They ask me what my dying words will be , they
ask me what will my biggest regret be on my
death bed, what my death wish will be , they ask me all these questions of
death yet I'm alive .
But death comes just as swift as the wind , just as fast as the waves on the shore , death has no
time limit like us.
They say before you die your life flashes right
before your eyes , all your regrets , all your
dreams everything layed out like a red carpet.
If I die tomorrow , or if I die today , whenever I die I know I will see you.
I will see your beauty
I will hear your laugh as seldom as I did hear it
I will see your eyes
But most of all I'll see your smile
The one thing that always held me now in your absence.
On cold dark nights you would hold me tight ,
you would smile and say "its okay I'm here" , on
rainy days where thunder and lightening took
over the sky you smiled and said "its okay I'm
here" through every up and down you held me and smiled , holding the pain , fear , the sorrow
away from me.
If dying tomorrow means seeing your smile
again then I shall gladly die everyday
If dying tomorrow means seeing you again I
shall gladly go towards it If dying means being with you in my memories
then its not dying to me its living everyday for
aslong as I remember you.
If I could go back I would hold you every time
you said " it's okay I'm here" and tell you how
much I love you If I could go back I would tell you more often
than I did how much I love you
If I could go back I'd spend everyday-
every minute of everyday and night making you
smile.
Our time together had an expiration date but my love for you never did and never will. My awnser
to their question of death are
My biggest regret will be you not at my side
My dying wish will be to see you , and see you
smile again
my dying words will be your name.
If I die tomorrow before my soul departs from this world I will come find you and hold you one
final time.
I just wish and pray that someday you come
back and smile at me so you can make me whole
again.

You and I were meant to be
We were the stars shinning brightest in the nights sky
We were the light in each others eyes keeping darkness away
We were each others hope when there wasn't hope anymore.
We were destined to be together
We were faiths favourite
Where did we go wrong ?
Where did I go wrong ?
We've reached our end
Our ******
Our not so happy ending
Because where we are now there is no going back
My heart is dead and yours belongs to another
For a time I believed in love I believed in a life with you at my side now I only see my side
For a time I was warm in the winter now I live with the cold
For a time I felt the future was bright and now ...
And now I don't know , I promised , I lied , I cheated , you cried , you promised , you lied , you cheated I cried
Same story different meanings , different lies I never cheated I never lied I promised but I can't cry
You broke what ever love was left in my heart , you took whatever light I held in the dark , you opened pandoras box in my soul and whatever darkness was in there consumed me whole and when it was done you ate my hope the last bit left in the depth of my pandoras box.

There may have been a time I was soft
There may have been a time I cared
But that time is over.
You say if I don't start caring again I'm going to loose you
They say if I don't start feeling again their going to leave
But no one sees
No one sees that I do care just not in the open anymore
No one sees that I do feel just not as easily as before
Not many know that to fix a broken heart you have to mend it with iron but iron melts , so I tried aluminium
But its shiny appearance attracts to many theives, so I tried steel but its weak ability left me open than I remembered what I was once told , what the hardest metal can hold so I covered my heart with titanium.
Once you've been hurt by love its hard going back, and once your trust in love has been broken its hard to trust it again , I was once forced to play a game where I lost everything and a man who lost everything has nothing left to loose so leave or stay but my attitude will remain and my Titanium heart will never again feel all that pain of love.

Time no longer has value
It once took hours to do what merely takes seconds
It once stopped for the lovers who first met now let's them walk right past each other.
I can't help ease my heart from the question you fear to ask.
The question your heart holds but eyes ask,
The question I wish I could truly awnser .
"How long will you love me?"
I can't give an exsact date or time if any .
But I know this for as long as there's a beat in my heart I will love you,
As long as there's fish in the water I'll keep coming back to you
As long there's life on this earth I'll protect you
As long as there's life in me I'll always be by you
I can't gurantee any of this but I can promise that for as long as you and I are together I'll always , always love you

I'm tired of this monotonous ritual I've been performing.
I'm tired of this cold feeling I've been holding.
I'm tired of missing you.
People say time heals , its been so long and this pain , this lonely pain of you being gone for so long has eaten every part of my hope , its become my cancer , you've become my cancer.
Just as the lyrics from music runs through our minds so does all your truthful lies.
And like a beacon one part of our love stands out the part with all your promises full of lies.
I can't pretend I'm okay any longer
I can't pretend I'm not sick
Because I'm sick , I'm sick of you , I'm sick of missing you , I'm sick of silently screaming for you to come back , I'm sick of not wanting to love anyone else.
The day you left was the day I died , the day you left was the day the world lost me. The day I become sick the day love , hope , faith and trust all broke like the ties and bridges we made together.

In a world where every day is a battlefield
In a world where every night is covert mission
In a world where every wound is a battle scar
In a world where weeks are years of torture
In a world where bombs and missiles are the nights stars
In a world where there is no hope I hold on to you , to the fight for you , to the hope of seeing you again, in a world where everything is going to end I have no attachments , I have no weaknesses I have no hopes or dreams but in a world where you and I exist I have only one weakness, one reason to fight and one reason to change the smoke to clouds , the bullets to flowers the pain to hope I have only one reason to keep going . I have only you to keep fighting for.

Looking back at what we had
I close my eyes and look away,
I look away from the memories we made,
I look away from the pain you made.
And then I start to remember when we spoke for hours into the morning light.
When you cried and I broke.
I remember it all.
But I'm ashamed to remember our love , cause I'm just one on the list , not a special one or a meaningful one just another one on the list.
And the pain comes back reminding me after you left you watched me fall apart and did nothing to help , but then again how can you help something you caused.
After everything we've been through I'm ashamed to say I was a fool to love you.
Cause in the end I broke apart falling to pieces hitting the ground and you walked away yet when you fell apart I picked you up , I stood above you when it rained on you, I held you when the world got cold, I I carried you when you gave up hope, I brought the light when darkness to over your might , I'm most ashamed to say I gave you all the love I had and more and you took me for all I got and ran along.

Forget what you know.
Forget about the saying:
"If they love you , they won't only share the good times with you"
Love , true love is not a feeling or an emotion its a power , the only supernatural thing that we have physical proof of.
If they love you and if you want to know that they truly love you
Then they will fight with you,
They will get annoyed with you
They look at you speaking to others and smile and say she's mine
They won't just stand by you in tough times , they'll break the tough times ,
They won't enjoy the good times they'll make the good times
When the love is true they'll flirt with other girls but infront of you,
When the love is true they'll speak to other girls about you,
When the love is true they won't break down your enemies they'll make them your friends.
When the love is true they won't stand and wipe your tears away they'll stand and cry next to you.
When the love is true and someone hurts you they'll end up in jail only for you.
When the love is true there is no addiction or drug or pleasure to strong to give up for you.
There is no true defenition of love or true love but when the love is true they'll tell you everyday I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you Monotonously telling you I'm going to marry you.

If I have to use an hourglass to measure how long it will take for you to come back the clear crystal glass will be kept warm with a blanket of dust covering it for centuries.
I am that hourglass , going back and forth watching the grains fall hour after hour and with each hour that passes so does my hope of you returning.
I ponder on the concept of you coming back and us being what we once were , but trust and and faith are like glass once its broken picking up the pieces is as good as self harm.
An hour glass is shaped like an infinity sign but our infinity broke when you walked out.
I do love you , that is no lie , I do miss you that is the truth, but I cannot be with you as I once was and that is the sorrowful part. If our love was an hourglass I would turn back the sands and stop you , I would come after you or maybe I'd stop myself from loving you but our love is not an hourglass meant to run on forever instead its a sundial when dusk came our love ended and when dawn came a new time began for me and you -my yesterday become history.

This is not a peom
But a story
A story of me and you
And all of us
Sitting up at night
Wondering why
Why me ?
Why ,what did I do ?
This is for the brave ones
Who defy rules and boundaries
Who break barriers
And create new limits to be broken.
This is our stories , the late nights crying , the moments of walking alone in the rain and any other '******' day life has thrown to us.
This is for all of us who've made it when they said quit now,
For those who said I can
And for those who fell while pushing back up.
This is a story of how we all are going to make it and of how we're not going to fail at it.

They say the eyes are the windows to the soul, but in your case that's a lie.
When I look into your eyes I don't just see a soul I find our wonderland,
I see endless possibilities ,
I see endless opportunities
But most of all I find an endless amount of love.
Hidden deep withing your eyes is the secrets of the universe , the hope of a hundred suffering souls,
Withing the endless ocean of beauty you conceal a single truth , a whisper of love I do see but the single truth you conceal is hidden even from me and that is where you hide our endless wonder.

At the stroke of midnight she cries.
Her cries are not heard ,
Her cries are loudly silent,
The pain creeps into her soul burning her from within,
She breaks slowly inside
She dies slowly inside
She feels alone tonight.
She reaches for death's hands in hope to find salvation ,
I watch her
I scream for her to stop
My scream is loudly silent,
She cuts the last bit of hope away.
I stop her but to little to late I fail to save the hope she sacrificed to find relief in a world of torture.

One too many we make,
One too many we are given
One too many happen by accident,
But all make you stronger.
A scar is not just a scar it's a sign of survival.
A sign life broke you
Cut you
Tore you apart
But you kept fighting.
Honour your scars because one day we shall look back and remember the tough times
The lonely nights
The cold moments
And we will smile a smile brighter than any smile cause we made it.
Hold your scar proudly as if its an emblem , a coat of arms , a flag for you are a warrior , a soldier , a titan who's fighting to survive in a world of death.

A white sky haunts me
As the clouds cry a sorrowful
Moment of unkind tears.
Tears that hold a burden for every soul that look's up at the sky and confesses all their sorrows.
I to am one of many who burden the sky ,
With one constant question
"Why?"
"Why not now?"
"Why not soon?"
All the 'why's' but none of the awnsers.
People keep their secrets -
In a box,
In a book,
In a person,
Or
In their hearts,
But I keep my secrets in a place I know is safe, a place no soul will hear it , a place no person will learn it , a place only I hold the key too. A place up in the clouds.
But the biggest secret I hold is the anticipation of waiting for the day I find her along with all my awnsers , the who I question about , the ghost who haunts my dreams the one who will change the world I dreadfully live in.

When I close my eyes I see a glass box.
A box with a single moment
A moment when the world will gasp
A moment when a sleeping heart wakes.
The moment when we finally meet
A moment when all the missing pieces of the puzzle we call our lives finally come out and finish our 100 000 piece puzzle.
And all the memories we will make appear in that single glass box.
Where we will stand and meet for the first time.
In that glass box is all the faith I have
And as hard as it is
I still hope with no hope
I still try with no strenght
I still push forward when everything is pushing me back.
All because of that one single moment held in that glass box.

Sometimes a heart will forget not to care
Sometimes a heart is to weak not to care
And that is why a heart will always break.
A heart can be broken
A heart can be torn apart
A heart can be put through hell
But a heart will always love , that is it's purpose -to love because when we love we are alive
But when we stop loving even the worst of things to love such as money or the small beautiful moments such as sunsets and sunrises on the beach
Then a heart is no longer it becomes just another *****.
As fragile as it is a heart will never stop loving and the day you stop loving is the day you let the world **** it.
Our duty is to protect our hearts because every time we let it get hurt or break it moves closer to dying.

I  wonder why I still morn the loss of you my great love for it seams like forever ago we were together.
The sweet silent words you once spoke now haunts these empty hallways of my mind and yet-
All I see , hear and feel is you and when the wind blows at night and I scream with all my might I hear the silent whisper of our love falling apart and I'm reminded by the drops of rain falling down my face that now forever is over.

Loving again almost seams impossible now.
But yet I still bow down to your feet begging for your mercy
Asking you not to hurt me.
Then I wake up and a feeling of bitter coldness passes through me and I think back to a time when we still tried and then just the thought of love is a painful reminder
Everything that once belonged to me now belongs to another.

Loving you has broken me apart
All I need is one hug to get myself back together.
I can't feel the warmth of life since you left all I need is one hug from you to find the sun that once inside me.
These lonely nights are sleepless and lonely all I need is one more hug , just one more hug and I promise to sleep for all eternity or at least till the end of my eternity.
I just need that moment when your heart beats along with mine and the worlds stops and all light turns to us. I say again all I need is one last hug and I'll let you go , just one more hug , one more time to call you mine that's all I ask for one more hug in one more night.

Hold onto me through the night,
So that I may feel your heart beat with mine,
So that I feel the warmth of your arms once more ,
So that I may see the light of dawn once more,
For when dawn breaks so will this hold we've shared through the night.
I shall have to leave once more just as the night
And
What was merely hours of holding you through the night felt like years - 10 or 20 I seam to have lost track of time but
I will forever cherish these moments we've shared through this night and this night : this night will forever be not the worlds night but forever more so our night.

Our promises were like glass
  So fragile that the slightest touch would break them.
I over looked all the signs of betrayel and held on to the foolish hope that was soon to set sail with you.
You lied and told me the four letter word we both used one to many times.
     At the height of all the lies
    You told me you'd choose me over any and everything grabbed my hand and said we'd fight odds.        and ends to be togther, but when it came down to it you choose the odds over me and we came to the end and all our promises broke like the fragile heart you once clothed with your warm love and affection.

To many wishes do I hold dear and to little not so soon do they come true, but from all the wishes I have only a few do I so  yearn for to come true.
I wish there was more time in a day to spend with you.
I wish there was more stars in the night sky so that I may count them all with you.
I wish that there were more flowers of all kinds in the world so that I may give them all to you.
I wish the world knew what it felt like to love you and only you.
I wish for so much more-for you but none can compare to wishing to love you till the day I leave behind this life I've spent with you.

to love with a love beyond comparison
is to love with a love a love unseen before
hold dear those who hold your heart dear
keep fear of the ones who seam unclear
a heart was built to love with love not to break like the promises one makes.

pain a funny feeling that one cannot contain
it comes at the moment you decide you're okay
the moment you begin healing
then all you can do is have the pain of concealing.
loving you has taken away my sight as well as my might
i tried to be who you want , but in the end you're leaving.
but i'm not done i refuse to morn you my love.
as much as you meant to me somethings are just not meant to be.
now i must set you free like a dove in the winter breeze
we shall meet again in our next life and every life follows you belong to me.

I love you silently
I mourn you quietly
I cry for you internally
I miss you abundantly
I look back at us constantly
I feel my love for you grow eternally
I ponder of you daily
What we were to what we are is unexplainable , what we had is indescribable
But in the end it’s only a memory I live with.

Everyday walking through the streets seeing people , couples , families , friends and non as lonely as I , I see them but they don't see me. I walk these streets alone , no one to hold my hand or to say 'it's going to be okay' , I walk a lonely road I sometimes delude myself into thinking I'm love by someone , but then she just proves me to be right I am alone. This lonely feeling slowly kills me inside , I think a bucket of acid would be less painful. My solitude isn't a curse or a gift , its a punishment for crimes I did not commit. How I yearn for the feeling of someone holding me , someone loving me , someone wanting me in their life , the unwanted feeling of wanting to be apart of someone's life or at least noticed. They say if you can't be happy alone then how can you be happy with someone else , but they don't know the feeling of being alone your entire life. This is my life , a never ending lonely road , with no hope for love , no hope for friendship , no hope for a life beyond the four corners of a house I'm bound to live in alone. This is my life the life of a lonely man.

They say the coldest feeling in the world is jumping into a frozen river in the depths of winter. I've held on to you for to long and I still feel the same but now maybe I should let you go , but that would mean loosing apart of myself that once made me gold.  Why can't you hear my call , why are you walking with you back facing me , makes me feel like I'm never going to see you again. Makes me wonder what I actually meant to you , cause you make it so easy for me to see how u can let go of me. Knowing all this still my heart beats your name , I tell myself I don't love you but my heart reassures me I do. The coldest feeling in the world is loving someone who doesn't love you back. I can ask you for love but what the point love not given freely is sign it doesn't want to  be given. I can say I wasted time on u but we both know that time was never wasted. Guess I'm a sucker for love , a victim of an unpunished crime. But still the beat from my heart spell your name. The bitter coldness you've left me with is incomparable , its indescribable but weirdly its satisfying knowing the pain and confusion is from you.

Everyday I wake up to the cold feeling of a cloudy sky , its been like this since you left, I dread the feeling of my feet reaching for the cold floor , there's no warmth , no light ,this place is nothing but an empty box filled with memories of you and I , every tear that drops is a crack in my heart, all I see is the moment you left , the pain in your eyes and the curse of a love so strong but yet so fragile , every moment I spend thinking of you makes me want to run as far away from my own thoughts , but the voice of pain won't let me shut it out. I beg myself not to give up , I make a promise that you'll come back but maybe our love story was a sonnet short and sweet. Maybe our love stories not over , maybe you'll fight for me , but enough maybes , I beg you come back , I plead with you come home , let's fix our castle with broken walls , we never crumble and fall apart , our walls only collapsed. I cannot live without you , I cannot breathe my own air as long as your not around , I fear myself more then I fear what's hidden in the dark, but then again you are my light in the dark.

I love you, but I'm afraid of loving you , I feel like I'm doomed to a history bound to repeat itself , a path of pain I never chose to walk on. You say words but how do I believe you how do I believe what you don't show , how do I know loving you won't be the same as putting a bullet through me. I don't know why but I can't stop loving you , I can't get through my doubt and pain grows like an infection. But sadly all I see is loving you might be the end of me

Days go by but I still stand there slowly walking through the lonely streets of this dead city now that your gone there's no more plan.
I once woke up to sight of you in my arms now I wake up from dreams when there was a time you were in my arms
Your laugh haunts the halls of this.  house where we once shared a love for the ages.
What happened to us I'll never know , where you drifted to I'll never find and why you ran I'll never understand.
I guess all I can say now is
I miss you
I miss you like the waves miss the moon
I miss you like a sun flower misses the sun in the icy depths of winter
I miss you like the lonely sailor misses his home.
I can use all the descriptions in the world but they will all mean the same I miss you.
Everyday I miss you I sink deeper and deeper soon will I reach the sea bed , a place where there's no need for words or explanations.
I dream of the day you come back but then again its just a dream.
Along with you is my light my hope my will and my love for you are my life and I miss you, cause your the one that I want the one that I need the one that I have to have just to succeed , when I saw you that first time I knew it was destiny , I remember when I first held in my arms and I knew it was real now where's all those days gone just disappeared like a dream , every night is a dream and everyday is a nightmare. I need you and I miss you and I love you and I really need to hold because my souls falling apart come back baby let's fix our world and stop this apocalypse and keep our paradise forever.

Every morning I wake up and stare in the mirror wondering why you are only in my dreams and not my reality. I know your real , even in my dreams as our fingers combine forming a bond unbreakable by man it feels so real as you whisper in my ears 'never let me go' as your arms reach our around me . Why are you stuck there , in that limbo of my fantasies I'll never know. Every morning waking up and remembering that it was just a dream ment to keep me warm through the night , the memories of a dream that felt so real breaks me.  To you my lost love I say I'm here waiting for the day our hands clash and our great bond and never ending love starts and for me to hear the words'never let me go'.

I followed the path of light I went straight through hell and watched the demons rip off my flesh and drain my blood ,I dug up back to earth only to swim in a pool of blood shed by the greedy merciless hungry politicians , children lay dead, bodies soulless and eyes filled with more pain then a bullet in a gun , when I awoke to this when I saw this I missed hell for there even there in the fiery pit of hell there's mercy to the wicked of wicked to the sinners of sinners but here on earth men are worst then the devil himself , even he fears what man has become, we fear monsters under our beds and in the dark , but the truth is we fear the monsters in the mirror for that reflection the true monsters monsters are showen

You've been here before, not once, not twice  ,Yes it got harder then it was , yes the load got heavier  And those people who said they'd never leave , just disappeared  But your not weak , you say your not a fool  yet you keep looking back and holding on to those who left , holding on to what was instead of what will be. Life was designed to break you , tough times where designed to teach you , but only you alone can make 'you' ,empires grew and fall , skyscrapers were built and broken down ,so what goes up must come down.It will rain for a month but the sun will always rise  hope is always in reach all you have to do is grab it or die trying, its time to do or die because tough times dont last tough people do so keep the faith and fight on for success.

It's the opposite of light , a dark place only some will enjoy.
it comes with its name it comes with the night.
I prefer the darkness over light ,
why you ask ?
It doesn't lie , it doesn't feed false hopes , it tells the truth ,
in it we find secrets , we find demons and ghosts, fear brings out the truth.
just as life is a big illusion so is light , they say light is at the end of the tunnel , but we walk for years with no luck , I for one think its time to best embrace the ****.
Accept the darkness and forget the light and suddenly your path will open up in plan sight , seak the truth and you will find no light but insted a darkness so true so bright it will become your guiding light.

Hope in my reach yet not in an arms distance
Day after day the load gets heavier and heavier
as it becomes more and more difficult to continue
as the will to go on starts to slowly diminish
I look for a light but all I see is a pitch black ,
void filled with pain and sorrow ,  
The demons trip me and push me over as all the weight falls onto me , I slowly give up ,I slowly stop wanting to go.
I lay there , hope hanging by a thread , boulders crushing my spine suddenly all hope is lost , all strength is gone and my struggle to get up and continue begins

is this love worth it ,
is it worth the effort will it last or will it end
the same way the others did
, so much confusion so much doubt
so much love yet so little trust ,
is this the meaning of love to be
hurt and to love again with the fear of being hurt again
what is this
why is it so hard to know whether she loves truly or whether she
loves falsely
whether her love is honest and real or another game
im yet to play.

we build a life holding on to others opinions and ideas of us ,
how they see us and want us to be , what they don't like we change
what they want we keep.

How long are we going to live on their beliefs , their ideas and live the life of another.

what I see is people who live to follow and not to create their own path

the most important thing is when you wake up and look in the mirror who you see is and what you think if them is the most important opinion in life no one elses

we build a life holding on to others opinions and ideas of us ,
how they see us and want us to be , what they don't like we change
what they want we keep.

How long are we going to live on their beliefs , their ideas and live the life of another.

what I see is people who live to follow and not to create their own path

the most important thing is when you wake up and look in the mirror who you see is and what you think if them is the most important opinion in life no one elses

when I look up at the moon I cant contain the ability to smile , because when I look at it I realise how dark the night is , how cold it gets and in all that darkness theres but a single light.

times are hard now , we start finding that people who once made us feel special now insult us and bring us down.

We find ourselves sleeping away into an empty , lonely abyss  never to find someone to pull us out of it , and we sleep with the thought of being alone forever.

But morning comes and the sun rises chasing away the demons and giving us light and warmth.

we don't need anyone to stand by us , befriend us or be with us because we can make it on our own

Some wish for light in the dark , others wish to get out of the dark , and others embrace the dark,
As for me I dont want light , light fades away
I want someone to grab in the darkness of my life and hold me tight and keep me warm and
love me forever because the darkness is a cold and scary place and all I want is someone to love.

Dont know why I can see it but I do ,
I see it coming from miles and miles away
I know this is the part where the end starts,
I know it I feel it I see it and my heats crying it , its cracking with every day that passes by its breaking knowing that our world will soon meet its end and you'll be gone.
The nights seam colder and more lonely , the days seams sadder and grey but I guess its because I know your love my warmth will soon be gone , when the day comes I'll let you go not because I don't love you but because I do , I'll live ive always lived but my existence is equal death , all I can do now is enjoy the time I have left with you because you love him he was your mistake but now you realise im the mistake. and you miss him and all I can say is go to him.

why do I fear being replaced
why do I feel my place in your heart is outside cause another is there
why do I fear im loosing you
why do you talk 100's of others
am I not good enough , are my words to little or was my life not enough. Im so tired of fearing the morning because you might not be there anymore .
Im tired of you allowing someone else to come between us im tired of you not seeing my pain and torment because your eyes are on another. Why do you have to make this love so complicated

Baby in this evil world the people are merciless and cruel they'll feed on your pain and enjoy it and will keep coming back for more even when you have nothing left to give they'll still come.
Because of that I had to become hard and harsh I had to pull myself together and seal my heart , and then I feared no one , and I was an unstoppable force
then you came and now your my only weakness , your the one thing they can hurt to get to me but if they touch you ,
that will be the last they see of anything because even though you are my weakness your love is my strength , my shield and you are the one person I cant live without , loosing you is the one thing I fear and a future with you is the only reason I fight.

You will always see her face before you feel her heart
You will always want her body before you can love her
You will always look at her as a prize
You will never be hers truly
People will never look at you the way I do
Every morning waking up to the thoughts of you after a night of dreaming of you
Looking at you and seeing the heart that stole mine
Waking up to the sad bliss of missing you.
They ask me what I see in you , they say I deserve better , they think of me as a fool for fighting,
But I know that your heart is gold I know no matter how hard I try ill never deserve you , you'll always deserve better , and ive felt your heart and I know your worth every minute of my fighting your worth my life and more , death is no risk for me because as long as I die proving my love for you I'll die happy.
You deserve better then me but all I can do is be my best for you. I fell in love with that amazing person inside and she has me in more ways then one she has me whole heartedly. These words are cliché but I can say them in a million languages I can write them a 1000  different ways , I can express it in a 100 ways , I can say it 10 times but it will always have 1 meaning and that is I belong to you I love you my baby bear my perfect love

Sometimes I and think of all the little things we had,  of the time we spent together , the kisses we shared , the memories we made and the love we had. Maybe it was our little dance or short song that had to quickly end , but I know that I practice our moves and listen to us sing over and over just to get some closure on the fact your gone and we're done. Maybe it was my ego maybe it me was taking whatever we had for granted but as they say you only when something is gone will you truly understand its value.
Goodbye my love goodbye our memories always remember I love till the day I die

people will always judge you ,
be it on your dressing
be it on your choices
be it on your life
no matter what what it may be people will always judge you, and the thing about judging is that they always expect you to fail and mess up and when you do they act shocked and disappointed but secretly they smiling and laughing saying I knew it and then they spread the news like wild fire, but when you become a success and you do what they didn't think you would they join in your glory and pretend like they always knew you would but secretly they Hating you for proving them wrong

This relationship is like a walk in a desert , feels like I've been walking forever,
feels like the sun got me down
feels like you the hot  unkind sand enjoys my pain
feels like all I am is another just passing by
feels like all you want is to drag me down and watch me lay for waste as I decay and slowly suffer a painful death, but the shame is on me for loving you and not being able to let go guess I love the pain and I guess I give up

Sometimes its a little to much to bare and sometimes its a little to cold and bitter, Why I fell in love with you I'll never understand.
Why I had to be the one to suffer your betrayal and cold one sided love I'll never understand
why I had to be the one to wish for your love I'll never understand
But the thing that bothers me most is why I cant I stop loving you with all the pain you've given me.

We all give up hope and think that fairy tale love only exists in the movies but this time round its different I didn't just find that fairy tale love I found that love that we see in our grand parents when they are 80 years old and still look at each other like they did that first day I know I am not the best looking guy I don't have great skin I have pimples I don't have a perfect body but I have what other guys don't I have the heart to deal with pain n betrayal and still be faithful to one girl I know who I am now because of you and I know whatever I am going to do n become is because of us. No matter what happens I'll always look at u like I did the first time and I will always hold you where I promised and that is the right side of my chest and the reason im alive everyday that's your home and no one can take your place

Why am I waiting for you ?
why am I waiting for you to see my love?
why am I waiting and suffering ?, why do I sit and allow tears holding a thousands words fall in vein ?, why cant you love me the way I love you? , why is it you and those before you found joy im my pain? , is this some game ?, am I the joker of the castle? , is my duty to entertain you and be thrown aside?, why am I waiting for you? , why cant I just let you go and tell you leave?, why are you my weakness? ,why is there no answers to all my questions just empty cold darkness