Every time you eat, a child dies of starvation
Every time you exhale the ozone hole grows bigger
Every time a baby is born, a suicide is committed
Every time you wake up, someone's dying in there sleep
Every time you blink, someone's tear drops falls
Every time you inhale, your lungs die a little
Every time you're happy, someone else is sad
but heck why am i talking to you... you wouldn't
see the issues if it hit you... Every time

How am I feeling? ! How am I FEELING? ! I'm feeling like crap that's how I feel. Why do I feel that way? My mom said I was ungrateful so either I stay or leave. So I packed what I could carry and left...with my tears and regret. So ask me how I feel again, you'll get a pool of pain. Yeah that's how I feel...

You come in the world thinking its going to be peaceful...
but what about the what if's
I was told at an old age that what if's don't matter
but the older I got the what if's seemed to be the most important thing I should have focused on.
Like what if I get married
What if I don't turn out right
what if I'm poor all my life
what if I get a bad disease
what if no one likes me
what if I don't have a career
what if my family dis owns me
what if I was meant to be mistreated
what if I'm just ungrateful
what if ' the what if's ' don't care about me either
So instead of teaching your new born
how to walk, eat or talk
teach them the what if's of life
I realize it should've been taught

Hey! That's my lotion!
No its mine!
Don't touch my controller!
LOL This family might fight but we'll do fine.
No don't do that!
You're absolutely nuts!
So are you! prove it!
No matter what happens we'll try to stick together.
What are you doing? !
you're embarrassing me!
She did it first! no he started it! I think this family is funny.
I like the family I have.
Can I have a hug?
Aww alright only for a bit.
I love you all no matter how lousy we get.
: -)

scream
heartache, stress
tears, pain, suffer
helpless, loveless, careless, strange
emptiness, fearful, breathless
mindless, failure
life

I am completely tired of stressing myself out over not being smart enough to know something. I think too much, my head constantly hurts, I feel absolutely worthless when I don't understand something, most of the time when I ask for help no one wants to help me... so I stop asking...only reason I'm still in school now is because it was my goal to be the smartest out of all my family, the state makes me go to school and I don't want to be a disappointment to my mom or my family....or myself. But I feel I have failed. So I sit here crying not knowing what to do...I decide to give my brain a rest...I refuse to think any more... I decide to enjoy life as the world slowly ends and I slowly die.My brain will not exist 'til further notice... You can't learn to live from a book.

Not being like is a natural thing
not being liked is why i sing
the common poison of popularity
could never reach to touch me
popular people tend to brag
sometimes when I hear it I wanna gag
All they wanna do is talk about others
That's why I hate it when they're together
but sometimes I tend to think about things
what would happen if there was a popular me?
would I turn from nice to mean
would I laugh at others instead of sing
See that's why I like unpopular me
The Nice-Nerdy-singing me