Red the color of blood
Red the color of love
Red the color of hearts
Red the color of roses.
Red
Red
Red
The color of my insanity
The color of our once amazing love
The color of the heart I once gave you
The color of the love I gave you.
Red
The color of the blood that drips as the sharp knife of betrayal you so eagerly pushed through the heart that beats the letters of your name.
The heart that beats red with the love that runs through my veins
The love I have for you.
The love I had for you.
The love I have had for you.
Red
The color of the pill I take just not to see your face where it is not.
Red
The color of the tag that cuffs my hand
Red
The color of the liquid in the syringe that puts me to sleep before my insanity defeats me.

You
I see you
I see you all around
But you make not a sound
You
I see you when I dream
But I do not sleep
You
I see you where you're not supposed to be seen
You .
Your not real
You can't be
I lost you
Your not real
You cant be
Maybe I'm crazy
They told me I am crazy
Am I crazy ?
Why do you come and go
Why are you at every corner
Why are you so real yet vanish into thin air.
No you're not real
You can't be
It's my insanity
It's my insanity it has to be

Voices
Voices all around me
Screaming your name
Screaming my pain
Voices telling me our denied love story
The voices are all over me
They are a gift of my insanity
I should fear them
I should run from them
But they welcome me
They fill my void
They fill the empty space you once took up.
The voices speak of our love
The voices cry over our love
The voices fade
Slowly into the dark abyss,
As I fade into my dreams
And before I sink into the kaleidoscope of colors that flood my cerebral cortex
The voices screetch
''YOU LOVED HER YESTERDAY , YOU LOVED HER TODAY , YOU WILL LOVE HER TOMORROW !".
The kaleidoscope of colors take over and into a world of blur and haze I disapear in search of my sanity , in search of you.

When I had you I found comfort in you ,
When I lost you I found comfort in your memory ,
When I forgot you I found comfort in my dreams of you ,
When I stopped sleeping I found comfort in my hallucinations of you ,
When I lost my sanity I found our broken love in my insanity ,
now im on the break of insanity and I found my broken heart still beating the song of our broken love  waiting for the insanity to claim me.
Why was our love written on broken stones ,
Why was our love written in doomed  stars,
Why did we fall in love only to implode.
Why did I fall in love
Why did I fall in love
Why did I fall in love
Why did I fall in love
Why did I fall in love
Why did I fall in love
Why did I fall in love with you.

God help me
i cant breathe
i cant feel
she has taken over me
she has ruined me
she has broken me
every minute of everyday since the day she left i've lived in hell
since the day she left i've lost all hope
god help me
i miss her so much
i cannot love another
god help me
this pain is killing me inside
take this pain away i beg for your mercy please take this pain away or take me
this life you've gifted me is falling apart
god please help me
its killing me
i can no longer numb this pain inside
god please help me
i've begun to dig my own grave because she's killing me
this love i have for her is killing me
god please help me
Yes i miss her unconditionally , yes i wish she was here with me  
but oh lord im dying theres no more tears left to cry
theres no more rope left to climb
god please i beg you please god help me take away this pain take me lord its killing me

I once loved you
I once called you mine
I once told all I'm going to die in those arms that held me warm.
I once saw the world end and you held my hand and stood at my side till the end.
What happend , was it not true love or was is a true lie.
I hate the way I feel , I hate missing you so much
I hate not being free from this love
I hate our memories
But I still love you
I still love those arms
I still love that smile
I still love everything that I know nothing about.
I once called you my love , my life , I once made you my everything while you knew we were going to be nothing.
I hate you
I hate everything about you
I hate you with a desire but I love you with a passion.
I love everything about you
I love you
All this confusion while you rest warm in his arms and I stand in the cold keeping warm with memories.
I love you , but I can't have you , I can't be with you , I don't want you .
I'd rather love a picture of you after all a picture lasts longer.

how long will this pain last
how long will my slain heart cry?
They all tell me to forget you
like i have'nt been trying
they all say move on
but how do i with only half a heart left to love
they say so much
so much for their futile ideas
ideas i've tried
ideas that have made me cry
in the end all i an do is lie
just lie to them all to satisfy their hopeless hope with a sense of help
i dont know where you are or where to start but i cant forget you or our love
i cant forget anything.
Least of all you
but then again how do i forget you while remembering to forget you.