Hands shake
Tears come
When i think of you
You're evil
Go to hell
Before you ruin
Someone else's
Innocent soul

I experience you
On and off
What do you want?
You won't fulfill
Get out
You will never get away
With your sick games

Friendships
We fight
We cry
We laugh
We joke
My friends
Are my angels
Sent down from heaven

My body against his
Need to know
Someone loves me
Tell me you love me

Get away
Evil presence
You are despicable
Despicable human being
Terrible thing you did
You will never be forgiven

Heavy hands
Choking me
Telling me not to speak
Hands wrapped up
Can't move
Can't speak
Locked in a room
Where i'm stuck
With my thoughts

Lost in a cage
So dark
I'm a lioness
Fighting to be set free
She needs a lion
To keep her calm

Weightless
As a feather
Empty
Weightless
Everyone afraid
I will fly away
Weightless
Is what i crave
With my heart
As hollow
As my bones

I will love you
Like i'm not insecure
Like i've never been hurt
I will love you
When things are down
When we kiss
Each other's soft lips
Kids playing in the pool
Love you baby
Like i've never heard goodbye

I don't know how
I'll possibly get over you
You were my solid rock
When others
Already crumbled
Scared i will never find
Solidity
Once again
I will never forget you
Even when i didn't
Get to see your lifeless body
I saw your soul shine through
I will never get over you

Over you
You don't even cross my mind
Anymore
I hate you
You will never be forgiven
I'm over you

Catch me
With your lovely hands
Eyes locked
With your comforting soul
Catch me
When i need saving

Catch me
Before i fall
Plummeting
Towards the darkness
I don't want to go
Please just catch me

Immortal
As could be
Stuck in my mind
Lost in the afterlife
Stuck in the immortal

Demi Lovato
So amazing
She's my baby
She's a warrior
She keeps me strong

Summer
Summer is laying by the pool
Hanging out with friends
Summer
Escaping from the hell
Called school

Hunger strikes
You're high as a kite
My drug is ED
The blade is slicing through my skin
Empty plate
So much more
Comforting like no other
Leave us alone
We're just fine
Leave us alone

My secrets are spun tight
My lies are deep as mud
You don't want to know
I'm to secretive
To ever let you
Step into my porcelain frame

Stuck in this limbo
Can't get out
I'm your marionette puppet
Controlled by your evil hands
Can't get away
Try to rip a way from you
You just grip harder and harder

People think they know me
Do you know about
My abuse, friendships, life
ED, cutting, Aspergers
Depression and anxiety?
No, don't you dare judge me
You don't know my story

Tired eyes
Weak hair
Ghost girl
Walking around

The numbers
Numbers in my head
Controlling my every move
Calories, calories
Daunting
Can't stop this
Pounding, pounding
In my head

Karma's a *****
Such a terrible, evil, despicable
Human being

***** this evil soul
That is me
Disappointment
To everyone
Unloved
Unappreciated
Please help me
I'm done with my own evil soul
Don't want to be the monster
That everyone hates

I'm not worthy of love
Scared to live
Drowning into the abyss
Being held down
Can't find my way
Back up

Want to feel numb
Don't want to feel pain
Need to cut
Need to feel nothing
So scared, so scared
Help me blade
I can count on you
When the others are far away

Feeling like a zombie
Moaning for the day ahead
I'm a zombie
People terrified of me
I don't want to be a zombie

Dizzy head
Confused heart
Don't know what to do
I want to be normal
Is that too much to ask?

One, two, three
Hold my breath
Slice my skin
One, two, three, four
Blood pooling on the floor
Starting to sting
Starting to feel my emotions
On my skin
Lost in a cut
Lost in blood
Moment of calm
Before the storm

Frustrated and scared
Slowly losing my way
Lost in the darkness
Scared of the future
Terrified of the future

People trapped in boxes
Others free from turmoil
Some of us aren't so lucky
Drowning in turmoil
Day after day
Annoyed at life
Hate life
Nothing worth
The time of day
Day in and out
Food
Day in and out
Darkness surrounding
Like the grim reaper
Hate myself with deep passion
Go away
I'm not worth your time

Don't speak
Don't say one word
I realize i'm not good enough
Don't speak
You know nothing about me

******* *******
I know i'm not good
I realize i'm not like the others
I'm sorry
I wish i was too

Please go away
I'm toxic
Please go away

Words bolted down
Life ******* down
Like Jesus on the cross
Except this body is meant to die
She wasn't supposed to be here

You are a dead to me
You dumb, naive soul
You don't know me
I see through you like glass
I'm made of steel
You can't get in

Like i said many times before
I'm done
Everyone acts like they know me
It turns out
They know absolutely nothing

People telling me
Day after day
Stop this
Stop that
Shut up you're not worthy
I'm sorry
I'll just shut the **** up
I try with my whole being
To think i'm worthy of love
I was wrong
**** it, I'm done

Feeling numb
From a cut
So amazing
Comforting blade
Keeps me alive
When i feel like dying

Why would you want to leave?
I'm bleeding
I'm breaking
You slowly fading memories
I want you to stay
Where i'm safe with you

Flashbacks
Feel like
A thousand needles in my heart
Lost all communication
Thousand needles *******
My dark world
Relived
Feels like a thousand needles
In my heart

Can't believe it's true
Thought nothing could break us
I was sadly mistaken
Attached to the hip
Now couldn't be further apart

If you say so
You say i'm beautiful
If you say so
Not attractive
In the means of destruction
If you say so

Lovely man
Softly kisses my lips
You say
"It'll be okay baby, i love you"

Please stop
Lost in a destructive world
Digging myself a hole
Please stop
You shouldn't worry
About a useless soul like me

Love soft
Love kind
Hate love
Sweet love
Love is complicated
Very hard to find
Even more difficult to keep

Society loves
Society hates
Society labels
Society needs to change
It's up to me to change

I don't even know
What i'm supposed to do
What i'm supposed to think
What i'm supposed to say
I don't even know

Love you baby
Laying by the pool
My hands in his
Sharing a drink
Smiling and laughing
Don't want this to end
Let's stay frozen in time
So you never suddenly
Realize that you don't want to be with me

I would've died for us
You realize
I would've jumped off a cliff for us
Spoke too late
Now you're gone