She thought rain
She whispered to herself for days
As her door locked
Steel plated to keep her in
Lights out to break her sanity
Thunderclouds rolling in
Her foster father knew she was terrified
Yet that sadistic ******* only thought
Of how tight his daughter's ****** would be
If he locked her up and kept her to himself
Foster mom would enjoy watching
Sometimes even record the exploits
Her husband took in those uncharted land
She cried crimson tears
As they laughed at her agony
So she curled up and planned it out
Her Escape
It was simple
When they came to take her once more
She kick him in the *****
Her in the throat
And take a knife from the kitchen
Come back upstairs where they laid in agony
Plunge it deep into their chest
64 times
The amount of times that *******
Plunged himself into her
Storm clouds no longer rolling on the plains
But instead in her eyes as the hatred built
As the hunger for freedom burned
More than the fire her eyes felt
As they cried crimson tears
No longer of fear or pain
But this time
It was of joy and solitude
With them dead
No longer preying on her virginity
No longer stalking her dreams
Their dead and their chest
Are crying the same tears her eyes once cried

My talents as a poet
As a master of my sanity
Have began to fade away
My freedom to write
Moving powerful emotional pieces
Has deteriorated before my eyes
I've calmed the monster
To ease my grandmothers fears
Of losing her only successful grandchild
I've silenced the voices
To ease my deceased great grandmothers worry
That I'll join her in the heavens of my fathers memories
I've noticed I'm now nothing
Just the average joe
Watching Netflix and eating popcorn
Listening to music dreaming of being something
I've noticed
You read my work
Watched me perform
Understood the hatred I feel
Felt the pain I've endured so long
Grasped the love I once expressed
Yet now you're only looking for those things again
Looking for the long poems I once enjoyed writing
The ones that erupted with passion
For all things I thought of
Five minute poems
One night stands with lines
****** paper with pen
As I forced it to swallow the inky ***
I've always wanted to write my last and final poem
To finally be free of my insanity
And embrace the story of peace and solitude
But in this world those are just mirages
Boiling from the hallucination of my desert mind
I've noticed
I truly am just Robert Guerrero
The guy who dreamed impossible dreams
Only because his talent dried up

Sleeping on a bed that's not even mine
Counting sheep to fall asleep
There goes number 98654
I didn't think there was that many
Maybe I should count stars
I'm alone again
My shadow lost its form
When the lights went out

It would have been a whisper
A voice dancing on your eardrums
A slight breeze trough your hair
It would have been easy
Watching love blossom in the winter
Wild flowers goring through feet of snow
I should have just ended it
Walked away from everything
And never look back on all this
Was it a mistake....?
No....a learning experience
So I'll never get close to another person
I'll become the ghost I always was
In the hallways of your fleeting memories
Should I have ended it?
What would have been the point?
You broke my heart
I broke your sanity
Guess we're even
Not like I had anything going for me
Goodnight
Thought I'd just write my thoughts
One more time
Before I paint them on the canvas
The corner of my room has become

Every story has a criminal
The one after the treasure
The one set on destruction
Reaping chaos among the land
If this life was a Fairytale I'd be the villain
Set on making your world incomplete
I'd be the one trying to steal the treasure
Out of your locked down chest
Stripping you of a life of happiness
I'd be the one who failed to overcome
The tragedy of my past
Failed in mastering the art of love
I'm the nobody
Trying to make myself a god
If this was a fairytale I'd be the villain
I'd be the one always losing
I'd be the one to die in the end
I'd be the one you save
As you accidently plunge a blade through my emptying chest
As we lay there realizing the faults
We both made in this not so happy ending fairytale
We both don't get to live happily ever after
The main point of it was to see good and evil side by side
Happily joining forces to finally see the peace of mind
Yet death always is the price a villain must pay
When his goal is ending the world
Bringing new color into a faded world lost in chaos
The villain was the hero
The hero was the villain
Happiness was prevented
By the one they all gave the flag to wave in their name

Time flew by so quickly
Still these wounds don't heal
Maybe it's from the constant picking
As each scab is pealed back
To expose the pumping scar of humanity
Still roaring with life
Why haven't you returned
To claim what you own
To take from me
What I took from you
I imprisoned you in lies
Fed you 3 straight meals
Of nothing but *******
Taught you not of science or literature
But instead the pain that comes
When you love the warden
Of a maximum security prison
Where the only conicted ciminal
Is the ****** serial killer heart
Awaiting its electric chair moment
Or the lethal injection
Of your never ending hatred
We both know it deserves

It's an upside down smile
Painted beautifully across the sky
It always happens when I leave you're side
Your world starts getting pelted by golf ball size rain drops
Every time I return to you
You say it's like the warmth of the sun
Coming out from behind the clouds
Of weekdays spent missing me
You tell me to never leave again
Knowing I have to make money
Just to live in a world I'll never be able to call home
You try everything within your power to make it
Feel like a home
With rainbow smiles
Scents of food cooking
With jalapenos you know I love to eat
You come to bed half naked
Hoping I have time to give you the baby
You think will make us more of a family
I'm sorry I'm too broken to give you want you need
What you truly desire more in this world
But I've always seen the rain clouds
And never once have I felt the warmth of the sun
Or the power of hope you have for this world
I'm an alien to your senses
I'm a ghost to your emotions
I'm nothing while you hold me as if I was everything
Maybe I'm too dumb to understand
Maybe I'm not the one you should be making rainbows for
But I hope somebody else can make rainbows for you
Somebody more deserving to taste the foods you cook
Somebody that wants to go to bed half naked
I'm not that somebody
I'm that nobody you fell in love with for no reason
And I'm sorry for that.