You've helped pave the way
For blood to travel freely down
Flesh meant to be torn apart
Limbs to be melted into the form
Of a sleeping corpse
Blade you've become rusty
Your edges still sharp
Yet you show the stains
Where rivers flowed
Begging mercy as I ******-ed you into
Eyes of veins so they could no longer see the pain
Each nerve ending rattled with
But tonight I'm putting you down for good
Will you sink or float
You're no longer going across the oceans
You'll be going down
Setting a crimson glow to walls
Long since been vacant
Distant from the pain I've been cursed with

Like the moon and the sea
Push and pull
Gravity not really on our side
Forces of nature
Not sure where we are meant to be
Close enough to feel the chill done our own spines
As the icy tips of each others fingertips
Poke at the warming flesh
In and out
Make up your mind
Which direction are you heading
In the door towards our bed
Or out of my heart disappearing forever
Shadows cast by your moon light
Memories written on the sands
Washed way by my salty tears
Rolling and splashing into the rocks
Just the way we were meant to be
Possibly a guessing game
With one pawn
No rules
Just a simple title
LOVE

Her pain scorched into the sides of pillows
Branding feather stuffed sheets
With the catastrophe of her sorrow
Weeping at the thought that he'll never return

That's always going to be your name to me
It means perfection
It's a symbol of hope and peace
Adreishka Moonlight
My only light at the end of every tunnel
The only reason I'm abl to sleep peacefully at night
But with your disappearance
I'm finding myself lost in the dark again
Adreishka Moonlight
Just a nickname to who you really are
My One And Only
Guess I'd be insane if I didn't tell you
And I don't care if my girlfriend gets mad
You mean more to me than a petty fight
Adreishka Moonlight
The real you is the mother of our son Warrin
And I really miss you

One push one step
All it takes till they're all weeping
Horrified by the morbidity of my depression
This is what you all did as you watched in amusement
As flesh turned to stitches
Stitches turned to masks worn daily
This is the consequences to what you think is funny
Laughing at the gay guy
Picking on the nerds
Wedgies and swirlys
After school beatings
Lame excuses for the reason their noses are bleeding
One bullet away
And it's your conscious getting locked up
Guilty...Guilty...Guilty
It's all your fault
Your to blame for the red walls
Once painted a baby blue like the sky
Where they all found comfort in the clouds
Now they're waiting patiently
To assist in dragging you to hell
My depression is that of everyone I've lost
To the unreasonable bullying
You pathetic ******* just don't see
The torment your behind the back laughter
In the face fists
Face to **** stained porcelain
Maybe you should taste what you prescribed
For every gay, ****, *****, nerd, underling you so pleased
Priding yourself with their tears
Not realizing it wasn't the only thing you caused to cry
A wrist, a thigh, a chest
Now I'm filling graves you dug
With the bodies of my beloved misfits

Long awaited fate
Death's hand reaching out to me
Should I grasp it
What would happen
Would the boney fingertips guide me
Deep into the pits of hell
Or lead me into the life I was living already
Will I ever reach the place I was condemned to be
Or will I forever walk the same corridors of this everyday life
Passing masked faces that seem to think I'm still human
I died so many years ago
Is it sad that I await my fate
To be rapped by the trident in the right hand of the devil
Speared through the chest
As my body begins to be fed on by the tormented souls
I can consider my brethern
Don't ask me why but I want to go to hell
Bask in the flames of malice
Let my decadence for the last millenium
Burn and melt from my bones
I'd rather let the rotting souls
Feast on my sins
Then bear to watch them add up
Will I go to hell or live forever
I'd prefer living forever in hell
And everyday I'm not sleeping eternally
I'm living that dream

I'm not playing with legos
I'm not ripping Barbie's head off
I'm not that smiling kid anymore
I learned the pain that comes
When abandonment is everywhere
Pops gone so much
If I did the math He's probably been around
For about 3 years out of 17
So tell me if he's still a man
When money was the root of his departure
Time is more precious then money
Yet I've spent no time with him
You abandoned me the quickest
16 years I've watched the pain
Spread throughout my body like a virus
Overwhelming me
I'm done with converting it into anger and hate
Yet it's all I know
I've not once received an apology
For not doing anything to help me
You let the darkness consume me
You let the world feast on my soul
And the sinister teeth of almost every girl I've been with
Eat out the heart so cold
They considered it a dessert
I'm not three anymore
So the pain I feel I can understand
But it's not something a band-aid can fix
Not something a kiss from a mother can cure
So I hope you're happy with yourself