My brain says move
My body disobeys
I sleep
I don't eat
My smile is gone
My green eyes have faded
My skin has paled
My body has thinned
I am weak

Spotlight
Bright, staring me down
Sweat drips slowly down my face
Coughs and whispers
Sneezes and giggles
I can feel my heart like a drum
Beating violently in my chest
My knees are shaking
They're all staring at me
I swallow once then clear my throat
I open my mouth
And I can't make myself speak
My eyes start burning
I know what's coming
They'll laugh and point
SHE CHOKED

There's still something
That's missing in me
I'm not the girl I was
But that's who I long to be
Happy, smiling, joyful
Never really quiet
There was so much to say
I could've started a riot
But instead I left
I changed myself
Stopped speaking to people
And stay on a shelf
Away from people
Hiding in corners that are dark
Hoping no one pulls me
Into the light to see my marks

Flutter your wings
Fly far away
Get out of this place
Come back another day
Let your colors show
But know how to hide
The predators will chase you
Trying to get inside
They'll try to break you
Don't let them through
Let all your colors show
And simply be you

I'm breaking
And breaking
And breaking
From pain
And hate
And words
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But words will never hurt me
Words said as children
So it wouldn't hurt
And break, break
Break us
But it did
The words
And looks
And abuse
No matter the kind
Now look
We're breaking
And breaking
And breaking
From the pain
And hate
And words
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But words will never hurt me
We see now
It's all a lie
To make us feel
Just a little better
But the truth always
Shows in the end
And we see
We were simply
Foolish
And now
I'm here
And I'm breaking
And breaking
And breaking

Broken glass
Across the floor
The plate I threw
Shattered at the door
Don't come knocking
To see if I'm okay
I'll get better
Maybe one day
But for right now
I'm perfectly fine
The emotion is gone
It's about time
I clean up my mess
From my break
And hope tonight
My soul you'll take
Leave me emotionless
To do no harm
I'd hurt myself
With no lucky charm
To keep me alive
My broken sanity
Lying somewhere
Deep inside me

Not afraid of death
But afraid to die
I fear the unknown
I hate this life
All it does
Is bring me pain
I feel empty
I feel plain
I don't want to die
Or fall apart
But I'm losing hope
For my broken heart