Darkness clouds my heart,
Because you will not be mine.
Mine so sweet as to
Not be my valentine.

Melancholy coldens your touch,
Against my lukewarm skin.
Even god will vouch
Against our sin.

You harshly deny,
Any hint of relationship,
And against the feel of you and your lips
I can tell you this is a lie.

Crushed and irate,
I feel the need to exasperate,
But honored by your need,
To feed on by hearts aching stings.

When night comes to take,
I feel a desire begin to quake,
For your body against mine,
And there you would be,
All I feel I have to do is sign
On the dotted line.


I think I understand,
Why to me you aren’t true.
But I think its time I reveal to you,
What I want and from whom.

A deadly relationship
To each of our pride.
But I have seen, and know you
Have another side.

I wish I could tell you
That this cannot go on.
But lust for your love, your touch
Has taken on my well of conscience.

True to me all
That I may not know,
The meaning of true love
I had hoped to find in you.

... To bad.

From deep within,
I feel me clench,
And writhe, and twist in pain.

Go away, I tell my demons.
And don’t you dare come back,
For another day.
For I’ll be waiting,
Silver Athme in hand

A tornado raging,
Inside my head,
Hurricane in my mind.
She said

“Sleep now, my child.
Sleep of joy and love
Without loss.
Of life without pain
Dream of all you are
Slipping from now.”

Wind in hair.
Snow cementing my heart.
Spring comes back
For a few more
Of my precious,
Counted months.

Don’t lose hope,
Just because of Shawn
Don’t lose your mind.
Just sing this happy song.

Be the gal everyone loves
You will always rise above.

Always do what you do best.
Take a deep breath
Give life’s meaning a rest
You managed to pass this test

Don’t think long on memories past.
Life is only something to outlast.
When your having trouble getting along
Just sing this happy song.

Sing this lovely Boheme.
Make it your life’s long theme.
Don’t let thoughts of that love dwell
Cause girl it wont do you well.

A sacred beauty, a true bohemian.
But a girl who brings home the bacon.
You are a woman’s woman.

Don’t let life get you down
Turn that frown upside down.
You have too much to live for
To be living life, emotionally poor.

When you down,
Sing this lovely song
It is something to help
You get along

Stop being pitiful,
You cant afford it
Especially when you are so beautiful.

Live life to the fullest.
Never let your nose touch the sky
When in doubt.
Sing this song and you will know why.

Crying out loud
******* inside
Hearing my own sound
Sanity denied

True calling made sane
Seeing others fate
Now its me true calling to be

Shrouded in white
In a blackened haze
Only bits and pieces
Will remain

Fist in fury
Padded walls work well
Get me the hell out
Right ******* now

Slowly going mad
Life slipping away
Blood coming back
And I think its here to stay

I sit here in the dark
Thinking, wondering
Where I should put the mark

With a knife in hand
I’m thinking back on life
My fathers chant
Running through my head
I only ran…away

I make the cut upon my thigh
The pain and blood act as my high

A few years later
When my shame is healed
A vile and cruel comment
Breaks through my built
Up shield.

Don’t cry because you have lost something,
Be glad because you have room for something more.
Consider it, an opening of another door.

Don’t laugh because someone you dislike is hurt.
Ask yourself inside, what is their life worth,
To someone whose disposition with them isn’t as curt.

Don’t be sorrowful, because something is never coming back,
Be joyful because it’s less to pack.
There’s more space on your incredible, ***** rack.

Don’t shout to the skies,
When someone you loathe, keels over and dies.
Keep in mind, all the questions and whys.

Here’s to you.
Here’s to me.
I will love you forever.
Its plain to see.

Life has grown cold,
Because you’re not here.
Cant you summon up,
One final cheer.

Here’s to the life we had.
Here’s to the life still to come.
Whatever joys or sorrows we face,
We have faced worse, maybe some.

This is my life with you,
I am happy no matter what.
Just do me a favor,
And don’t close shut.