We feel numb to the things we see Over and over again I'm numb to the feeling of comfort Destruction is comforting Therefore I'm numb to the fact That this could very well take me The only thing that comes to mind Is a strong desire to comfort So used to numbing my emotions By bones and a scale That seems to be with me The moment i can open my eyes And see the sunlight through My bedroom window The lingering thought In the back of my mind I cannot be like this forever I will soon discover what it's like To take the wool off my eyes With my eyes open To learn to be content With living happy and healthy Soon figuring out That i no longer Need a reason to numb The thing i thought was horrifying Happens to be the thing That unlocks the change From a life praying for my last breath My last sentence would be "At least i'm finally skinny"
I guess everything isn't what it seems No one knows what it's like To live with a monster in your head Screaming, shouting, crying To escape the demons in my head Stuck in the mindset That everything isn't what it seems
We all love the term starting over Seems to be what we all crave What will happen next to everything else? Everything we created is all lost Why would we want to start over? Our mistakes teach us What it means to grow Into a more wiser human being Starting over Erases all your hard work In trying to survive life
I wonder What will happen next? Walking on eggshells To my next destination Constantly wonder What will happen Fear and constant wonder To experiment with It will all be okay As long as we don't fear wonder Into our minds Everything will all be okay
Sometimes life is unfair Heartbreaking And some days you just want to hide But the most rewarding part About life Is through all the hurt and pain You finally rediscover yourself And look back on your past life And say i made it