I don't mind being sheltered
If you are both my walls and my roof
Just don't come crashing down on me
Else,

Haven't you met anyone yet?
They like to ask

I've met a lot of somebodies
But I am a difficult person
Even I wonder how I live with myself
I  complicate things when I don't  overthink them

Why would you ask that?
Haven't you met me?

My problem is that I do not share
I keep too much of myself in
I never say enough
Just the right amount to get through
Never enough to clear me from your diagnosis

Doctor, I am trying
But my mouth has eyes
It shuts at people it hasn't chosen
Thing is- it's never chosen anybody
I need to choose at least a somebody

You have a garden in your bones and the universe on your skin
The spots on your face and scars on your knees aren't flaws
They are stars being born and stars that are slowly dying
You are not pretty, you are interesting
Mankind has made an entire subject about what you carry

And don't worry about hurting
The roses that are blooming inside you are just growing thorns
There are also vines that needed pruning
So on nights you don't feel spectacular, here's a vision:
A meadow teeming with life inside you

i like to believe the condition of our soul and body has a lot to do with our attitude towards sleeping.

children hate it because their souls are too alive that their bodies neglect to feel the need for sleep.

adults love it because no matter how strong their body has become, it still couldn't contain the exhaustion of their soul.

tonight, i am the intersection of a kid and someone who has grown. i am growing.

i am in a constant struggle between exhaustion and liveliness. of weakness and strength.

tonight is one of those nights i wish i didn't need sleep. live soul, tired body.

i'm giving all the warning signs
screaming all the wrong things
crying out all the bad tears
but no one's paying attention
no one's listening
"maybe it's just hormones"
"you're overreacting"

it has been a dry year
with occasional thunderstorms and rainfalls
it's tiring enduring all the dry
until i could get to the short rainfall
then it's dry again

dismiss my feelings
they're erupting
got nowhere to go

take it lightly
i'll fade out with them