My dear
I know you might not think that this is right
That I don't mean to give you a fright
Or into your conscience bite
While often we may have fight
This is not for guilt to create or for you spite
But I remember the times when we were tight
Before you couldn't stand me in your sight
And with me smile or laugh you might
In memory your face was always bright
And within the darkness you were always the light
Unfortunately these good times have faded and blight
And with my best wishes that this for you I write
You will always be in my heart, but I shall not be coming home tonight

I'm not perfect
I won't deny that
But I'll never back down from a fight
not even a tiny spat

I've made mistakes
lots, and I'm aware
I can no longer sleep at night
I'm overflowing with fear

I have some trust issues
because of what the past has done to me
I'm broken, just an incomplete kid
Struggling to decide on who to be

And in the darkness I loom
Because the light hurts so much more
When I look for comfort
I'm always just shown the score

For sleep evades me
and misery my best friend
But death keeps his distance
torturing me till the end

Reality is a realm
in which nothing is real
Tempts you with happiness
then takes it before you feel

Belonging is a myth
a memory that seems so far away
I can't help but think
that perhaps I was dreaming that day

For when you live in hell
it is rather hard not to burn
To turn psychotic
and give the others a turn

But let temptation rest
and lay my weapon down
I'll accept your torment
yet you still question my frown

But dreams I may hold
as distant as they seem
For individual accomplishments
the leader of my own team

For this world may push me down
don't think I won't try
I may not have wings
but that doesn't mean I can't fly

Sitting side by side
happiness not felt for a desolate while
As hand creeps around shoulder
causing silent giggle and nervous smile

A sigh of relief
as her head against him lean
Heart beating and eyes closing
feeling that what cannot be seen

Both unsure
from the pasts pain that has been dealt
But both eased
as the presence of the other is felt

And as the moments fade
laying there with nothing in their sight
They lay comfortably motionless
as day rapidly turns to night

For they are both nervous
that the wrong message they might send
So they quietly lay there against each other
begging for the day to never end

Sip on his poison
lay your defenses waste
Pour down his toxin
Overwhelmed by the taste

You don't know why you do it
But now you are in his grasp
Foolishly signing the contract
Without seeing what's behind the mask

Young beauty
offers her heart without a clue
Unaware of the devious intentions
His affection always untrue

In the devils den
The clueless girl smiles
Among the scent of others unloved
He another beauty defiles

Smiles and rainbows
Within the epicenter of joy
A state of overwhelming happiness
that nothing could possibly destroy

The thought of being with her
Such images could not be dispatched
With her face in mind
that of beauty unmatched

But this warm sensation
now holds a tinge of frost
And for this evening of perfection
soon hope shall be lost

For he approaches
with no fear in mind
Only confidence to be shown
no doubt to be left behind

But as they meet
concern begins to grow
As the happiness that was on his face
on hers does not show

And the love drunk boy
is now painfully sober
In two simple words he is crushed
when hearing "it's over"

Look down on me
Point, laugh or stare
Just because of the way I dress
or the length of my hair

Why don't you just make a joke
See if I ******* care
I'll beat the **** out of you
say it to my face if you dare

These scars contain meaning
not because of trash like you
Mention them one more time
and I'll give you a few

I think it's time you back up
and back in your seat you sit
For I may not be the strongest
but I won't take nobodies ****

And I swear if you push me
that you will regret
I'll have you begging for your life
before I even begin to sweat

Contest and you'll see
I'll put the trash in the bin
I may be a loser
but in this I will win

Two of a pair
Always seen side by side
Even in rough times
The other was always along for the ride

But as time passed
And things became rotten
Those close little memories
Like each other were forgotten

And it wasn't long
before each other they couldn't stand
Another awkward encounter
He wasn't even willing to take my hand

And now my old brother
Watch as I slam your face into the mud
You can't get out of this, *******
it was written in blood