out to play
Oh he had a smile
sweet as honey dew
Oklahoma Oklahoma
He gave me a memory
A memory that fades...like you

The Boy Named Oklahoma

Lets talk now
Hold my hand
I've only known one kind of touch
You sat down to listen...
In you I trust
Lets value each other
Look at my heart
I've never known my worth
You stood
Calming my nerves
I choked on *****
I hadn't realized was there
Lets flow together
Like the long locks
Of your curly hair
Grow with me
'Cause I'm bald to the roots
Metaphorically speaking
Lets talk now
You hold me like silk
I melt to you
I've only known one type of touch
You swiftly kiss my forehead
I never felt trapped laying in your bed
"Relax my love" is what you said
"Look at my heart...it knows your worth"
I heard the pounding of my heart
I hadn't realized was there
Lets flow together
Like a river to the stream
Being together and
Being one
Are two different things
Lets be one
Connect
Your veins will run through me
Hold my hand
In you I trust
I melt to you
You stood and said "I do"
And I knew
I would never love anyone
But you

Cause darling you were born here
You were raised to grow like the wheat
Golden brown
The tips of your hair and teeth
Tell me if I over step my boundaries
I've been walking too far
Cause baby you were conceived here
Bred to be strong like the roots
Supporting the tree
The bending of your bones
Never weak
Tell me if I cross the line
They are painted red and white
Oh the stripes the stripes
Cause honey they tell you whom you are
Right below the blanket of Earth
Left are the stars
Background of blue
Cause darling you were born here
So America is you
Bred to be strong like the roots
Supporting the tree
Cause sweet pea you were forced here
Grabbed from the confines
Of mothers loving cave
Forgive me if I trip over my feet
I was pushed into being brave
Given a number
Lost my name
The bending of my bones
Never leak
Stitched are the wounds
Internal bleeding
Bled red white and blue
Cause darling we were born here
So America is we
We were launched in wars
With the purpose to maintain our free
So America is we
Yes you
Yes me
Tell me if I over step my boundaries
I've been walking to far
The ugliness of this world
Won't leave us scars
No our beauty shall never be marred

I've been waiting 68 days
22 hours
13 minutes
and 51 seconds
To literally bump into you
I hear the things they say
But they couldn't be true
You my friend are not small and shallow
With a height of 5'9
You tower over me
And your boyfriend is unattractive
So you must look deeper than
What the eye can see
Yes i've been waiting 69 days
21 hours
14 minutes
and 52 seconds
For you to notice me
Is it really that difficult
I know I don't stand out in a crowd
But if anyone were to go against our love
Your hand I would hold proud
Proud to have you as mine
I've been waiting this long
So what's a little more time??
Day 70
Is only one more than 69
And I'd love to 69
Well only if you'd let me
I've heard of your history with Jeffrey
He was boy 71
You smiled and laughed with him
Was he that much fun?
I know about the others too
Like Hinson boy 42
Or John 38
Didn't he show up to your date late?
And Kahlil 37 supposedly got robbed at 7/11
I know that must of been hard for you
But I've waited 2 long
Yes I've been standing by this pole four 3 hours
Just waiting to catch a glimpse of blue
Your favorite color
It honestly has become mines too
I've been waiting 71 days
19 hours
16 minutes
And 54 seconds
For my 1 and only....
You

He would walk into clubs
And watch
The under-aged girls chugging down
Adult shots
Waiting for men to fill them up
Clinking their glasses
And ***** filled cups
He would ****** them
They would misuse him
He'd pay for all the liquor
They required
After all their lush fits
They would taste the harm that he desired
Waiting for men to feel them up
He'd take them to a field
So he could play
Soon enough
Cold their bodies would lay
Waiting for him to pick them up
Chunks of hair
He would tuck
Into his pockets
No or stop they never yelled
To deep within his spell
Waiting for help
But had no luck
His body shook
As he'd erupt
Waiting for sirens to shut them up
Oh the voices in his head
He would walk into clubs
And leave out with girls he knew
Were sure to be dead

Locker 36
Brought about much bliss
How you twisted my **** and made me free
You were locker 38
Just two spaces down from me
I'd stare at you from a far
In the lunch room
Just hoping one day you would see
The hair you had spiked to the t
With hands gentle
And a smile so soft
You said your name was Stacy
But that I could take to calling you Jack
You loved when I called you Jack
You also enjoyed football,wrestling and tickle fights
I adored things like that
I bet I could pin you down in three seconds flat
I was to weak to flip you over
Your head you'd rest on my breast
You said they fit better on my body anyways
Locker 38
Where we discussed our first date
You swallowed spit to say
"I know it might be weird...ya know being seen out with me"
I pulled you close and embraced you
Feel my love my dear?
Heaven knows I had my fears...but none of them had to do with being seen with you.
I whispered hummingbird in your ear
'Cause the nights I couldn't sleep you would hum the sweetest tune
I unraveled the moment the testosterone bloomed
Hearing depth in your voice for the first time
You asked how could I love someone like you, the day I called you mine.
Locker 38
You leaned against with eyes unsure
I knew the question was pure
So my answer would always be genuine
I explained that I had fallen
I was never to get up
Jack I said
Stacy is just your long forgotten twin...I except who you were and what you've become simply my dear because you are my love...
My only one...
Locker 38
Where my life begun.