She sits in the corner of her bed
terrified and crying
She sits thinking.... listening
to voices that aren't hers
screaming echos of words mostly unspoken
'Worthless....'
'You're crazy....'
'You're fat and alone'
'He's only marrying you for *** you know'
'You Ice cold heart breaker'
'You're selfish'
'No one really likes you'
'You lame *******'
'Their only your friends to use you'
'you're only family is them stupid cats'
'No one cares for you'
'Your mom wanted to leave you just like your dad did he was the smart one'
'You should just crawl under a rock like a bug'
'No don't do that you'll run the bugs away hahahaha'
She sits there talking back to them
leave me alone
'You are alone, crazy'
I'm not crazy
'yes you are'
no I'm not
'yes you are'
'you can't go a whole week without thinking of killing yourself'
I'm not crazy... he says I'm not crazy
'he's lying to you' ' yea he's lying about everything'
'you're not beautiful you're ugly' ' You're not perfect you're fat'
Stop it! !
' We're the only ones telling you the truth! '
......Am I crazy....Maybe I am....

Why is Sorry always coming from my mouth but never yours?
Why am I always the one in the wrong?
Hey! Hey! You1 Can't you see I'm trying!
What do you have ears for if you're not gonna use them and LISTEN!
Some would love to have ears that work.
I hope you go deaf trying to yell.
I hope your ears bleed from hearing yourself talk and complain!
Some would risk death to talk like you do.
I hope my demons torture you like they've done me. Going years and years feeling worthless.
I hope you hear me you worthless irrelevant piece of raw crap on a stick!
Apologize… Apologize … you need apologize to me … So apologize … or go through the hell your conscience will put you through for killing me within…
Apologize to me! !
NOW! ! Right Now!
I need an apology… or die of your own mortal words … so i dance on your hell hole.

An uneasy feeling of nothing to do
nothing but silence just isn't good
staring at ceiling, walls, doors
I even enjoy watching myself go dizzy
what to do
what to do
listening to my own heart beat is boring too
layin' head on my papers
I would draw I just need new ideas
making a beat out of my own breathing
Inhale Exhale
Thump thump thump
listening to cars and the train horn
watching my dreads dangle in front of my eyes
I really wish I was high
Never mind I'm getting sleepy
Listening to my own stomach grumble.... I should go eat....Nah
never mind I don't feel like cooking this time
Oh My God! Siting still is so hard, no games to play, no chores to do,
no good books to read.
Wow I'm bored
I'm writing cause I'm bored
uuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh.........
This...Is Straight....Bordom

Where would I stay?
Who would be there?
Can't get attached because I know I won't stay here
Why Mom....
Why can't we get along
I get along with almost everyone
Well... almost
my friends are my family
My family is gone
And my mother would fill their minds full of lies
So where do I go?
Who will listen to me?
I guess I'll get used to moving
unsure if I'll ever see my fiance ever again
I miss him now I only see him at school
But this is his last year
See what I mean I feel Alone
But either way I can't go home

Where are my glasses, on my head they weren't there 2 seconds ago please excuse my Absent Mind
Walk into goodwill looking for my wallet its in the shoe isle
I don't remember ever going there how did it get there please excuse my Absent Mind
Its to early to have a Absent Mind
I'm only 16 yet I walk around with my head cut off
but please excuse my Absent Mind

Where are my glasses, on my head they weren't there 2 seconds ago please excuse my Absent Mind
Walk into goodwill looking for my wallet its in the shoe isle
I don't remember ever going there how did it get there please excuse my Absent Mind
Its to early to have a Absent Mind
I'm only 16 yet I walk around with my head cut off
but please excuse my Absent Mind

he sneaks in a marriage to steal the joy
he sneaks in the family to steal trust
he sneaks in the relationship to steal faith
he sneaks in the friendship to destroy time
he sneaks in every heart to steal the love
but love didn't shiver
he sneaks in every heart to destroy the love
but love regrew
he sneaks in every to end love once and for all
but love over came him so he would love himself but...
sad is there are more valentine thieves other than him