I have no fear of death.
            no heart to break.
            nothing to spoil.
            no love to fake.
There are no repercussions.
      I have nothing to lose.
              
                                   I should be free.

The world collapses Inward
upon itself.
I don't want to live like this
anymore Goodbye to all
the doubters.
Farewell Hell, I'll see you soon
Anew
The Underworld burns
brighter In reality.
Flames licking with clarity.
Your endless torment —
A bore.
I died this way a thousand times
Night and Day.

We talked about
The things
I couldn't put you through.
The end of my pain,
Your genesis.
My life unknown
Unused,
Swallowed whole.
Slowly, each day —
Hell upon Hell.
Falling stars
Crashing to ground,
Cataclysm.
Friends. Lovers.
I never meant to waste away.

SPEAK or you'll be forgotten.
Creation without thought
without merit.
express without care
kisses void on
yesterday's love
(without question).
your ugly youth,
Clutching at straws
Stained by inexperience
desperate to be
misunderstood
there's nothing raw
within you.
Just play the game
Mouthing words
you couldn't understand.

and in that moment
Your true nature
was revealed.
The looks that didn't matter
Now obvious,
Unforgiving.

Let me show you —
Just how ugly I can be.

My idiot words cannot express
The dying that I feel inside
Instead they
Idly show distress
So foolishly, I hide.
Each day sadly lingers on
Repeating endless
Misery.
Another timeless
Wave of dread,
Upon this blackened sea.
Unlike the rest
Who pray and toil
To forever leave their mark,
I want to vanish
Without trace
Buried in the dark.

I couldn't find
a mark that's true
falling       so far away from you.
words are
ashes in my mouth
though will not let me choke
each glassy eye
that roves on me
Can only see a joke.
I'm gone, so gone
yet permanent. A creature
in a snare.
Engage my tongue, my heart, my skin
Yet you won't find me there.
Give up these earthly
monuments
give up the love that
waned.
each trace of me
A poison.
A human,
Tho abstained.