i put my words in stanzas,
put a ribbon around them and showed them to you...
you didn't like them.

i put my words in couplets,
i put them in a box and shipped them to you...
you still didn't like them.

i put my words in a full poem,
placed the poem in a bottle,
sent it into the ocean in hopes that it finds you...
you read the poem, wept and never spoke a word.

i placed my words in my heart,
drenched them in blood,
whispered them into your soul.
you held on to me,
eyes locked on each other with a sign of emotion...
that's when you finally let me know,
that my words reminded you of anchors....

they always seek refuge in the pits of your heart and soul...

time has come and time has past,
yet i can still feel your presence in my lungs.
i can still feel how on numerous occasions you left me gasping for air.
how on many days the sight of your eyes had my breath hitching.

I could breath,
easily even.

But when you would come around
my lungs would fail me.
I would take chunks of your scent into my lungs,
hold on to that scent as long as i could.
But science and physics would fail me,
forcing me to breath again
therefore losing your scent.

time has come and time has past,
yet traces of your scent stay in my lungs.

I never want to let go .

the memories we shared,
when i start thinking of all we had.

we fell in love in summer,
blossomed in spring.
you were always so hot and i so cold.

i winced at the thought of hot days and hotter nights.
you loathed the coldness of night and hated how the winter sun  only brought a bit of color.

but in autumn, oh baby,in autumn.
the cold met the hot,
how beautiful crimson be.
the leaves fell in accordance,
made the season seem like a beautiful dance.

but that wasn't enough,
this love needed more than one
beautiful season...
we tried,oh baby, we tried.

but seasons changed,
autumn rained,
winter came,
and the summer caved.

and i stood there,
craving you,
craving for what we used to have.

you held my throat in your hands,
no you didn't choke me-
you kissed me passionately.
kissed me so hard,
i felt my soul cry out for me.

you made me realize whose air i was breathing,
made me realize whose love filled my heart daily.

maybe i am not looking for your kind of  love.
All the unwritten rules and obligations.
Maybe i am looking for my own version of love,
I want love to be like a spontaneous bike ride decided on hastily before the sun sets on a sunday evening.
I want love to be like jumping from a cliff  into a the lake, so sure that you will crash into water and find safety.
I want love to be like making coffee, being uncertain whether 2 or 3 sugars will be enough.
I want love to be like waking up in the morning, a Monday morning with the buzz of a new week yet the loath of the morning.
I want love to be faulty, unsure, unsteady.
I want it to be about what is done , more than what is said .
I want to feel a deep knot in my tummy everytime I can't see your face in a crowded room .
Yet i wanna feel ease knowing that tonight we will make love and I will lay in your arms .
I want a difficult love , but yet easy.
I want a love that understands love and puts in no complications .
A love written in the stars,
A sun and moon kind of love .

I need you to be okay, be strong, survive.

I can't learn to breathe without you.

I need your energy to stay afloat.

I need your smile in order to see rainbows.

I need your voice so I can hear the music.

I need your hugs to keep myself from falling apart.

I need you..
to be my lifeguard on stormy days,
    to be my guide when i fail to see.

stay with me, you're my life support, let me be yours.