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Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
This is me
As raw as i can be
Feeling like a zombie day after day
Not eating
Waiting for the number to change
Stuck in my false reality
That i will ever be pretty
Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
I'm used to my life
Fighting to keep friendships alive
Why can't i just be normal
Ana is my only friend
Who keeps me in line
A person in my head
Is my only friend
Totally lost my mind
To what i seek
I want to have friends
That stay
Like everyone else
Why is it so hard?
I don't understand
Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
I've succumbed to this image
In my head
Someone more beautiful
More popular
That i will ever be
Jealous of my brother
Outgoing and fun
Everyone says i'm shy
And quiet, I'm sorry
I know all of you want me
To resemble his friendly personality
I just wish to be him
With no problems keeping friends
I'm sorry
I'm not like him
Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
Lost in a society's version of beauty
I'm sorry i'm not beautiful
I feel terrible for not living up
To anyone's expectations
I'm not deserving of love
No one stays here
With me
They always leave
I don't understand
Leave me alone
I'm meant to be alone
Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
Where do i go from here?
Everyone seems to wonder
What their next destination
Will turn out to be
Destinations are unplanned
They're many people who fear
Their unexpected destination
Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
Searching for a higher power
Seems to be what we all seek
Nothing compares
To everlasting love
As long as we try
We will be saved
Murphy Lynne Sep 2014
You can feel the heaviness
On your chest
Feeling like you can hardly breathe
To what overcomes you
When you realized you skipped
Another meal
It's a normal thing nowadays
Wake up, foods there
Go to bed have nightmares
About slowly letting go of the control you have
Having a little bit more of something
That once had been forbidden
You can feel the pain when you starve yourself
That's why some people like it
Inflicting pain on yourself
Is much much easier
Than anyone or anything
It gives you the power to say no
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