i cant hold on anymore
i cant hope anymore
its only been a year but it feels like decades without you.
I scream into the darkness of the night in hope to find the light you once shun on me to keep me warm.
I hold onto the cold in hope of finding the warmth you once held me with.
I cant see anything anymore , not love , not happiness , not even a future which is bright.
All i see is pitch black emptiness , where i'm going from here is unknown.
Do i care ?
No. I cant live a life without you , im not strong enough without you , i'm not good enough for you and i cant seam to get over you.
Im at the end , no more hope , no more trying to cope without you.
If the world comes crumbling beneath me , i wont run i'll fall in with the memory of you.
If the sky falls i wont run i'll be crushed with the last thought of our memories.
If I move away from you , i shall be taken away , i shall loose myself , my humanity , i'll loose whatever i have keeping me , me

They ask me what my dying words will be , they
ask me what will my biggest regret be on my
death bed, what my death wish will be , they ask me all these questions of
death yet I'm alive .
But death comes just as swift as the wind , just as fast as the waves on the shore , death has no
time limit like us.
They say before you die your life flashes right
before your eyes , all your regrets , all your
dreams everything layed out like a red carpet.
If I die tomorrow , or if I die today , whenever I die I know I will see you.
I will see your beauty
I will hear your laugh as seldom as I did hear it
I will see your eyes
But most of all I'll see your smile
The one thing that always held me now in your absence.
On cold dark nights you would hold me tight ,
you would smile and say "its okay I'm here" , on
rainy days where thunder and lightening took
over the sky you smiled and said "its okay I'm
here" through every up and down you held me and smiled , holding the pain , fear , the sorrow
away from me.
If dying tomorrow means seeing your smile
again then I shall gladly die everyday
If dying tomorrow means seeing you again I
shall gladly go towards it If dying means being with you in my memories
then its not dying to me its living everyday for
aslong as I remember you.
If I could go back I would hold you every time
you said " it's okay I'm here" and tell you how
much I love you If I could go back I would tell you more often
than I did how much I love you
If I could go back I'd spend everyday-
every minute of everyday and night making you
smile.
Our time together had an expiration date but my love for you never did and never will. My awnser
to their question of death are
My biggest regret will be you not at my side
My dying wish will be to see you , and see you
smile again
my dying words will be your name.
If I die tomorrow before my soul departs from this world I will come find you and hold you one
final time.
I just wish and pray that someday you come
back and smile at me so you can make me whole
again.

You and I were meant to be
We were the stars shinning brightest in the nights sky
We were the light in each others eyes keeping darkness away
We were each others hope when there wasn't hope anymore.
We were destined to be together
We were faiths favourite
Where did we go wrong ?
Where did I go wrong ?
We've reached our end
Our ******
Our not so happy ending
Because where we are now there is no going back
My heart is dead and yours belongs to another
For a time I believed in love I believed in a life with you at my side now I only see my side
For a time I was warm in the winter now I live with the cold
For a time I felt the future was bright and now ...
And now I don't know , I promised , I lied , I cheated , you cried , you promised , you lied , you cheated I cried
Same story different meanings , different lies I never cheated I never lied I promised but I can't cry
You broke what ever love was left in my heart , you took whatever light I held in the dark , you opened pandoras box in my soul and whatever darkness was in there consumed me whole and when it was done you ate my hope the last bit left in the depth of my pandoras box.

There may have been a time I was soft
There may have been a time I cared
But that time is over.
You say if I don't start caring again I'm going to loose you
They say if I don't start feeling again their going to leave
But no one sees
No one sees that I do care just not in the open anymore
No one sees that I do feel just not as easily as before
Not many know that to fix a broken heart you have to mend it with iron but iron melts , so I tried aluminium
But its shiny appearance attracts to many theives, so I tried steel but its weak ability left me open than I remembered what I was once told , what the hardest metal can hold so I covered my heart with titanium.
Once you've been hurt by love its hard going back, and once your trust in love has been broken its hard to trust it again , I was once forced to play a game where I lost everything and a man who lost everything has nothing left to loose so leave or stay but my attitude will remain and my Titanium heart will never again feel all that pain of love.

Time no longer has value
It once took hours to do what merely takes seconds
It once stopped for the lovers who first met now let's them walk right past each other.
I can't help ease my heart from the question you fear to ask.
The question your heart holds but eyes ask,
The question I wish I could truly awnser .
"How long will you love me?"
I can't give an exsact date or time if any .
But I know this for as long as there's a beat in my heart I will love you,
As long as there's fish in the water I'll keep coming back to you
As long there's life on this earth I'll protect you
As long as there's life in me I'll always be by you
I can't gurantee any of this but I can promise that for as long as you and I are together I'll always , always love you

I'm tired of this monotonous ritual I've been performing.
I'm tired of this cold feeling I've been holding.
I'm tired of missing you.
People say time heals , its been so long and this pain , this lonely pain of you being gone for so long has eaten every part of my hope , its become my cancer , you've become my cancer.
Just as the lyrics from music runs through our minds so does all your truthful lies.
And like a beacon one part of our love stands out the part with all your promises full of lies.
I can't pretend I'm okay any longer
I can't pretend I'm not sick
Because I'm sick , I'm sick of you , I'm sick of missing you , I'm sick of silently screaming for you to come back , I'm sick of not wanting to love anyone else.
The day you left was the day I died , the day you left was the day the world lost me. The day I become sick the day love , hope , faith and trust all broke like the ties and bridges we made together.

In a world where every day is a battlefield
In a world where every night is covert mission
In a world where every wound is a battle scar
In a world where weeks are years of torture
In a world where bombs and missiles are the nights stars
In a world where there is no hope I hold on to you , to the fight for you , to the hope of seeing you again, in a world where everything is going to end I have no attachments , I have no weaknesses I have no hopes or dreams but in a world where you and I exist I have only one weakness, one reason to fight and one reason to change the smoke to clouds , the bullets to flowers the pain to hope I have only one reason to keep going . I have only you to keep fighting for.