Young girl Bright eyes Cheerful smile Crumbs of chocolate On the corners of her lips No worries No cares Dreaming of the days ahead Anyone could get into my world Nothing to hide Full grace Nothing could take away Her high of life e
Part of me Is broken beyond repair No repairing The damage That has already begun Part of me is hidden Where my demons Tip toe and whisper When i'm alone They pounce Just a matter of time
Where do i go from here? Everyone seems to wonder What their next destination Will turn out to be Destinations are unplanned They're many people who fear Their unexpected destination
One, two, three Hold my breath Slice my skin One, two, three, four Blood pooling on the floor Starting to sting Starting to feel my emotions On my skin Lost in a cut Lost in blood Moment of calm Before the storm
I never want you to feel Like i don't love And care for you I love you And want you all to know This isn't me A demon has taken me away And refuses to set me free I'm sorry I might not physically show it But i love you with all my heart
Faces light up Filled with delight As they see me genuinely happy and not numb to my emotions and they see me as a happy girl When i'm actually living Not just surviving
Speaking is hard Eating is hard Breathing Is questionable at times When you feels so invisible No one will care No one will notice when you are gone They never cared enough anyway I'm not crazy I try to tell myself I'm just a teenager Trying to find a way But the fact is I am crazy Crazy not to eat Crazy to hurt myself Crazy enough to have no friends
Razor crying out for blood Comfort, like the comfort of a baby blanket Tears roll down her emaciated cheeks Turning to her razor She has no friends left
Lost in a quiet moment I lay there with darkness All around me Ana's grip is just too strong I cant seem to make Her strong grip disappear She seeps through my veins Like poisin Sooner or later She will send me to my grave
Love Love is like a sweet flower ******* locked together Together now But not forever Love is sweet Love is kind Love a unique emotion We often long to find
Confusing brain i live in I can't explain I need your help To help me understand Scared of myself Evil self Angel who is a blessing of a soul Somehow my evil self takes over My angel soul Is nowhere to be found
Teenage girl High off a blade High off emptiness Scarred arms Bruised soul Fake smile Dull eyes Drool comes down her face From the food her mom is making "Too many calories, i'm chubby enough" She says Dreaming of an easier day Unexpected life A mirror A scale That doesn't matter anymore Her secret world Is hers alone No one's allowed in Only if they want to get poisoned By her demons And become on of her Nothing can take her high off the blade Off a growling stomach No one can stop her So don't even try
I didn't mean for this to happen I hope you know I didn't mean to hurt anyone Lost in my own mind All i want Is for people to understand For my mind to stop spinning With destructive thoughts Day in and day out I love you both I hope you know
It's not that bad, you say You have no idea what i endure Every day in my own mind Tidal waves pulling me under I could be totally lost at sea You would never know Because i'm not physically deteriorating But i was mentally gone So long ago It's amazing what you can hide Just by putting on a smile Pretty soon My physical body Will catch up just wait and see Now they're on their way To the last part that makes me human Uh, oh to late she's dead "We had no idea" they said You could have saved her You were too naive to see Demons always start at the mind Then send more Draining the life Flooding with poison Life is a lesson A mental illness doesn't have to be physical
Love will remember When we promised each other We'd never leave Attached to the hip Hands locked Hearts unbroken Now everything's changed I never thought one day I would call you a stranger Big mistake Should've known Not everyone says They always leave Before i get to say I love you
All alone People have left me Faster than i could speak I'm scared I'll never find someone like you So far no luck Please remember me As much as i will remember you
Nobody ever stays Which is understandable I'm too much Too crazy Too much in every which way I don't know what to say I'm sorry I don't want to rip your hand Out of mine We're meant to be Attached to the hip Like we always were I'm sorry I understand If you don't want to be seen With the crazy girl With scarred arms I know All i can say is i'm sorry
Wasting away Bruised and broken Lost and scared Please save me Before i completely Lose myself In a dangerous obsession With skinny Please help me I'm really scare I don't want to lose this But i know if i keep going I will be among the living dead Please help me Before i waste away
Hunger strikes You're high as a kite My drug is ED The blade is slicing through my skin Empty plate So much more Comforting like no other Leave us alone We're just fine Leave us alone
Your warm embrace Words wrapped up in a blanket Trying to not let them enter the world Secrets and lies That's me She doesn't mean it This isn't her Trust me She's not this kind of girl
Scars, my demons and emotions in a pool of blood on my wrist. So comforting, so soothing i don't know how to explain it Nothing matters except physical pain that's why easier to deal with than emotional pain Lost in the comfort of blood and burning cuts. It's never enough, never enough.
Want to cut Want to feel So much for trying My demons Can't be trapped any longer They need to play But don't worry They always come back When they're hungry for the blade
I wish i could do what you wish I really do I'm desperately sorry I can't help it Leave me alone ED's in control This isn't your little girl It's ED who has ****** me in Never letting go Go away
No one understands What is happening to me? Help me I'm all alone I can't do this on my own I'm scared I don't want to die I don't know how long I can't carry on with ED Taking over my body They will find out Soon enough He will show himself