Self indulged in rage-infested thought
Remain I my last resort
Dreams of cheer and plans we lay
Foolishly thinking we would come to that day

For then we thought we would ever last
Not to shatter to pieces in'a sudden blast
Talking on how we would name our children
Deep inside I feel as if I hav't **** them

Left alone in a sleepless night
Nothing but guilt, spil't left and right
For one who had such a clear conscience
To a mind of pain and other worthless nonsense

Dare I wish I you never met
Or hope you find a cruel death
For my mind has no place to lie
Filled with graves of the dreams you let die

Perhaps
what was lost
was never meant to be found

And after all my efforts
to forget
Here, now,
you stand before me

No longer
do I desire you
more than I do to exist
No longer
do I need you
to be with happy with my every decision

Heaven before me,
yet I remain untouched.
Considering
what I know to be inconsiderable.
Soaking in the moment
thinking of the potential
Smiling,
and then walking away.

Sating my broken desire
on this innocent moment of insanity.

You open your mouth
and more inside me dies
Your reasons, your excuses
I'm getting ******* sick of your lies

You tell me how he is like a brother
nothing more than just a friend
While sharing jokes behind my back
but hear nothing I shall pretend

Going out you say,
but wont tell me where
Deep down I know and fear
but buried I will remain in this despair

For I fear to lose you
my feelings have grown to you like rust
But after all the things you do
do you really expect to hold my trust?

To call this a relationship
would be an utter disgrace
How am I supposed to care for you
when you ******* lie to my face?

drenched in a blanket of flames
burning in the unforgiving immolation of disappointment
I reach out into the vacant space before me
through the embers I see scorching eyes
held in place by their own blistering inferno
imprisoned by the flames which hold them within
crying out as all which was cold within me burns
those eyes of compassion, love and jealousy
watch as the fire engulfs me completely

I prefer to walk in the dark
Thinking that I will not need to fear
what I am not able to see
But to surround yourself in darkness
is to walk blind
And while you may be surrounded
by both compassion and torment
You will neither absorb nor fear
what is out of sight
And I'm sorry to say
that being a shadow
does not provide you with immunity
And does not mean
that what you cannot see
will not hurt you