One hot night
Four kids heading home
After a high school football game
Went off the road
Sliding they went
And hit a tree
Just a baby tree
Right between the doors
At the strongest part of the car
The car pushed it over
And rolled onto its side
One bleeding
Two screaming
Two calm
Help!
I'm stuck in the seatbelt
Hanging in the driver's seat
Find a phone
Call 911
Someone is calling to us
Is that the smell of gas?
Get out now!
Get away from the car!
Fire truck
Police
Ambulance
Two taken to the hospital
No major injuries
Just need to be checked
The guilt
I was driving
I was responsible for them
They could have died
Just **** me please
End all my guilt
End all the pain I feel
Please
Put me out of my misery

I can see it
In the faces of couples
I can hear it
In the words they say
I can feel it
Around my family
But I'll never have it
With a man of my own

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*Please don't make me go on.

WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME
I'M NEVER ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU HAPPY
When I say things
I **** you off
When I keep my mouth shut
I **** you off
And you wonder why I don't really say much
I'd rather **** you off
By keeping silent
Than fight like we do almost every time we talk
But you always find a way to blame me
I'm never good enough
I don't help
I don't do anything
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME
I CAN'T BE THE PERFECT CHILD
THE PERFECT PERSON
***** YOU AND ***** THIS ****
I'M DONE
I give up
Just get rid of me already

What has my life become
One grandparent
Living with cancer
No mother
Heart attack took her
Just like her mom
Fights with my dad
Escalating to more
Than any of us need
Missing uncle
Cancer finally got what it wanted
What's next?
My father?
HOW MANY MORE DO WE HAVE TO LOSE?
HOW MANY MORE WILL YOU TAKE FROM US BEFORE YOU'RE HAPPY?
HOW MANY MORE DO YOU HAVE TO BREAK?
I'm sorry for yelling
But I can't handle all of this
You took two in a matter of months
My own mother and my uncle
It doesn't make any sense
WHY DOES MY FAMILY HAVE TO SUFFER SO MUCH?

Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday to me
Happy Birthday dear Mystery
Happy Birthday to me
Finally turned eighteen
Let's light some candles
And I'll make a wish
On the count of three
One...
Two.....
Three...
*I wish I had never been born

You've read it all before
Said you'd be there
But when I quit
It's like you vanished
You'll probably read this
I don't care anymore
No one really sees it
What's right in your faces
The cries for help
And tears spilled
Every suicidal thought
That runs in my head
Maybe you think
It's just how I write
But I write my heart
And it's crying out
Has been for a long time
Just no one hears it
The silent sobbing
Hidden away from public
My heart cries out
Save me
Don't go
Just try
Please
Try to save me