Spotlight
Bright, staring me down
Sweat drips slowly down my face
Coughs and whispers
Sneezes and giggles
I can feel my heart like a drum
Beating violently in my chest
My knees are shaking
They're all staring at me
I swallow once then clear my throat
I open my mouth
And I can't make myself speak
My eyes start burning
I know what's coming
They'll laugh and point
SHE CHOKED

There's still something
That's missing in me
I'm not the girl I was
But that's who I long to be
Happy, smiling, joyful
Never really quiet
There was so much to say
I could've started a riot
But instead I left
I changed myself
Stopped speaking to people
And stay on a shelf
Away from people
Hiding in corners that are dark
Hoping no one pulls me
Into the light to see my marks

Flutter your wings
Fly far away
Get out of this place
Come back another day
Let your colors show
But know how to hide
The predators will chase you
Trying to get inside
They'll try to break you
Don't let them through
Let all your colors show
And simply be you

I'm breaking
And breaking
And breaking
From pain
And hate
And words
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But words will never hurt me
Words said as children
So it wouldn't hurt
And break, break
Break us
But it did
The words
And looks
And abuse
No matter the kind
Now look
We're breaking
And breaking
And breaking
From the pain
And hate
And words
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But words will never hurt me
We see now
It's all a lie
To make us feel
Just a little better
But the truth always
Shows in the end
And we see
We were simply
Foolish
And now
I'm here
And I'm breaking
And breaking
And breaking

Broken glass
Across the floor
The plate I threw
Shattered at the door
Don't come knocking
To see if I'm okay
I'll get better
Maybe one day
But for right now
I'm perfectly fine
The emotion is gone
It's about time
I clean up my mess
From my break
And hope tonight
My soul you'll take
Leave me emotionless
To do no harm
I'd hurt myself
With no lucky charm
To keep me alive
My broken sanity
Lying somewhere
Deep inside me

Not afraid of death
But afraid to die
I fear the unknown
I hate this life
All it does
Is bring me pain
I feel empty
I feel plain
I don't want to die
Or fall apart
But I'm losing hope
For my broken heart

Remember me
When I'm dead and gone
Remember me
When you think of love
When you think of joy
When you think of hope
Remember me
For who I was inside
Remember me
As a fun, crazy girl
With a happy life
Remember me
Because I wasn't perfect
But at the same time
Because I was
Remember me
When you think of sadness
When you think of death
When you think of pain
Remember me
No matter what
Remember me
Forever and always

My words
  Falling to the ground
    As I run
      Through the dark
         Further from my past
           Into the future
             A song in my heart
               Words overflowing
                 Falling to the ground

Fighting the words
Thrown in our faces
Running away
To secret places
Hiding from
The aim to ****
Confidence and esteem
Screams ringing shrill
Through the dense air
Filling my ears
With strong words
Only said in fear
Afraid to stand
In fear of falling
We don't hear
The guardians calling
Screaming out clearly
Yelling our names
Trying to save us
From these games
We band together
Silently as one
Fighting our bullies
Until the war is won

I hope you find
Forgiveness in your heart
Because I know
I've been a pain from the start
I hope you feel
Something inside
When you think of me
And know that I cried
I hope you know
I want to go back in time
To change what was done
And keep you as mine
I hope you care
Somewhere for me
Because in my heart
Is where you'll be
I hope you see
The truth in these lines
That I wrote for you
Hoping to rewind time

We fight to stop fighting
We scream to stop screaming
We **** to stop killing
We wait to stop waiting
We run to stop running
We are flawed
We are imperfect
We have insecurities
We feel hate, envy, and pride
We take without giving
We act before we think
But we live without limits
We learn everyday
We laugh at all volumes
We reach for the stars
And we love unconditionally

When you're around
I start to miss you
I get confused
Wanting to tell you
I don't know why
But I want you to know
What I want
Where I'll go
Help me understand
What went wrong
Bring me back
To when I was strong
Tell me everything is okay
And bring me back today