as I look into the mirror , I see not only my reflection , along with my reflection is my dark side my demon that I will soon loose control of. I'm dying ,my soul is broken along with my heart and the demons patience soon will be paid of when it finally has control. People will soon see the repercussions of their doings to me they will meet the person ive been trying to conceal, the person who follows me in my shadow , the deap dark merciless fool who lives and feasts on the pain of others. I give up on fighting against him , lately it seams his stronger then I am , strong enough to fight the world and dark enough to destroy the people who try to break me.

There are things in this world we will never understand , love , hatred and jealousy is a few examples of those things. I don't understand something and thats why I love you half as much as I do , even though we are apart when I close my eyes and put my hand out it feels as if your holding it. In this crazy world we learn to build up walls some people break it, some never build it and others never let anyone in , you were never ment to come behind my wall but you did and how I have no clue, but since you're here you've become my life. Forgive me my weakness but I cant see you go I wont see you walk away , I'll fight and fight till my last and even when im gone ill still come back and I'll keep coming back till we spend forever together, this heart beats for one and thats you , your my life support my reason to wake up in the morning, when I feel like giving up I close my eyes and think of you and I keep going for you.

As I look up at the moon tonight I just cant but help myself and think of you , times have been tough the roads been bumpy and I lost my love , I once thought I loved someone else but the thing that kept my heart true to you was the three words 8 letters n u can say it in over 40 languages but in our case I say it once and it has more meaning to you then it will ever have on anyone else. You're my guiding light , my guardian angel your not just my companion  your my best friend my everything and you make a world worth living so no matter how many times I. Say it , 1 time 7 times 99 times it doesn't matter because its just words but when you hold me close , or close your eyes and think of me I know it will have more effect because my love for you isn't in the world its in my heart and my soul which ive given up to you along time ago so to you I say I love you

The hardest goodbyes are the ones where we know are needed and the ones we know are real and the last words you'll ever tell that person, we dont want to Say goodbye but we must , we don't know how to tell the person why we are leaving only knowing its for a good cause , but goodbyes are more painful then daggers through the chest coz we know we never gonna see them again and in that moment of departure a tear will fall a tear with words hidden in It words to painful to say and to complicated to understand so we tell them with a tear drop and we walk away with the goodbye of never coming back

The world is a cruel and cold place , its people are worse but I dont blame them for who they are , we become what we must in order to survive.
Years ago if you had asked me who I am , my reply would have been simple but it would have been true,  I'm not who I once was , many version of me are known to the world but the bitter truth of my identity will always be kept safe within my heart locked away from the world.
The world is not ready for me I dont know if it will ever be I dont know if it will ever handle the truth,  the truth of a covered soul. They teach us one lie leads to another and they were right soon you come to a point where you can't go back to the truth.
Years ago I was a child but today , today im a man , the people ive encountered , the love ive lost , the time I've wasted and the pain I've given just as well as felt, have all grown me up. Dream have no longer got a meaning to most for reality is the most trust worthy object people have.
The truth of my identity will never be known , will never be told , will never be shown nor will I tell and thats who I am a man of 100 personalities.

sometimes I wonder
wonder if you care
wonder if your even there
wonder if you miss me and what we once shared now your with him the cold hearted fool who stole that which was mine , but then again how could it have truly been mine when another could swiftly grab it , no matter I have shut the door and thrown you out , just as the river flows , so shall my life . Goodbye means we shall meet again , so I shall not say goodbye but rather give you a silent letting go to the one I once gave up my life for I now let you go and free myself from the curse of this one sided love.