Another year has passed
Still the same as the last
I still hesitate to ask
I want to end this fast

From day one we were distant
We barely talked
I wish I wasn't hesitant
But you were tight as a lock

With each passing year
I Yearned for change
Little did I know
That I,  should've changed

Like a schizm enlarging
We grew farther apart
Is what my mind would tell me
So that I would fall apart

I never knew her side
Mysterious as a feline
Blank as a paper
My mind would repeat this over and over

Puzzling she was
Harder than a rubicks cube
She would smile
And brighten up my mood

Regrets still linger
Of actions that could be better
A dance that could've been sweeter
Or a friendship that should've been warmer

She was everything i didnt want
But she was perfect in every way
She was something i could'nt understand
But I loved her anyway

Until now this situation is static
We talk but it doesn't get dramatic
We see each other, wave our hands
We say goodbye without sa glance

Though everything's over
And we separate farther
I just wanted to know
Before we say goodbye forever

Behind your mysterious demeanor
Was there any room to be your lover?
Was there any chance to share your heart?
Or any feeling that you wanted to love?

Another day
Another hour
Another feeling
That must be devoured

The feeling of earth's weight
Pressing against your shoulders
All of people's expectations
And their so called opinions

Gravity is simple
But many fail to understand
That the longer the cup is held
The more painful it becomes

Its weight starts to double
And I start to tumble
Loosing will to stand up
I beg myself not to give up

My arms become numb
And my head's a blur
I want rest already
But still want more

Knees shaking
I start crying
Is this the end?
Can I stop fighting?

Why do I fight?
Why must I keep fighting?
Can't I just resign?
Or must I keep resisting?

After a day of life
I realize fatigue
Comming from my mind
So I quickly rush to rest

I come home
To a sweet surprise
A bright candyset
Right before my eyes

A gift of life
To me,  for my sufferings
A time for rest
While savoring sweet bliss

One was a lolipop
Very huge and intimidating
But I took the challenge!
To taste its shiny coating!

I smile in anticipation
Experiencing the sensation
Bittersweet satisfaction
I nearly cry from sheer elation

Bright red droplets pour
Each time the lollipop melts
It's somewhat thick
But soft like the cushion for pins

Next was candy
With somewhat hard coating
It was also big
And kind of heavy

I ogle at its odd shape
It was very tempting to take
But I strengthened my resolve
I was determined open it

While contemplating
I notice a long cherry licorice
Again tempted to grab it
But I daydreamed instead

Thinking of what kind
Of sweet surprise
That may open
A window to a sweeter life

Waking up
I remember the chore
That's still in front of me
That I had made before

Concentrating I slowly pull
The sturdy string hiding its jewel
Excited I unconsciously put
The mystery candy in my mouth

Even though it is still wrapped
I was too excited I could taste the wrap
But suddenly to my surprise
My parents come in just time

The seemed surprised
that I found the candy
Smirking I looked guilty
But I already wanted to finish quickly

Scared I might get a toothache
They quickly rush to my aid
I smiled and tugged with my finger
And said to them, shall I pull the trigger?