When inspiration dries
and compassion has expired
I am left crying
and bent on my knees
Not for my current misery
but for my realization
And while I may love you
I know it is more than true
That you are beautiful, baby
but you are not the one

You say that things will be better now
that we can go back to how things were
Smiling I say nothing
I wish I could believe you

But I know
things will never
be the same

A burning sunset
Waving trees
The sky cries
but let nothing dampen the mood
This world, my existence
has been replaced
by the warmth
of you in my arms

It never feels
how it used to
how it was meant to
how we wanted it

I died to let you go
killing myself over and over in your absence

but your return
did nothing more than **** my suffering

You have freed me from your torment
but in it's place left an emptiness

for I used to know what I wanted
but now I am truly left with nothing

I think I might
secretly love attention
But have no idea
how to accept it

The night's cold wind
blows gently across my face
carefully pushing my hair into vision
With an assertive finger
I put it back in place
out of the way

and question
what I did
to deserve this

We walk these streets
while this city sleeps
Unaware of all its flaws
and countless disfunctions

This is our time
Let us burn this city down
And laugh
as their walls cry
and bleed

In the awakening inferno
We rip the sky into the earth
As the chaos unfolds
Upon the holy and unholy alike

The heavens will open
and tear us apart
As we try to remember
who we once were

Their eyes now opened
They too cannot sleep
The mindless zombies
now too walk the street

**** with me baby
Let's play your twisted little games
And watch us fall to the floor
Let's erase everything
Destroy my world
and I will gladly destroy yours too
I hope you're ready love
because it's time to burn

From deep below your throat
It would seem your words appear
Provoking more than pain
with a tinge more of fear

It seems every time you open your mouth
All those words broken
Cut me like razor blades
Every sharpened word spoken

But listen on
this torture I must endevour
Unlike my fresh wounds
These scars will last forever

And as every piercing word
echos through and destroys my mind
every shred of hope, respect
and confidence I may ever find

But know you what you say
is for yourself protect
Not realizing that your words
will give me nights of sleeplessness

And even though we are foolish
and still rather young
For the toxic things you say to me
I hope you choke on your own tongue

Dare I sleep
when I fear to dream
Everything I wanted
slipping away at the seams
Try not to get lost in it
As true as it seems
That face isn't real
even if for you the smile gleams

You may want to run away
and hide there forever
Just give up
and quietly surrender
Fading out
as her beauty begins to render
To sacrifice it all
once again to feel love so tender

A hooded figure
walks the night
Walking in shadows
keeping out of sight

The road he travels
walked on by all
Heartbreak and tragedy
not hearing mercy's call

The darkness he walks in
hides but his face
Not the tears or thoughts
or the memories he tries to erase

Blankets of shadow
cover arms crying with the mark
But everything is okay
as long as he remains in the dark

Torn flesh
chest shredded
Your knife has found its mark
and brutally defiled
my broken heart

I'm sorry
I can't be
I'm not what you wanted
I can't be that
I'm not willing to destroy myself any more
I will never be him

A tender kiss
a blade in my back
Whispering confessions
as the sharpened nails retract
Temporary satisfaction
allows our misery distract

It wasn't meant to be this way
I don't know what to do
It was meant to be perfect
I cried with soaked remorse
It was meant to be worth the sacrifice
I knew it wasn't

These expectations
Our hopes were just lies
We gave up living
For our broken dream
Lost our freedom
In the hopes to be free
So easily did we fall
to find something true
I faintly remember
a time
when
i loved you

You tied this noose around my neck
And don't you ever forget
As you never dripped a drop of sweat
Or showed any sign of regret
Acting as if you were never any threat
Whispering deathless words below your breathe
Constantly reminding me how great it was with Seth
Your trap was finally set
To have me more addictive to you than ****
Guess you are going to win your bet
No longer will you have to me address
Now that you have me begging for sudden death

Sleepless nights
and dreams in shadow
Rolling over and over
forever lost in battle
Trying to open sleep's door
but someone has removed the handle
Memories of a *****
covered by golden mantle

Within the starlight gaze
grow shrooms below
lightly decorating
the silent grove
filling a place of beauty
with a touch of mystery
and gently covering the dirt

Caught in the blaze
Burning in the apocalyptic fire
Scorching in the moment
Words escape me
And turn to ethers
Burning before they were born
The pit of my stomach
Encages the answer I seek
But those winged faeries
Stand with me but dont speak
Held back by fear
Trapped behind trembling lips
And unnecessary doubt
Burning me
but not letting the warmth in

Angel with broken wings
i beg you be brave
For as useless as I am
help you i shall save

For you see not of such beauty
and hate who you are
Try convince you otherwise
but all that is returned are scar

That perfect hair
and those beautiful eyes
Self inflicted wounds
and filled with manifesting lies

Don't listen to them
just try find yourself
You are more than them
more than just another book on the shelf

And I don't care how long it takes
till this for you I prove
I shall you protect
and your wounds try soothe

Maybe I can't help
but then I will die trying
Because I cannot just sit around
when an angel is crying

Scarlet petals cover the grove
Swallowed by the cold night breeze
In the midst of the silence
Heard only the sound of dripping
As silent movements are held
Beneath the starlit sky
Fearful tears
Bring new born wounds

A shattered heart
Drenched in beauty
Tries to forgive the unforgivable
And accept what is done
As one becomes two
And two become one

Oh, you're new here
Let me show you around
This here is the room of heartbreak
And that's where you will break down

You'll need to register at the office
Pick up a few new issues and perhaps some pills
Let your eyes gray a little
And leave behind your social skills

Now don't look at me with such distrust
I know this may sound absurd
This phase is a little complicated
And perhaps a little disturbed

No need to be confused
Many have gone through the same
It's just a matter of time before you forget yourself
And can't remember your own name

And on the right side
you will find your new room
Left within the previous stains
perhaps now it is white, but that's never how it remains

This may be going fast
But you'll get the hang of it quick
If insanity doesn't get you first
And you try tear down this room brick by brick

Fear will befriend you
And try grab you while you sleep
It will turn all happiness against you
The sadist ******* just wants you to weep

And now that you're all acquainted
This is your new home
Take your medication, and don't trust anyone
Remember, you're now on your own

This will have to conclude our tour
At reception please leave all of your hopes
Welcome to Misery
I'll gladly show you the ropes

My dear
I know you might not think that this is right
That I don't mean to give you a fright
Or into your conscience bite
While often we may have fight
This is not for guilt to create or for you spite
But I remember the times when we were tight
Before you couldn't stand me in your sight
And with me smile or laugh you might
In memory your face was always bright
And within the darkness you were always the light
Unfortunately these good times have faded and blight
And with my best wishes that this for you I write
You will always be in my heart, but I shall not be coming home tonight

I'm not perfect
I won't deny that
But I'll never back down from a fight
not even a tiny spat

I've made mistakes
lots, and I'm aware
I can no longer sleep at night
I'm overflowing with fear

I have some trust issues
because of what the past has done to me
I'm broken, just an incomplete kid
Struggling to decide on who to be

And in the darkness I loom
Because the light hurts so much more
When I look for comfort
I'm always just shown the score

For sleep evades me
and misery my best friend
But death keeps his distance
torturing me till the end

Reality is a realm
in which nothing is real
Tempts you with happiness
then takes it before you feel

Belonging is a myth
a memory that seems so far away
I can't help but think
that perhaps I was dreaming that day

For when you live in hell
it is rather hard not to burn
To turn psychotic
and give the others a turn

But let temptation rest
and lay my weapon down
I'll accept your torment
yet you still question my frown

But dreams I may hold
as distant as they seem
For individual accomplishments
the leader of my own team

For this world may push me down
don't think I won't try
I may not have wings
but that doesn't mean I can't fly

Sitting side by side
happiness not felt for a desolate while
As hand creeps around shoulder
causing silent giggle and nervous smile

A sigh of relief
as her head against him lean
Heart beating and eyes closing
feeling that what cannot be seen

Both unsure
from the pasts pain that has been dealt
But both eased
as the presence of the other is felt

And as the moments fade
laying there with nothing in their sight
They lay comfortably motionless
as day rapidly turns to night

For they are both nervous
that the wrong message they might send
So they quietly lay there against each other
begging for the day to never end

Sip on his poison
lay your defenses waste
Pour down his toxin
Overwhelmed by the taste

You don't know why you do it
But now you are in his grasp
Foolishly signing the contract
Without seeing what's behind the mask

Young beauty
offers her heart without a clue
Unaware of the devious intentions
His affection always untrue

In the devils den
The clueless girl smiles
Among the scent of others unloved
He another beauty defiles

Smiles and rainbows
Within the epicenter of joy
A state of overwhelming happiness
that nothing could possibly destroy

The thought of being with her
Such images could not be dispatched
With her face in mind
that of beauty unmatched

But this warm sensation
now holds a tinge of frost
And for this evening of perfection
soon hope shall be lost

For he approaches
with no fear in mind
Only confidence to be shown
no doubt to be left behind

But as they meet
concern begins to grow
As the happiness that was on his face
on hers does not show

And the love drunk boy
is now painfully sober
In two simple words he is crushed
when hearing "it's over"

Look down on me
Point, laugh or stare
Just because of the way I dress
or the length of my hair

Why don't you just make a joke
See if I ******* care
I'll beat the **** out of you
say it to my face if you dare

These scars contain meaning
not because of trash like you
Mention them one more time
and I'll give you a few

I think it's time you back up
and back in your seat you sit
For I may not be the strongest
but I won't take nobodies ****

And I swear if you push me
that you will regret
I'll have you begging for your life
before I even begin to sweat

Contest and you'll see
I'll put the trash in the bin
I may be a loser
but in this I will win

Two of a pair
Always seen side by side
Even in rough times
The other was always along for the ride

But as time passed
And things became rotten
Those close little memories
Like each other were forgotten

And it wasn't long
before each other they couldn't stand
Another awkward encounter
He wasn't even willing to take my hand

And now my old brother
Watch as I slam your face into the mud
You can't get out of this, *******
it was written in blood

Sleeping mornings
and backward time
Wealthiest of wealthy
hold not a single dime

Falling sunsets
and saddened sand
Broken completeness
within withered hands

Eery births
and cheered funerals
Hollow footsteps
and lost potential

Blind stares
and empty breath
Bloodied love
and gold-rusted death

Regardless of the season
No matter the reason
I'll always remain by your side

For all time and existance
No matter the distance
Never let your feelings hide


Anything you have to say
I'll always be here
Even if I can't help
I'll always lend an ear

For the friendship we hold
is more than they could ever see
I'll always be here for you
as I know you would be for me

Crystal drops
and unified faith
Heated motions frozen
at the hand of love's wraith

Young hearts
mold together under mistle arc
The beginning is always perfect
initial love always feels stark

As time progresses
and they lay in park
Just like the dogs around
they too begin to bark

To each other become weary
no longer holding that precious spark
They grow tired of each others company
and push their love into the dark

"Just kidding"
a simple harmful joke being said.
Not seeing what follows
with the child crying under their bed

An insult
followed by a punch thrown
Those bruises are nothing
compared to when he gets home

Unincluded and unwanted
love left amissed
Better ways to deal with the pain
now holding scars on his wrists

Relations destroyed
life in complete dismay
A blood pile covers the floor
beside a suicide letter lay

Clear Ice Shard
marked with the blood of woe
Sins have been conducted
and are visible in the snow

Trail on the path
footsteps in the snow covered mud
A body is being dragged
and follows tracks of blood

Into the frozen forest
and far out of sight
Further the capter drags you
in the darkest of night

Past the rugged shrubs
and on beyond the snowy rocks
Besides a smoking campfire
does he the body drops

Ponder and wonder
to what will now follow
Bring he forth a trunk
contents which are hollow

And in this cold night
motionless the body cannot speak
But frighten the capter
as he hears a vile screech

As the crows surround
gazing upon the ****** pile
Attracted they are
to a stench so vile

Words muttered
and a blunt knife
Searing through a body
that recently contained life

In the cold night
his catch no longer warm
Torn and shredded into pieces
As winds turn to storm

Nails black and red
blood soaked skin
A unshaven beard
and the smell of gin

Bones fill the ground
and mark the den of the beast
As another is consumed
and you have become part of the cannibals feast

Murmur of ancestors
preconceptions we are taught
Even when the truth is all around us
still in shadows we shall walk

Sleepless nights
Left by a new reason
And my heart has changed
With the season

My arms are cold
It lacks our friction
I miss you so much
My beautiful new addiction

When friendships wither
and abruptly come to end
One thing I'm sure of
is that I'll never leave you dear friend

A perfect rose
turned to a withering flower
Youth and effort
depleting by the hour
What once was fun
has now become sour
And in compassion's absence
so has hope devour

Those of glory
and those within light
Those of moonshine
and those out of sight
Those with memories
and those with none
Those who hide
and those who fear what's done

Those who cry
and those who weep
Those who break hearts
and those who sleep
Those that lie
and those of truth
Those who break
and those who soothe

Those who construct
and those who destroy
Those who are real
and those who are decoy
Those who mix
and those who curd
Those who can speak
and those who can't be heard

Staring into her manipulative eyes
is as if to climb into my own hearse
For I have surrendered myself
and become victim to her curse

As battle rages
fight with what you choose
But don't underestimate the capability
of the man with nothing to lose

Listen,
just try to hear the beat
Of a heart so tired from breaking
Butchered and beaten
stabbed and walked on
So many times have I fell
yet this broken heart craves more
It may take the beating
but it does not see the tears
But being hurt
is better than being alone it cries
In moments of depression
even to myself my heart lies
It no longer is able to see it
but I would like something true
Before I hand it over
tell me why I should give it to you

The death of friendship
allows negativity to seer
Watch your back naive hypocrite
that closed door is the birthplace of fear

Cry out your eyes
Scream all you can
Get lost in another world
far from reality you ran

Rip open your sleeves
Question whether you are sane
We all need our own way
to deal with the pain

What is one more,
just another sleepless night
With the vague touch of familiarity
into my sanity you bite

Beloved bed upon who I lay
rest body but not sight
Ask for one moon of forgiveness
or ask if free breath may be right

For just a simple exchange
a wink of sleep I fight
Even in those few moments
my dreams now raised to a new height

Forgive myself I cannot
continuing as lost souls their blight
Rolling back and forth
in my bed as winded kite

Your words roam in my mind
what you said holds so tight
But I beg of you
that one tormentless night you might

For it is darkness I seek
but you only provide white
Not knowing what can be done
to escape the inevitable and forth coming light

Show me those fake smiles
allow me them all consume
Fill me up with your empty happiness
or allow the despair to resume

Staring at the carnage
emotions left to dry
Cavities and loose bearings
lost in the vacancy of the night sky

Lost but never alone
beneath their shadows I hide
In the heaven of happiness
but that love I am denied

Presence as solid as fear
and soul whittled and torn
Scared to even breath
footsteps covered and life forlorn

I cannot forget
the time which we held
Years went passed
as together our hearts did meld

Remembering
always brings back a tinge of fear
But I can not let you go
my other half, you were beauty dear

She was perfection
and I'll never forget the time we had
I loved her always
even at the times she was mad

But I cannot forgive myself
for letting her go
Losing her
feels as a knife has struck a deep blow

Ignore me she shall
she'll try me forget
But even if two years have passed
still nothing I regret

For I'd do anything to be with her
anything to be part of her plan
But the bed I once laid in
is now shared with another man

personally I have nothing against him
his reckless ways of going without a care
why she loves him
is something i couldn't possibly comprehend
for I know him not
but he is all i stand against
perfection by his side
but he continues to resent
care not for him
but for her sake I fear.
a girl of such beauty
forever cast in tear

for he doesn't even notice
if he did he just doesn't care
what could she ever do
to recieve this despair

and helplessly here i stand
with motive but no action
i'd love to save the princess
but i am no hero
she wants him
and i am but an observer
treated as if i have no shade
but knowing i would never hurt her
what id do for her to notice me
and no longer hurt further.
for the grip he holds over
seems like her hearts ******

and helplessly here i stand
all i do is pages worden
but as i try to help her
standing in her way i seem a burden

If i was to retake my actions
am I to expect no reaction?
If I was to live a lie
is to allow my current reality to die
Happiness may not be all of which I relies
but I need the comfort this position provides
I wouldn't want to live in some perfect life
with the ideal 2.5 children and fair wife
I may not like my choices of the past
but I know this hardship won't forever last
The results of our decisions you can see have rosen
not perfect, but it is what I have chosen.

Tears and ashes
just another life sold
Suffer shall the innocent
left out in the cold
Shift the blame on me
public's mind they shall mold
How dare you judge me
when your hands are covered in gold

I know there is a shadow
I know its watching over me
Watches me while I'm working
Watches me when I sleep

I never get a moment
of privacy or peace
Its just lurking over
Waiting for me to grant it release

How to banish this demon
How to set it free
I'd like to be alone now
I'd like to hear my plea

Suppose it is ironic
that I want to be alone
When the reason for its presence
is that I am on my own

But how I want my freedom
But how I want to scream
As this is my follower
As this is my dream

In the morning daybreak
I would want it directly see
For all my fears, insecurities
will allow this shadow to consume me