A dance with a friend
He asked me
I asked him
I don't recall
But we danced
It was a slow dance
I looked at my best friend
Dancing with her boyfriend
I ran to the bathroom
To pull myself together
Don't cry
The makeup will run
I think in that moment
That I looked and saw them
I knew in my heart
I'd never find the one

Tell me why
I should fight
I should try
Tell me why
I shouldn't give up
I shouldn't disappear
Tell me why
I should trust you
I should hold on
Tell me why
I shouldn't let go
I shouldn't die
Give me one reason

I don't know
And that scares me
I had a plan
I knew
Who I was
What I was doing
Where I was going
But that's gone now
I'm stumbling through
Barely staying alive
Feeling like
I'll never make it
Everything pulls me down
I'm fighting just to crawl
But I don't know
Where I'm going
Who I am
What I'm doing
Why I'm here
I'm struggling
To understand
And all that does
Is confuse me more
I just don't know anymore
I'm lost

It's been so long
But I did it again
There are little red lines
Hiding on my body
I was clean so long
But I've broken again
My skin no longer solid
Broken in places unseen
I feel the burn
And I love it
Help me please
I can't stop crying
I swear I didn't mean to
But I did it again

Maybe I'd have a friend
To comfort me as I cry
Exhausted from life
Maybe they'd stop me
From beating myself numb
Telling me they're there
Maybe they'd love me
Through thick and thin
Because I've opened up to them
But then again
Maybe they'd laugh
Overjoyed by my misery
Enjoying my pain
Maybe they'd taunt
Telling me things I know
That others say they don't see
Maybe I'd end it all
So they could rejoice
I'm finally out of their way

How sweet
The relief
Of death
Sounds to me
I'd give anything
To end it all
To feel nothing
No worries
No problems
No fears
Just me
Finally free

Crying
Because I can't open apple juice
Thinking
About every flaw I have
Dwelling
On all the things wrong in my life
Drowning
In the tears of the past
Suffocating
On the air I try to breathe in
Dying
Because it's all killing me