Love you baby Laying by the pool My hands in his Sharing a drink Smiling and laughing Don't want this to end Let's stay frozen in time So you never suddenly Realize that you don't want to be with me
One, two, three Hold my breath Slice my skin One, two, three, four Blood pooling on the floor Starting to sting Starting to feel my emotions On my skin Lost in a cut Lost in blood Moment of calm Before the storm
Blood, pooling on my skin The moment of numbness The moment where you feel broken The one and only thing that can repair you And bring you back to life again Is a razor
I never want you to feel Like i don't love And care for you I love you And want you all to know This isn't me A demon has taken me away And refuses to set me free I'm sorry I might not physically show it But i love you with all my heart
Part of me Is broken beyond repair No repairing The damage That has already begun Part of me is hidden Where my demons Tip toe and whisper When i'm alone They pounce Just a matter of time
Young girl Bright eyes Cheerful smile Crumbs of chocolate On the corners of her lips No worries No cares Dreaming of the days ahead Anyone could get into my world Nothing to hide Full grace Nothing could take away Her high of life e
Lost in a quiet moment I lay there with darkness All around me Ana's grip is just too strong I cant seem to make Her strong grip disappear She seeps through my veins Like poisin Sooner or later She will send me to my grave
Nobody ever stays Which is understandable I'm too much Too crazy Too much in every which way I don't know what to say I'm sorry I don't want to rip your hand Out of mine We're meant to be Attached to the hip Like we always were I'm sorry I understand If you don't want to be seen With the crazy girl With scarred arms I know All i can say is i'm sorry
All alone People have left me Faster than i could speak I'm scared I'll never find someone like you So far no luck Please remember me As much as i will remember you
I didn't mean for this to happen I hope you know I didn't mean to hurt anyone Lost in my own mind All i want Is for people to understand For my mind to stop spinning With destructive thoughts Day in and day out I love you both I hope you know
Faces light up Filled with delight As they see me genuinely happy and not numb to my emotions and they see me as a happy girl When i'm actually living Not just surviving
Confusing brain i live in I can't explain I need your help To help me understand Scared of myself Evil self Angel who is a blessing of a soul Somehow my evil self takes over My angel soul Is nowhere to be found
Razor crying out for blood Comfort, like the comfort of a baby blanket Tears roll down her emaciated cheeks Turning to her razor She has no friends left
Wasting away Bruised and broken Lost and scared Please save me Before i completely Lose myself In a dangerous obsession With skinny Please help me I'm really scare I don't want to lose this But i know if i keep going I will be among the living dead Please help me Before i waste away
Love Love is like a sweet flower ******* locked together Together now But not forever Love is sweet Love is kind Love a unique emotion We often long to find
Teenage girl High off a blade High off emptiness Scarred arms Bruised soul Fake smile Dull eyes Drool comes down her face From the food her mom is making "Too many calories, i'm chubby enough" She says Dreaming of an easier day Unexpected life A mirror A scale That doesn't matter anymore Her secret world Is hers alone No one's allowed in Only if they want to get poisoned By her demons And become on of her Nothing can take her high off the blade Off a growling stomach No one can stop her So don't even try
It's not that bad, you say You have no idea what i endure Every day in my own mind Tidal waves pulling me under I could be totally lost at sea You would never know Because i'm not physically deteriorating But i was mentally gone So long ago It's amazing what you can hide Just by putting on a smile Pretty soon My physical body Will catch up just wait and see Now they're on their way To the last part that makes me human Uh, oh to late she's dead "We had no idea" they said You could have saved her You were too naive to see Demons always start at the mind Then send more Draining the life Flooding with poison Life is a lesson A mental illness doesn't have to be physical
Love will remember When we promised each other We'd never leave Attached to the hip Hands locked Hearts unbroken Now everything's changed I never thought one day I would call you a stranger Big mistake Should've known Not everyone says They always leave Before i get to say I love you
No one understands What is happening to me? Help me I'm all alone I can't do this on my own I'm scared I don't want to die I don't know how long I can't carry on with ED Taking over my body They will find out Soon enough He will show himself
Your warm embrace Words wrapped up in a blanket Trying to not let them enter the world Secrets and lies That's me She doesn't mean it This isn't her Trust me She's not this kind of girl
I wish i could do what you wish I really do I'm desperately sorry I can't help it Leave me alone ED's in control This isn't your little girl It's ED who has ****** me in Never letting go Go away
Hunger strikes You're high as a kite My drug is ED The blade is slicing through my skin Empty plate So much more Comforting like no other Leave us alone We're just fine Leave us alone
Want to cut Want to feel So much for trying My demons Can't be trapped any longer They need to play But don't worry They always come back When they're hungry for the blade
Scars, my demons and emotions in a pool of blood on my wrist. So comforting, so soothing i don't know how to explain it Nothing matters except physical pain that's why easier to deal with than emotional pain Lost in the comfort of blood and burning cuts. It's never enough, never enough.
This is now The first step To the hardest thing I've ever gone through Now here i am Emotions stuffed down As far as they could be Numb from the world Except for food and the blade This is the first step To opening those wounds To begin this thing Called recovery A scary realization The only person that can save me Is myself I've been running from myself For so long Now it's time To let go And give my troubles and anxieties To my grandfather up in the sky He's the higher power That can tell me It will all be okay